Support for people with Depression

elfen

LM - I feel guilty too, but then I think if I didn't let OH know...then he'd think I'm going for no reason...but when he knows its a little easier somehow, like he's more aware of that I'm in a funny mood and I might be stressy or cry - it's been both for the last few days.

Haven't been in a good mood the last few days, nearly had a panic attack at uni. Today wasn't too bad, I wasn't on my own..I do feel like a clot though, I keep tripping over my own feet and feel an idiot. I know it's the meds, but how do you explain that to people who look, point and laugh.

greenpixie_2

Thanks everyone for your kind words

Haven't gone out today, just felt a bit down and i know that locking myself in my room is the wrong thing to do but i can't help it.

Didn't help when i went into the kitchen and the two people that i dislike the most in the house were in there with others. I just feel like they look down at me, i tried to make conversation but they just ignored me. I just wish that people wouldn't be so stuck up, they don't like me and thats fine because i don't like them but we have to live together so they could at least try to be friendly. This is why i don't really cook very often, because i don't want to go in the kitchen.

Decided that I'm going to go to town tomorrow and have a little wonder round the shops and maybe treat myself to something, I do need to get some food anyway. Its just nice to get out of the house and have a little walk around.

patchwork_cat

Haven't posted for a long time. But I am feeling like I just want to walk away. I was on fluoxetine for 8 years following a lot of family deaths and loss of all but one member of my family that I hadn't birthed. I have and had no support network as I live miles from where I grew up.

I managed to wean myself off fluxotine mostly because every review with Gp she would say are we coming off these yet and I was terrified she would just stop them, so I decided that I wanted to do it myself (basically bullied into it) anyway been off them now for 4 years.

I feel like I am spiralling back into a deep depression and anxiety now. My DH has some health issues and the medical profession are just not taking it seriously and TBH neither is he (am I being overly anxious or are they being ostriches , I don't know) I am waiting for an operation, my DS is doing his AS levels. I don't work due to my fibroids which I am waiting for an op for ( who'd employ me when I would take 5 days off every month).

I just feel like running away and then I feel guilty for feeling like this adn being selfish when my health issues are nothing really adn DH, Ds and DD need me, so that makes me feel even worse.

jenniewb

patchwork_cat wrote: »

Haven't posted for a long time. But I am feeling like I just want to walk away. I was on fluoxetine for 8 years following a lot of family deaths and loss of all but one member of my family that I hadn't birthed. I have and had no support network as I live miles from where I grew up.

I managed to wean myself off fluxotine mostly because every review with Gp she would say are we coming off these yet and I was terrified she would just stop them, so I decided that I wanted to do it myself (basically bullied into it) anyway been off them now for 4 years.

I feel like I am spiralling back into a deep depression and anxiety now. My DH has some health issues and the medical profession are just not taking it seriously and TBH neither is he (am I being overly anxious or are they being ostriches , I don't know) I am waiting for an operation, my DS is doing his AS levels. I don't work due to my fibroids which I am waiting for an op for ( who'd employ me when I would take 5 days off every month).

I just feel like running away and then I feel guilty for feeling like this adn being selfish when my health issues are nothing really adn DH, Ds and DD need me, so that makes me feel even worse.

I think you need to change your GP!

Taking pills, any pills are your choice not your GPs choice, if they are made available or suggested by a psychiatrist, your GP shouldn't really be interfering, its something you need to discuss with your specialist (a psychiatrist or similar), if you feel the pills made things easier for you, please ask to be refered and ask for a different GP, you have every right to feel as close to "normal" as everyone else.

Sorry to hear about your husband- do you think maybe he is afriad (as to why he is not taking it seriously)? I don't know how it is for everyone else but I tend to find unless I take my problems seriously, weather they be medical or psychiatric or otherwise, my GP definetly wont. Its almost like they are just so busy they see you as a number and treatment depends on weather or not you want help and are ready to push for it. That could just be me but in the past 3 years I have had shin splints/tendonitis, several skin conditions and a stomach issue which has ruled my life. In every circumstance its no treatment and "oh well its just one of those things" type response which leaves me no where. I have to go back a few times to almost prove I am seriosu about wanting something done about the whole thing- its not easy but thats what I find I am doing whenever I have a problem comes up.

I think if you feel stressed its a warning sign- don't ignore it please, many people do and then "out of the blue" find themselves unable to cope or to pull themselves out of a deep depression- I don't want to say everyone is the same in that respect but just please be careful, if things begin to not feel OK its normally a sign to do something about it and not hope it will go away.

Please don't think that your depression is not as important as a physical health issue- would you be saying that if your children had depression in comparison to your husband? it is a recognised illness. It is to do with the chemistry in the brain which can be brought on by events in your life. It can get very bad without proper care and attention and it is a very valid health issue. Its that serious that most companies employ a councellor for stress, its that important that its a justified reason to have a special note included in GCSE/A-level/Degree exams or essays, its that important that an entire NHS industry was invented in order to help thise that have it (the psychiatric industry). It is definetly not nothing. But just like any other illness, can get better, you just have to treat it with the respect it requires, treat yourself with the respect you require and in most situations get help and support and quite often medication.

Its your call at the end of the day but I just wanted you to know your not on your own, there is alot of support out there and on here. You sound very alone with it all- things within your home sound like they are already stressful on their own without all this depression stuff! I'd say for that reason (as if you needed a reason with depression!) get some professional support, something not affected by your day to day life, somewhere separate from what else is going on so you are able to talk more openly.

Please take care of yourself.

greenpixie_2

Hope everyone is feeling as good as they can be

I've had a really good day today, i went out to town met up with a friend and did some shopping.

There is an incident going on with someone i know and I'm staying away, I know that there is enough people around him and I'd just get in the way he's perfectly safe with the people that are there. Everyone understands, I've just been so happy today I don't want to ruin it!

Indie_Kid

patchwork_cat wrote: »

I managed to wean myself off fluxotine mostly because every review with Gp she would say are we coming off these yet and I was terrified she would just stop them, so I decided that I wanted to do it myself (basically bullied into it) anyway been off them now for 4 years.

Please don't do this until you're ready to do so and know all the risks of coming off them. My dad is constantly being talked into coming off epilepsy drugs - he's refusing on the basis that he'll have no driving licence for 12 months. (driving is a big part of his job)

rubytuesday

Hello everyone. Well what a miserable day. I want to go out for a walk but not sure if I can face this! I'll try later. Just having a break from tidying up, got some nice music playing and the kitchens nearly done. Going to make a rhubarb and apple crumble.I think a hot drink is beckoning. Not tea unfortunately as I've already had my quota. I am sleeping so much better since I have cut my tea down to two or three a day.

twinklebelly

Hi Everyone.

How are we all on this miserable day? Hugs to those of you having difficult times right now.

Miroslav - hope you are ok after the anniversary. My 2 haven't budged all day so they will shortly be persuaded/shuffed out through cat flap.

Lady Morticia I understand what you mean about having a loving partner, but you feeling guilty about being sad etc. My mood swings aren't great right now and my OH tends to get the fallout.

Shaz if you are reading, good on ya girl!

I have had a good 2 days but tired. Had my niece and nephew most of yesterday and it was her party today. I've said before but when I am with them I seem to be able to forget about every trouble in my life. I wish I could have more days like this but the realities of life will soon bring me down again.

OH cooking dinner so guess I should help......or may be not too many cooks and all that .

xx

elfen

Bit of a better day, still feeling quite down though....think a GP trip may be in order if this continues to see what can be done....It's not the normal "down", it's the hollow and empty feeling that I hate, like I'm missing something and I don't know what is it....

Still hate looking in the mirror....I think I've just had enough of caring....I just can't do this and try and be happy....

twinklebelly

elfen wrote: »

Bit of a better day, still feeling quite down though....think a GP trip may be in order if this continues to see what can be done....It's not the normal "down", it's the hollow and empty feeling that I hate, like I'm missing something and I don't know what is it....

Still hate looking in the mirror....I think I've just had enough of caring....I just can't do this and try and be happy....

Please, please go and see your GP, I'm sure they will listen and help. I just tried to accept the similar feelings you were having and I got so, so low. My current GP has been so understanding and not at all dismissive, she was happy to try alternatives if a medication wasn't helping or made me worse.

xx