Support for people with Depression

Part_Mouse

shazrobo wrote: »

hi part mouse, course theres room, i'll go put kettle on, and make you a welcome drink
shaz x

:beer: i could fancy something a litle stronger but iv'e just started (today) back on the AD's again after a 3 month break. Was on them for 12 years but had to change types,the change wasn't good so came off. The anxiety is getting a lot worse and had a massive panic attack at the airport last night :eek::( feels like a huge step backwards but needs must guess. Feel very sick after my first tablet earlier.

Sorry to hear things are hard for you *hugs* Are you on any meds or anything?

x

shazrobo

Part_Mouse wrote: »

:beer: i could fancy something a litle stronger but iv'e just started (today) back on the AD's again after a 3 month break. Was on them for 12 years but had to change types,the change wasn't good so came off. The anxiety is getting a lot worse and had a massive panic attack at the airport last night :eek::( feels like a huge step backwards but needs must guess. Feel very sick after my first tablet earlier.

Sorry to hear things are hard for you *hugs* Are you on any meds or anything?

x

hi mouse, the sickness thing should wear off after a week or two, i've been on anti depressants for a few years now, over the last 14 years, been on various different ones. teh ones i take now, i can drink with, but cant drink as much as i used to without feeling poorly.
tried to cut down, but after a rough couple of days, having a couple pints cider tonight
shaz x

geminilady

shazrobo wrote: »

it annoys me when places make appointments then run late, my gp surgery is always running late, even early in the morning

feel at rock bottom tonight, like really poorly, like i dont want to live any more, my head hurts from all teh stress and upset, and i dont feel capable of going on, but i know i have to for my sons. so my sons can carry on dragging me further down

Hi Shaz Sorry the boys have been playing up,don't know how much you tell them about your relationship with Ian but i would tell them it was your descision sp?to break up and that one of the reasons was he did not wont to be a father figure to them.I know you have not said that in so many words but it is what came accross in your posts.Also i would tell tell they are not helping as you are finding it hard enough after the break up without them having tantrums.They need to realise that mum has feelings too.Hope your head feels better soon,i always find a long soak in the bath relaxes me.Also their is something called kalms you can get over the counter which is supposed to be effective.I know we are not supposed to mention meds but not sure if over the counter things count?sorry if i am wrong but i have seen lots of posts on other threads about vitamins ect.

geminilady

Part_Mouse wrote: »

Room for one more guys?

Welcome mouse,there is always room for one more pull up a chair.

shazrobo

hi gemini, how are you hun?
i didnt expect ian to be a father figure, just to accept that myself and the boys came as a package, but he wanted me, and no kids, they got in the way as far as he was concerned. i cant tell the kids that he didnt want to know them, tehy would be devastated that somebody didnt like them, especially as tehy liked him, and thought teh feelings were mutual
shaz x

Part_Mouse

Shaz

Iv'e just started an SSRI again been feeling very detached and out of it,not had it so bad for a long time from all the stress and anxiety. I used to drink on it with to many probs,will hold off for a few days at least. Do you find drinking has a neg effect of the depression? it really can for me esp if im feeling emotional.

Geminilady

thanks for the welcome aswell. How are you tonight?

xx

shazrobo

when i'm feeling well and generally ok on the meds, i feel the alcohol does not cause any further depression.
i really believe most of my depression is from caring for my two sons, who themselves have mental health problems, as well as behavioural, and learning difficulties, and i get no support or respite as such, apart from when they are at school.
when i'm feeling down however, sometimes the booze does make me feel a bit worse, lacking in energy etc
like i said earlier, was trying to cut down, when feeling so low, but after tonights episode, i needed a drink, or i would have gone crazy and harmed myself.
going to try and get some sleep now, havent slept properly for a few nights, and am exhausted

night night everyone
hugs
shaz xxx

Part_Mouse

Shaz

Gosh things are tough for you, know what you mean about just needing that drink. Have you had any help for the self harm? i used to everyday but stopped about 2 years ago,still get the thoughts sometimes though.

Anyway hope you managed to get some sleep.

xx

beachbeth

I haven't got much time to post this morning and will have a good read of all your posts later.

Don't take what your sons said to heart, Shaz. Teenagers are good at saying the things that they know will push your buttons. You so obviously are not a rubbish mum. I think you do a marvellous job and they would really miss you if you weren't there. Try to take comments like that and treat them as typical teenager tantrums rather than being the true picture, if you know what I mean.

Sh1305, I had to go for a test 3 weeks ago and was really nervous about it. I was sitting in the waiting room for an hour and a half. People who came in after me were being called in and I was just sitting there. Its awful. Even when I was called through I had to sit and wait another half hour in a cubicle, so it was over 2 hours before I actually had the procedure done. I really wanted to get up and leave so I know how you must have felt after 4 hours!!! Its awful how they leave you waiting like that, especially when you're anxious, but thats the NHS.:(

shazrobo

morning all, managed a good nights sleep, feel bit headachy this morn, that'll be the cider lol
not really had any help for the self harm, just try and do somet else instead when i feel that way, usually booze instead, but thats somet else i'm trying to stop now, well at least cut down.
hope everyone else slept ok too
no real plans for today, was going to see a friend, but when i rang her yesterday when i was upset, she blamed me for how my kids are, and other things that really hurt me, so tired of being there for others, getting shopping in for them when needed, listen to her problems, but she's not there for me, thats not proper friends is it???
hugs all
shaz xxx