Support for people with Depression

Raksha

Oh dear, had a really good day yesterday, and just had an email from 'the boss' saying he wants to have a meeting with me about an email I sent a client who I've been chasing for money since December. Serious panic mode setting in

beachbeth

Hope it will be ok, Raksha. Its horrible to have to see the boss and not be sure if he/she is annoyed.

My friend will be arriving in half an hour and Im starting to get that "I just want to hide under the duvet" feeling. It doesn't make sense to feel like this when its just a really nice friend coming. We've known each other for years and its not as though Im worried about what to talk about! Do any of you others get like this?

Raksha

OK, I'm getting really fed up with having one good day, only for it to go rapidly downhill the next.

Apparently, even though the company don't have a procedure for credit control, the email I sent, suggesting (after 3 months) that our next port of call might be a 'Letter of Action' wasn't 'fluffy' enough. This client has been putting us of and putting us off for 3months now. We got her out of a tight situation with 24 hours notice and she can't even pay us!

I used to really really love my job, but since a new member of staff joined just over 6 months ago, it's gone to pot - my boss can't 'manage staff', (he puts the new guys needs - 'requested holiday' - not confirmed holiday request, just a 'I might like that week off' before my confirmed ones, he wants me to work on my own initiative, then tells me I've done it wrong when I do, he wants me in on time, but also wants me to work late - the argument being that 'his' minutes are more important than 'mine', and yet I got nothing below a 'satisfactory' in my annual review) It took him 6 months to find somebody with my skill set, but I feel like he's pushing me out of the door (hence my request for any info re stress and DDA, because this isn't the first time this has happened - the first time it took me 13 years to get the confidence back to get a full time perm post )

shazrobo

i've been so tired and drained today, mainly after the stress of daniel last night.
tonight joshua has had a terrible mood, throwing things, swearing and shouting, eventually he broke down in tears and said he's so upset as he is missing, ian, my ex. they weren't exactly the best of friends, but josh said it was the first time he felt like a proper family, eg, a mum and a dad
feel so bad that i've caused my son so much upset, tonight he told me i'm a crap person, because i cant keep a fella, and he desperatly wants a father figure in his life

hugs all
shaz xxx

Part_Mouse

Room for one more guys?

Indie_Kid

shazrobo wrote: »

i've been so tired and drained today, mainly after the stress of daniel last night.
tonight joshua has had a terrible mood, throwing things, swearing and shouting, eventually he broke down in tears and said he's so upset as he is missing, ian, my ex. they weren't exactly the best of friends, but josh said it was the first time he felt like a proper family, eg, a mum and a dad
feel so bad that i've caused my son so much upset, tonight he told me i'm a crap person, because i cant keep a fella, and he desperatly wants a father figure in his life

hugs all
shaz xxx

He's angry and probably just saying that to upset you.

Today was crap - I had to go to the hospital for some tests and had to wait nearly 4 hours to be seen. I was so close to walking out at least twice and had a few panic attacks too.:(

shazrobo

sh1305 wrote: »

He's angry and probably just saying that to upset you.

Today was crap - I had to go to the hospital for some tests and had to wait nearly 4 hours to be seen. I was so close to walking out at least twice and had a few panic attacks too.:(

thats disgusting keeping you waiting so long, did they give u a reason why?

shazrobo

Part_Mouse wrote: »

Room for one more guys?

hi part mouse, course theres room, i'll go put kettle on, and make you a welcome drink
shaz x

Indie_Kid

shazrobo wrote: »

thats disgusting keeping you waiting so long, did they give u a reason why?

They just said "sorry; but we have no idea what's happened". They did say that it was related to teaching - the person who was meant to be seeing me had to go adn teach students. I was then moved to the person I saw last time; who apologised and could offer no reason for clinic running so late.

shazrobo

it annoys me when places make appointments then run late, my gp surgery is always running late, even early in the morning

feel at rock bottom tonight, like really poorly, like i dont want to live any more, my head hurts from all teh stress and upset, and i dont feel capable of going on, but i know i have to for my sons. so my sons can carry on dragging me further down