Right, Third time lucky, I will do it this time

angie_baby

So far this month - and its only the 8th ive spent £55.21 on food, im not sure weekely shopping works for me. I might go back to one big shop a month and just get milk and veg. Not sure yet.

angie_baby

Morning All,

Its only Tuesday and im shattered. Ive made a few more pieces to go on ebay, still waiting on my bank card though to sort the account out.

Also i wont have any free lifts in from tomorrow as my dad is off so need to sort my train fare out and packed lunches.

I just seem to be plodding along, which is ok. I still need to earn more money and i did 50 hours last week so it should help my pay and my huge childcare bill that i need to sort.

angie_baby

Hello,

Had to get the train in today - not fun. I really need to hurry up and save some money. Not made anymore pieces for ebay as my bank card still isnt here! Will need to chase them up, i want to get some bits on this month.

Joe is being picked up early by my dad for some boy time which will be nice for Joe I think they are going over to Epsom.

Money is so tight but we are coping. Im still really chuffed with how far the beef went! We seem to be going through so much fruit! The grapes, bananas, apples and blueberries have all gone! I managed to grab 12 small apples for a £1 yesterday, but Joe wasnt impressed that they were so small!

He has been really bright and bubbly lately which has been nice to see.

Its so quiet without my dad at work! And i forgot my leftover spag bol for lunch! Not good.

Anyway best get back!

angie_baby

God i know how to jinx myself.

CAMHS just phoned Joe and i have an appointment next wednesday morning. I dont know why i feel do upset over it.
Its just things were going along quite nicely. It doenst matter to me if Joe has autism or not really i just wish they could make up there mind.
They tell the school they dont think Joe does have autism and now Joe needs to go back in. I dont know why i feel like this or why i want to cry.

Now im back to searching the web again and trying to see what Joe does / doesnt do. I going over certain things he has said in my head and reading into things way too much.

Oh i want to go home

angie_baby

Morning All,

Over my sad mood now, sometimes i wish life was just a little easier and not always a fight, but hey ho onwards and upwards.

Money is sooooo tight, i have so much going out in the 1st two weeks, but the tax credit is paid weekly, so im always overdrawn at some point. I need to move some DD's around as i keep getting flippin bank charges which isnt helping me.

Ive chased the bank, they have no knowledge of me ordering a card - so have told them to do it again! Mind you i still need to take pics of the jewellery and upload them so i need to get moving on that. Depending on how well the bits ive already made will sell for i might buy some more beads at the end of the month.

Anyway at work, fun fun fun!

angie_baby

Afternoon all,

Had a nice weekend, i am so skint though! Went to the local allotment fin day yesterday. It was really nice and they had a magic show on as well so Joe enjoyed it. We did spent a £5 - £2.50 for a cream tea - was so yummy, Joe had a £1 and i soent £1.50 for 6 little glass bowls, they are shaped like half an avacado, but currently have a packet of value jelly in them for Joes afters.

Bank card has arrived so have managed to sort my ebay account. Just need to get some photos of the jewellery and phone charms, there is quite a bit of it on there but i havent spent anythng other than time on it so ive got nothing to lose. Plus ive quite enjoyed messing around with all the beads again.

angie_baby

Well, at least its Friday, thought it was time for a update, have been lurking and reading diaries but not posted much over the last week or so.

Suppose i should start with money - i have none! Well i have one lonely £5 note to last until payday. Its not too bad though as there is nothing we really need except milk and fruit. There is enough food in the freezer and cupboards (i hope :rotfl:).

Ive made a couple of bits of jewellery but ebay is packed with the stuff, and so is esty. There is another site though but ive forgotten the name so will need to google it later. Ive still got thousands of beads and findings to make more jewellery so i will be doing that later tonight once muchkin is in bed.
Ive also (for free, so far) started setting up a website to sell bits on too, and to try and get some buyers ive set up a blog and twitter page. It wont make me bundles but im hoping that it will help! I will need to pay for the website once i get enough bits made to go on as i will need to accept payment.

On too Joe, well Joe hasnt really had much fun this summer

We had a meeting (both of us) at CAMHS this week, they wanted to see Joe. We didnt really do much they wanted to watch me playing with Joe - 1hrs worth which was good to start with but Joe didnt want to be there as we were going to the beach after. He was asked how he felt about me and said that mummies dont spend much time with there kids Which to be honest is completely true this summer. Ive been at work at 7.30 so have had to get Joe up at 6 which means him going to bed at 8 the latest. We dont get in until 6 most nights so during the week i get about 3 - 4 hrs with Joe. (Its not good enough i know. )
I think the meeting on the whole did go okish though. I just felt like i was the one being watched which i suppose was the point of the meeting, it was just having someone write notes everytime you say something while playing with your son just felt horrid. I think i feel like this because ive always been judged - which i understand. I had Joe at 16, im a single mum, live in a rubbish area. Ive had some nasty comments when i was younger about being a strain on the goverment etc. I need to get over that i think. I must admit though Im a complete hypocrite as i judge young mums living on benefits too Which i shouldnt.

Anyway back to the subject! CAHMS are going to observe Joe when he goes back to school. I asked the psychologist if she thought Joe did now have autism to which see replied 'well what do you think' :mad: errr wouldnt be asking if i knew! Its just frustrating that first he doesnt, and then they dont tell you anything! I still dont think Joe does have autism but im still open to be told different. But know i keep thinking things over and over, every little thing Joe says or does i read way to much into

Anyway! Nice stuff,

Our day at the beach was lovely!!! We went on Wednesday (hottest day of the year :j:j:j) with my dad to eastbourne - it was empty! Which was just wicked. We got down there at 12ish walked the dog first and then made camp at the beach. Joe had managed to smuggle 2 unbrellas so he could set up his own bit, it looked quite good. Dog loved it and Joe and i spent most of the time in the sea, it was good when the tide went out as its so rocky which was great for finding fish, sea snails and other creatures. We were a bit naughty too and had a small bbq too for some reason the burgers tasted great. We didnt get home till gone 8.

So thats about it really. Im hoping to get a couple of days off next week as well as a sub from my boss so Joe and i can do something thats just us. Im going to try and be as mse as possible but i do want to treat Joe. I feel so gulity about the summer. But next summer will be different. No matter what i will take Joe away in the holidays even if it does cost a fortune, as hopefully by then i will be debt free!

So i really should get off of here and play frustration with Joe and then get on with dinner and the usual housework catch up, ive not had the energy or time to keep on top of it. Just needs a good dusting and hover me thinks.

mrscmr

hi angie.. hope you dont mind me popping into ur diary... i have been reading it backwards [dont ask why].

must say that you should be proud of ur self. doing ur best for joe and racking your brain to come up with money making ideas etc... you will inspire many people who read ur diary.

i too, sell on ebay and its hard going - but i think if you can come up with some ideas and make the stuff yourself then you will do well. xmas is coming and people love to buy sparkly things [i do!] what about looking at making customised xmas decorations - like stuff to hang on the tree? theme it as in a silver/white theme, red/green, blue/yellow, black gold or try other combo's too. dont know if i am talking out of my bottom but just an idea.

i will follow your diary if thats ok?

wishing you a good weekend and a hello to joe!

xx

dottyanne

Hi Ang, nice to meet you im on my 3rd lightbulb moment with quite a lot of debt (51k) eeeekkkk!! good luck on your debt free journey

angie_baby

mrscmr wrote: »

hi angie.. hope you dont mind me popping into ur diary... i have been reading it backwards [dont ask why].

must say that you should be proud of ur self. doing ur best for joe and racking your brain to come up with money making ideas etc... you will inspire many people who read ur diary.

i too, sell on ebay and its hard going - but i think if you can come up with some ideas and make the stuff yourself then you will do well. xmas is coming and people love to buy sparkly things [i do!] what about looking at making customised xmas decorations - like stuff to hang on the tree? theme it as in a silver/white theme, red/green, blue/yellow, black gold or try other combo's too. dont know if i am talking out of my bottom but just an idea.

i will follow your diary if thats ok?

wishing you a good weekend and a hello to joe!

xx

Hi and thanks and of course you can follow my ramblings!

The xmas idea is a good one, ive been thinking about decorations too. Ive thought of a few ideas that would be pretty cheap to make meaning i could make a okish profit from it. Its also something i can do with munckin in bed so i dont feel guilty doing it.
Even if it only makes me a few extra quid it would help with debts or with xmas. Theres only 4 paydays left :eek: and then in Jan i have Joes birthday too so every little would help.