Depression Support Thread

npsmama

Cpn = community psychiatric nurse.

The cpn just left and it was awful.
I just completely froze and wasn't able to talk to her about anything other than small talk.
I did mention that I didn't realise it was her personal mobile and she said that she had told me it was as her work one isn't reliable - I don't remember her ever telling me that. It ended up with me apologising to her.

I think I feel that I got upset bc of the way I am rather than bc of her text. I guess I also feel stupid for getting upset at something so small. But then again the whole reason why I got upset was bc I felt like she was treating me like a pile of brown smelly stuff.

The irony is that I feel even lower about myself now than I did before bc I didn't have the guts to confront her. I was too scared.

She's no idiot though and saw I wasn't my usual chatty self and that there were lots of awkward silences. I couldn't even look her in the eye. How stupid is that???
She asked if I wanted her to come back and of course stupid me said yes.

So this week I have learnt two things:
1. I could definitely not work in a hospital - especially not A&E
2. I'm 32 and I'm still scared of people and can't confront them.

Butterfly Kisses - I'm really glad your session went well. Well done for taking the courageous first step of keeping that appointment!

absolutebounder

npsmama wrote: »

So this week I have learnt two things:
1. I could definitely not work in a hospital - especially not A&E
2. I'm 32 and I'm still scared of people and can't confront them.

Thats good If we all learnt two things a week about ourselves the place would be a lot better
1) Very few people have what it takes to work in a hospital especially an A & E dept.

2) Has something happened in your past to make you scared of other people? Is it all people or just say one sex?

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Just popped to co-op to get a 4 pint of milk for the week am ok now till Thursday or Friday.


love and light,

Katie xxx

npsmama

Is it all people or just say one sex?

I think it's pretty much everyone.

shazrobo

why are men so annoying or is it just the men that i choose?

don't get me wrong bf is loving most of time, but he is just so unsupportive, i'm running around looking aften kids, cooking , cleaning etc, and he just sits on his butt watching tv or playing on his ds. whenever i ask for a bit of help, he says i'm a guest, which he is, but wouldn't harm him to help out would it. and if i complain bout how hard it is, he just pretends to play the violin, soz needed to rant and get it off my chest, when its just the two of us and away from the house everything is fine. got headache from tv on all time today, every time i turn it off, he calls me moody, and just tells me to smile.
men :mad:

shaz x

Sazbo

Shaz hun - I think him describing himself as your "guest" is stretching it a bit far, imo. He is your partner and I don't think it's asking all that much for him to give you a helping hand from time to time?

Sxxx

Sazbo

absolutebounder wrote: »

if however you dont want to go or are busy making up excuses then it wont work because deep down you have no intention of getting better.

AB I'm not sure it's as black and white as all that.... it took me a long time to pluck up the courage to phone up and make an appointment for my first counselling session. Several years in fact. But that did not mean I "had no intention of getting better" - far from it. I knew I wasn't well and I knew I needed help. But sometimes it's a question of being ready; of being in the right place; of finding the right time.

Saz x

beachbeth

npsmama wrote: »

2. I'm 32 and I'm still scared of people and can't confront them.

Im 44 and am this way.:o I find that it isn't so much the other person, its more whether I myself am up to dealing with someone. If Im having a bad day then I don't want to speak to anyone and find it hard to deal with people. If Im feeling bright and having a good day then people who are at all off with me don't bother me and I can deal with them.

I was in Argos the other day and took my ticket over to the collection point. The woman looked at me, looked at the ticket and then just picked it up and went to go and collect the jewellery I'd bought. No "hello" or "wait a moment while I collect your earrings". I thought how ignorant it was, especially as I'd smiled nicely at her. So when she got the jewellery, showed it to me said "ok?" I just said "yeah fine" and when she handed me the bag and then said "thank you" I just took it and didn't bother saying thank you back. It didn't upset me and I just carried on with my day. If I had been having a bad day this would have really upset me.

npsmama

shazrobo wrote: »

why are men so annoying or is it just the men that i choose?

don't get me wrong bf is loving most of time, but he is just so unsupportive, i'm running around looking aften kids, cooking , cleaning etc, and he just sits on his butt watching tv or playing on his ds. whenever i ask for a bit of help, he says i'm a guest, which he is, but wouldn't harm him to help out would it. and if i complain bout how hard it is, he just pretends to play the violin, soz needed to rant and get it off my chest, when its just the two of us and away from the house everything is fine. got headache from tv on all time today, every time i turn it off, he calls me moody, and just tells me to smile.
men :mad:

shaz x

Shaz, is he really a guest? I mean, a guest wouldn't be sitting watching TV/playing computer games in your lounge - those are privileges that closer people have, in which case it follows that those people must at least make an effort to help a little.
If he really wants to be a guest he needs to knock before coming in, wait until he's invited to come, bring a bottle/choccies/flowers when he is invited, and also help the hostess with the clearing up. Seriously, rude guests don't get invited back to my house.
I often let people trample over me, yes. But one thing I can guard is my home!

Sorry, I hope I'm not speaking out of place but it does seem to me like he's in need of a lesson in manners!

jha

npsmama wrote: »

If he really wants to be a guest he needs to knock before coming in, wait until he's invited to come, bring a bottle/choccies/flowers when he is invited, and also help the hostess with the clearing up. quote]

I agree.