Depression Support Thread

shazrobo

(((big hugs))) npsmama, must have been terribly frightening having a little one fall through a glass door, hope little one is ok now and recovers soon

big hugs

shaz xxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Npsmama sorry to hear about your sons accident.Must have been frightening for you,I went to see friends at my church,made lunch,then went out to Asda to do a food shop.

Hope you are ok Shaz,Just had a smarties yoghurt and it was lovely


love and light,

Katie xxx

mezer3000

well counselling was pretty rubbish - i just did my usual and talked about the superficial things that are wrong, and nothing about how i'm feeling - just dont like letting my walls down

then argued with steve for about 3 hours, because after my counselling i just wanted to be left alone, and he wouldnt understand that. so now me and him aren't talking, im exhausted but not tired if that makes sense, and just want to sit and cry - if i hadn't run out of alcohol i would be drinking

i think there is something more wrong with me than just depression, i just wish i knew what. you know those tv programs, where people get a total life make over, with life coaches and psychologists etc, i just wish all that would happen to me. I just want someone to help fix me, cos i can't do it on my own.

if there wasnt this forum for me to be sitting refreshing to see if anyone writes, i really dread to think what i would be doing


Npsmama - am sorry to hear about your son - i hope they got him fixed up ok, i know what you mean when you are so upset, or just wound up that you stammer - i get that a lot, just slow down what you are trying to say

Savvy_Sue

npsmama wrote: »

I had no idea how much to pay her so I asked the question on an online forum suggesting £5 per hour (we'll give her a lift both ways)...the replies said that in their opinion no one would/should do it for £5 an hour but the pay should be more. :eek:

Sounds fine to me ... but I'm guessing it didn't happen this week, so gives you a chance to talk to them and check if she thinks it's OK!

rosepink1984 wrote: »

The othr day we were doing a jigsaw togethr and he kept complaining that he didn't like th way I was doing it and he kept telling me how to do a jigsaw! It was very annoying! :rolleyes:

:rotfl: Someone once gave me and DH a jigsaw puzzle for Christmas because they thought it would help us spend time together. Turned out we have fundamentally different and incompatible ways of approaching jigsaws. :eek: He hogs the box lid, picks out an 'interesting' piece of puzzle, decides roughly where it 'must' fit within the overall picture, and puts it down in that position. I meanwhile am trying to build blocks, and occasionally move his significantly placed individual pieces.

npsmama wrote: »

i've had such a crap day.
at 11am my 16mo fell backwards onto a glass door and it smashed on his head, i went to pieces but managed to get both kids in the care and went to a&e. i couldn't speak properly when i got there as i was in shock but the baby's bleeding head was self explanatory.

DS1 fell face first through a glass door at about the same age, so I know how you feel! Tiny scar left, which I think adds character.

npsmama

Thank you all for your support.

I don't think antidepressants are my answer.
I took citalopram for 2+years and then my cpn decided it wasn't doing its job so for the past 3 weeks I've been on Imapramine.

To be honest i don't think it's making any difference either.

How do you know when to stop trying with antidepressants?
I'd never stop taking them without medical supervision but i see no point in drugging myself for no good reason.

The problem is that i don't know how i would be without them.
i also wonder if 'this' (prone to anxiety and being over emotional and therefore easily depressed) is just the way i am and i have to find ways of managing my internal makeup...
i don't ever remember being carefree and at peace.

I've been seeing my cpn for 16mo now and although she has helped me through some events that have happended in those 16 months I can't say that I think seeing her is resolving anything.
I sent her a text today when I was in shock (couldn't breathe or speak normally) after my baby went through a glass door and she sent a message back saying she was on holiday and out with friends and couldn't do anything until Monday'. I was a bit shocked at her reply. i didn't know she was on holiday and certainly not that she was out with friends! She's never given me an alternative number to ring for when she's unavailable. Of course I don't expect her to rush to my aid but I felt her reply was cold. It would have been just as much effort to reply 'I'm on holiday. Contact the GP if you need immediate help or I'll speak to you monday otherwise.'

Any thoughts?

thanks in advance

shazrobo

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,

Npsmama sorry to hear about your sons accident.Must have been frightening for you,I went to see friends at my church,made lunch,then went out to Asda to do a food shop.

Hope you are ok Shaz,Just had a smarties yoghurt and it was lovely


love and light,

Katie xxx

hi katie, i am ok thanks, ian had the morning off work, and came with me to the dentist, and got my tooth sorted out, the pain is easing now. after that we had a pub lunch, before he had to go to work.
this afternoon, i have seen my mp, and told her how the lack of respite care for my 2 disabled sons was causing my depression, and she has promised to write to socail services, and some other places on my behalf, the fact that both kids are under the pychiatrist and on medication, she said they should automatically be entitled to some respite, especially as i am a single mum doing all the caring on my own.
opened a parcel today, which i have had for a week, but had foirgotten about lol, and got my slippers that i won on this site, unfortunatly silly me, didnt tell them my shoe size, so they are too small for me.

hugs all

shaz xxx

shazrobo

hi npsmama, i think your cpn, could have been sympathetic in her text, and told you to contact the gp, while she was away on holiday.
i am suprised she gave out her personal mobile phone number, where i live hey tend to have seperate work, and personal numbers. if she is on holiday, maybe she had a drink, and didnt think thru her reply
can't comment on meds here, as it isnt allowed, best to discuss with cpn, or gp, who ever you feel more comfortable with

hugs

shaz xxx vbmenu_register("postmenu_19211003", true);

npsmama

maybe she had a drink, and didnt think thru her reply

i thought this might be the case too.
i also thought i had her work mobile

beachbeth

npsmama wrote: »

she sent a message back saying she was on holiday and out with friends and couldn't do anything until Monday'. I was a bit shocked at her reply. i didn't know she was on holiday and certainly not that she was out with friends! She's never given me an alternative number to ring for when she's unavailable. Of course I don't expect her to rush to my aid but I felt her reply was cold. It would have been just as much effort to reply 'I'm on holiday. Contact the GP if you need immediate help or I'll speak to you monday otherwise.'

Any thoughts?

thanks in advance

I would have felt the same at this reply. It should have been worded much differently. Surely she should have a separate number for work and play anyway so that this kind of thing can't happen? She probably didn't mean the text how it sounded but I understand how you feel.

Ive been having a bad 2009 so far and everything that has gone wrong so far is absolutely doing my head in. Ive been so tearful lately and I am just virtually waiting by the letterbox for post to see if certain things have been resolved yet (my Incapacity Benefit tribunal for one!). I feel I can't relax until everything is sorted and yet its all out of my hands. So I know what you mean when you say you are anxious all the time, npsmama. I have been given some tablets by my doctor that help me stop drinking because they relax you in a similar way to alcohol. They really work too but as they are addictive they aren't something you can take forever. He wanted me to take them 3 times a day!:eek: However, if I did this I wouldn't be able to drive and wouldn't get anything done around the house so I tend to take just one sometimes in the evening to stop me having a drink. Im worried about taking 3 a day in case I become independent on them. They are nice and relaxing though (not in a zombie kind of way) and I wish I could take them forever.

maytaurus