Buffy's 18 week credit card free challenge

Buffythedebtslayer

beanielou wrote: »

Buffy~DO NOT put yourself down.
It is about him~ a nasty bully by all accounts.
Why do you get observed anyway?Does this happen regularary?

we get observed once every half term by someone, once a year by him and that is the one that is a BIG deal. one of my friends got up at four in the morning to make sure she was well prepared for the obs.

I am feeling rough today. headache won't shift. tooth hurts or my accurately stitches hurt now that they are out(!)

I did go and see Slumdog Millionaire which was excellent. but was so tired that I was ill when i came home.

I am changing my routine for work, get in early and be really prepared for the day, without my boss or anyof my other bosses getting my way!

I am not sure I can leave my job. my sister isn't doing so well with money. and there is stuff that needs doing around the house.

I have to focus on the positives which really do out weigh the negatives, one man versus many friends and pupils who don't think I am crap

I do hate him tho and I dislike feeling like that.


Also since although this is a challenge it is also a diary I guess it be moved

xxxxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Morning all -

I took one of those pills the Doctor gave me - I think they are sleeping pills? any how had a fab night's sleep.

Still got a headache and tooth thing hurts, but I did get up early and am in the middle of sorting out the fish tanks.

need to clean room and hamster then get sorted for school next week.

I am going to apply for the two jobs I saw and look at the TES webiste.

I would love to go back on supply but with government changes there won't be much call for it.

I am also going to take the pressure off myself re diet and boy friend,

no Bf's till summer and no more point counting and dieting. Instead I will follow the 12 week running plan and look forward to Leeds.

I really cannot leave my job till I have paid off my CC, so my plans.

A - find a new job to start in September.that is what I am doing right now.

B - if it gets too bad quit at Easter, new job or no new job. work on Supply

C - if I can manage stay untill I am debt free.

Off to e mail CV and generally speak to friends I have been ignoring

xxx

Shoe_Gal

Hi Buffy

You sound better now you've got a plan - fingers crossed for you :A

I always think things don't seem as bad after a good night's sleep, and when the sun is shining - which it is here :j

Shoe Gal x

Keeping_Positive

Hi Buffy :wave:

Just read through the thread and it sounds that w**k is really getting to you right now. I like the ABC plan because like the others have said its no point being debt free quicker if you are made ill doing it.

Just recentely I was struggling, kept going thinking it would get better. Then one day I just walked out it was too much. Went to the Docs thinking I just needed a couple of weeks off which turned into 5 :eek:. I am now doing part time for a few weeks and I feel so much better. I can smile, joke not yell at the kids for just walking in the room at the wrong time etc.

If things continue as they are I would either envoke plan B or at least get signed off for a while to allow you to breathe.

Just to add well done on the debt busting you are doing really well with the overpayments so it not all bad news.

Buffythedebtslayer

You see I am ok with the big ideas its the small details that get me.

like now I am terrified to go to work tomorrow.

really terrified.

I ve no idea what to do. my boss will what to speak to me about the observation, I was going to write him a letter detailing how i think the head is wrong but I am too nervous now. But equally I don't want a meeting. it makes me so angry but I can't be angry at work it is unprofessionial.

I wish I didn't have to go.

beanielou

Sorry, Buffy hun,I am really at a loss to advise you what to do.
Huggles hun.

spud30

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

You see I am ok with the big ideas its the small details that get me.

like now I am terrified to go to work tomorrow.

really terrified.

I ve no idea what to do. my boss will what to speak to me about the observation, I was going to write him a letter detailing how i think the head is wrong but I am too nervous now. But equally I don't want a meeting. it makes me so angry but I can't be angry at work it is unprofessionial.

I wish I didn't have to go.

I'm sorry love, but NOBODY should feel like that about going to work.

:grouphug:

sarahb123_3

Hi Buffy, have sent you a PM x

Shoe_Gal

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

You see I am ok with the big ideas its the small details that get me.

like now I am terrified to go to work tomorrow.

really terrified.

I ve no idea what to do. my boss will what to speak to me about the observation, I was going to write him a letter detailing how i think the head is wrong but I am too nervous now. But equally I don't want a meeting. it makes me so angry but I can't be angry at work it is unprofessionial.

I wish I didn't have to go.

Hi Buffy

Poor you, not really sure I can offer any advice, it's an awful situation you are in. Could you maybe have a sympathetic colleague with you/speak for you? Just for some moral support

Like others have said, don't let the situation make you ill. A few years ago I had to admit defeat with a work situation and go to the doctors and was signed off for a month. At the time I thought I was giving in to pressure but the time off gave me time to get some perspective. I resigned eventually, and it was definately the best outcome - but I can only see that looking back

Shoe Gal x

Buffythedebtslayer

Well I think (again) tomorrow I shall go and see my union rep,

I wish I didn't feel so torn. guilt and angry. so negative! hate feeling like this.

thanks everyone means the world.

xx