Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

dmg24

UN17ED wrote: »

well the black dog of depression has really taken a hold of me right now and I am struggling to know where, what, how I am going to come out of it.

Its got a steep hold of me and with the depression comes the anxiety attacks as I think its going to get worse and I will find myself stuck in a dark corner stuck there for ever.

How do I put this politely? :rolleyes:

Go and see your mother.

black_paw

stay in basket !

Unity

black_paw wrote: »

stay in basket !

Hey Black Paw, if I stay in my basket, does that make me a basket case? Don't agree too quickly .

I haven't seen you around in a couple of days, I know you were having a bad time so I'm just hoping you are okay.

UnluckyT I hope things are better for you and that you managed to get your appointment with a different doctor sorted. I know it is really difficult but try not to worry about what you overheard at work. All too often we can put emphasis on something that someone else has said in a really off-hand way and they've probably forgotten about it immediately.

Crazy-girl I hope you are feeling better too.

I'm a little brighter today, I've spent the day with DH sorting out a large cupboard that houses our 'media' - e.g. a ton of old vinyl, VHS videos, books, CD's and DVD's. We now have stuff to sell, stuff to go to charity and the cupboard is neat and tidy. This comes after a really bad couple of days spent talking to doctors and contemplating procedures I hoped I wouldn't have to think about. The outlook is now better (for the next couple of years at least) than it was .

black_paw

hi unity yes bit better now ,shock has settled in ..off to brother's friday night late for few day's with mum as well ..to have update's taking the nieces and nephews to kiddie bonfire night on sat with whole family.
glad your out look is now better and a plan of action in place ! xx
waves to dmg . and mega hugs for all in proper need !

Unity

black_paw wrote: »

hi unity yes bit better now ,shock has settled in ..off to brother's friday night late for few day's with mum as well ..to have update's taking the nieces and nephews to kiddie bonfire night on sat with whole family.
glad your out look is now better and a plan of action in place ! xx
waves to dmg . and mega hugs for all in proper need !

Same to dmg24 from me :wave:, sorry I try and reply to everyone who has posted recently - but I always forget someone .

System

bad me is back and i can't stop her. she's the one who says the bad thinsg and makes me do them mke her go away i cant stop iy

UN17ED

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

bad me is back and i can't stop her. she's the one who says the bad thinsg and makes me do them mke her go away i cant stop iy

I know what you mean and exactly what you are going through.
Just havent got the patience, time or energy to feel sympathy or any other feeling for anyone at the minute, but I just cannot help it.

dmg24

Atomised wrote: »

I feel like tripe after more bad health news and can't believe i'm supposed to go for new tests for something new I might have. I'm having an awful year , my insomnia is awful and i've no support. Trying to stay calm and ignore the stress but I cried most of today when I was out and my consultant asked if I was still down. I'd forgotten they write down everything you say. Life is awful right now and it's one year since my fiance dumped me so i'm already vulnerable.
I've had therapy and CBT this year and wish I could see a therapist every week. CBT was pants as it didn't suit my mindset .

I'm never sure what to say when i'm asked if i'm depressed as i've never been the bouncey type even as a child.

Oh hun, it's a nightmare sometimes isn't it? Could your other health problems be contributing to your low mood? I know I noticed a difference when my hypothyroidism started being treated (if only I had someone to remind me to keep taking my meds! ).

My psych asked me to grade my moods on a -10 to 10 scale, with 0 being what is 'normal' for me. Maybe that could be a way to describe how you are feeling? Another way that works for me is colours - blacks and greys are a little too frequent at the mo.

I couldn't get on with CBT either, probably for the same kind of reason, I needed to dig a bit deeper, understand the reasons behind it all (the theory and my problems)? The book I mentioned above might be good for you (I promise I'm not on commission!).

I'm going to try to get some sleep now, just didn't want you to think you were on your own.

Hello to Unity, black paw, everyone else that is feeling a bit pants - I'm lurking a bit at the mo - fine with factual stuff but not really doing emotions too well, so I'm putting them away in a box to bring out another day (possibly Friday when I'm a bit drunk )!

dmg24

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

bad me is back and i can't stop her. she's the one who says the bad thinsg and makes me do them mke her go away i cant stop iy

Hi xXMessedUpXx, hope things are looking a little better? If not, do you have a Support Worker that you can call, tell them how you are feeling?

crazy_girl

hi, i hope everyone is as well as possible. im having a bed day today, i got up early to start with, did loads and knackered myself out duh!