Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

System

UN17ED wrote: »

My weekend has been awful, constant headache and constant feeling like rubbish and not a use to anyone.
I feel like I make everyones lives worse for being around me.

I sometimes feel the same about people, i worry a lot about being so much of a burden on them. But at the end of the day they know that i'm like this, but they stick around anyway because they care. They take the good with the bad, whether it be friends, family or partners they'll stick by you if they care. So try not to worry yourself too much about "making their lives worse", i'm sure their lives would be a lot worse if you weren't a part of them.

I broke down in my last CBT session, which shocked me. I was going over my past and family and stuff and it just overwhelmed me so i guess i'm scared abbout how this is going to make me feel. If it helps i'm willing to try, and i knew that it wasn't going to be easy, i just didn't realise it would be this hard either.

absolutebounder

dmg24 wrote: »

I'm trying to work out if your post was supposed to be funny or not?

I believe the black dog reference goes back to Churchill, who described his own depression as such.

I actually thought it was quite funny.
humour is very good medicine. and cheap too:D

absolutebounder

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

I broke down in my last CBT session, which shocked me. I was going over my past and family and stuff and it just overwhelmed me so i guess i'm scared abbout how this is going to make me feel. If it helps i'm willing to try, and i knew that it wasn't going to be easy, i just didn't realise it would be this hard either.

This is where CBT falls apart. What in your past could you change that would make you better. The answer is nothing

crazy_girl

dmg24 wrote: »

You are not thick crazy_girl. absolutebounder likes to challenge peoples thinking about their depression, and whilst I am sure it is well intentioned, it often isn't suitable when somebody is really low. I know when I am at my worst it is difficult enough to decide whether to get out of bed, let alone people asking me silly questions!

thanks, i thought i was totally losing it then! haha ive only just got a bit of 'it' left as it is!

crazy_girl

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

why do you need a care-co ordinator to have CBT? (what is a cre co ordinator anyway?) i've had 2 sessions so far and i dont think i have one.

Coincidently is it just me who feels CBT/counselling/psychotherpy is like opening Pandora's Box? I'm not sure i want to know whats inside my head sometimes

i kinda agree but its all their offering at the min so i feel like i have to at least give it a go

i did have a care coordinator but when they decided i wasnt pyschotic all of my support dropped off

crazy_girl

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

I sometimes feel the same about people, i worry a lot about being so much of a burden on them. But at the end of the day they know that i'm like this, but they stick around anyway because they care. They take the good with the bad, whether it be friends, family or partners they'll stick by you if they care. So try not to worry yourself too much about "making their lives worse", i'm sure their lives would be a lot worse if you weren't a part of them.

im not so sure in my case, i cant imagine how for a moment i make anyone or anythign better

crazy_girl

feel like crap today, crying for ages after drama, dont wanna go anymore

annie_cardiff

Hi Crazy girl, I feel like crap too , nonstop tears today , and so much anger inside

annie_cardiff

Have been on anti depressants for 12/13years now and everytime I try to cut them down in a bid to stop but crap keeps happening and I cant cope ...again...Recently gave up smoking about 4 months now and finding it very hard right now as I am so down...menopause does not help combined with thyroid probs and tests to diagnose bad joint pain I feel like total !!!!! . The aggression in me is unbelievable so I think I need to go back to docs asap , I could not even begin to start to explain where all this started but it sure is taking its toll ....

dmg24

absolutebounder wrote: »

This is where CBT falls apart. What in your past could you change that would make you better. The answer is nothing

Whilst CBT cannot change what has happened in the past, it can help you work through past issues, and hence be able to move forward from them.

I am not a great fan of CBT, but primarily for the reason that I could twist my therapist's way of thinking to always agreeing with me. However, that is largely to do with my legal background, I am trained to make people agree with me! Having said that, I find much of the Buddhist theories in this area very helpful, and that is what elements of CBT are based upon.

If anybody is interest in Buddhism, I can highly recommend The Art of Happiness by The Dalai Lama. It isn't an easy read, but if you can find a secluded beach for a week it is well worth a read! I am not religious at all (don't want people to think I am trying to convert them!), the book is more about looking at things from a different viewpoint than the religion itself.