Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

moneysavingmonkey85

hi everyone,
hope you are ok, it all seems to have got quiet.
Having a lonely week again, job hunting online, and trying not to go overboard in asda - my only current hobby. dog is pretty heavy on me today, but time of the month never helps...feel too ill to eat. yuk

hope you are all busy and out in the sunshine

black_paw

have a jam sandwich and a nice cup of coffee to cheer you up ! tooworn out to be worried to day , so dog well asleep in coma good !

black_paw

so sad yes even i turned down an outing "oliver " tonight at a school , dear friend was going to pick me up a well at 7 but was asleep in bed till 6.30 and was dopey , so cancelled bet it was good too. makes you feel bad doing so.

Jennywren3

Your sleeping pill could be your problem They could be making you ill They are probably a benzodiazepine of sorts highly addictive do to benzo.org.uk and read about them Dont stop them abruptly as you could fit

tiggersue

Hi, would just like to agree with the last post about benzo's. Be very careful with them, they ruined my life and that of my Daughter who was damaged by them while I was carrying her. I finally beat the addiction to them but take every opportunity to advise people to be careful.

So_Sad_Angel

Jennywren3 wrote: »

Your sleeping pill could be your problem They could be making you ill They are probably a benzodiazepine of sorts highly addictive do to benzo.org.uk and read about them Dont stop them abruptly as you could fit

Thanks for that info...going to check them out.

Dog well asleep today....maybe sunshine helped but after really scary panic attack last weekend I seem to be in a lull....not complaining its nice to feel calm.

hope everyone is well & has great weekend xx

mustangsal

Hi everyone, can i join you? i'm so lost at the moment i don't know what i'm doing. have had this flaming black dog biting at me since i was a kid. also have ptsd from a very violent relationship, and agoraphobia. i'm a wreck basically. thing is, for the first time in months, i was starting to feel a bit more positive, then i got an eye opener about my mam. it's gutted me. basically, when i was really little my father kidnapped me. he was a nasty violent perverted man. my mam had tried to leave him. her own mother helped him take me. she always told me as soon as she got out of the bedroom, where her mother had locked her in, she came and got me. i can remember her coming in to the house to get me. but yesterday, i found out she was away with her bit on the side, (who's my step dad) conceiving my little sister no less. and left me with my evil father for more than two weeks! with him and my grandmother telling me my mam was dead! she only came and got me cos her mother reported her missing and the police picked her up and got me. i really can't make sense of it. she was never mother of the year. and i looked after my sisters most of the time. but i have kids of my own and i just can't understand how she could have left me there to run off with another man. i haven't spoken to her cos i know i'll end up hysterical and unable to make a point. sorry for offloading all this. i'm just so overwhelmed with it all. don't know what to do.
sally. x

soolin

mustangsal, have you anyone outside the family you can talk about this with? This is something that you may need too explore via clinical routes, maybe a counsellor or other therapist otherwise you will always have it in your mind. You need to get some real help to conquer this and put the past where it belongs so you can be free of it for the rest of your life.

If you haven't already done so speak to your GP and ask for a referral to someone who can help.

emweaver

i am having a really bad day today and doesnt help that our washing machine has broken and we have 4 loads of washing that needs doing.

emweaver

does anybody here have an obsession about germs /dirt?