Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

willa

Can totally relate to what you've said about work stress and lasting aftermath WATM.
Thanks for posting.

skint,single_mum_of_4

Just wanted to say hello
I suffer with depression / anxiety and now and again panic attacks..got no family around me.I have kids , youngest is 15 . everyday is a stuggle for me , people say i'm always happy & such a bubbly / attractive person...i bluff my way through life , if they saw me behind closed doors !..i don't like winter but in away its good excuse to hibernate away !
My mornings are filled with anxiety/worry , my evenings deppression. i dont want medication because ive had a couple of bad reactions so its put me off.Hate xmas , xmas is not for people who suffer with deppression...its such a loney time of year. This year my kids off up north to there dads so i can shut the world out !
Its harder havin kids around you , you have got to somehow keep goin . Hate them bringin friends home because i like my house as my own but also my house is usually a mess ive just no heart in it , i'm hopeless at keeping up with washin etc. It takes every bit of effort just to get through the day .
I work part time . i'm always stuggling with money , i started DMP last year to help pay off my debts.
I went xmas shoppin today , it deppressed me seein everyone so happy. people say how can you feel alone when you have kids ...believe me you do , its horrible to say but sometimes it feels like a burden .
My daughter ( shes 22 ) said thanks just now , i said what for ? she said...for commin shoppin with me today !...i wanted to cry !

sandy71

Thank you all for being so kind, I'm sat here crying my eyes out (again)

LW please don't feel bad, you wouldn't have changed my mind anyway. Even now I keep thinking about next time, I'm sorry I upset you. I should never have posted here, I don't know why I did.


jennihen The hospital did want to keep me in longer (I had stopped breathing by the time the ambulance arrived, everyone keeps telling me how lucky I have been) but I couldn't stand it in there.
I don't want them to know the truth because I will never be left alone and I don't want to be talked out of trying again I really wish my neighbour had kept her nose out.
The only thing that has changed is one of my epilepsy medicatications has been increased but that was going to happen anyway.

Thank you all for the support, I don't really have anyone to talk to here and feel so lonely. It won't go away.

Unity

sandy71 wrote: »

Thank you all for being so kind, I'm sat here crying my eyes out (again)

LW please don't feel bad, you wouldn't have changed my mind anyway. Even now I keep thinking about next time, I'm sorry I upset you. I should never have posted here, I don't know why I did.


jennihen The hospital did want to keep me in longer (I had stopped breathing by the time the ambulance arrived, everyone keeps telling me how lucky I have been) but I couldn't stand it in there.
I don't want them to know the truth because I will never be left alone and I don't want to be talked out of trying again I really wish my neighbour had kept her nose out.
The only thing that has changed is one of my epilepsy medicatications has been increased but that was going to happen anyway.

Thank you all for the support, I don't really have anyone to talk to here and feel so lonely. It won't go away.

Sandy I am so glad to see you back here and please don't stop posting. We may not be near each other physically, but we are all close to each other on here and we care - simple as that. If you can't be honest with the docs then please, if you feel at the end of your tether, call the Samaritans and let it all out to them.

I've wondered about you each day since your last post and you posting on here today was the best birthday present I could have had :T.

:bdaycake: Here's a slice of cake for everyone and :beer: virtual drinks all round since they don't react with the meds

jennihen

Cheers Unity - I'm raising my virtual glass and hoping its a good one for you! I got your PM and will read it properly in a bit.
Busy day today - real life like getting the car MOT'd gets in the way of everything doesn't it?
Hope everyone else is safe and warm tonight.
Sandy - you have us to talk to now so let it all out.Remember to be your own best friend and go easy on yourself.
Hello We Are The Mods - Yes - definitely a link between puberty and depression. I'm sure its because we are not living our natural lives. The planet has changed so much in the last 100 years but us mere humans haven't adapted to this as quickly.
Glad you joined us - its not a bad bunch!!!
Hi skint,single mum of 4 - I know where you're coming from. No one would have me down as a depressed person - but I have turned a huge corner lately. Personnal circumstances have made me re-evaluate everything and I've got a different understanding of it all. I'm a skint, single mum of 3 by the way!!!

willa

skint,single_mum_of_4 wrote: »

Just wanted to say hello
I suffer with depression / anxiety and now and again panic attacks..got no family around me.I have kids , youngest is 15 . everyday is a stuggle for me , people say i'm always happy & such a bubbly / attractive person...i bluff my way through life , if they saw me behind closed doors !..i don't like winter but in away its good excuse to hibernate away !
My mornings are filled with anxiety/worry , my evenings deppression. i dont want medication because ive had a couple of bad reactions so its put me off.Hate xmas , xmas is not for people who suffer with deppression...its such a loney time of year. This year my kids off up north to there dads so i can shut the world out !
Its harder havin kids around you , you have got to somehow keep goin . Hate them bringin friends home because i like my house as my own but also my house is usually a mess ive just no heart in it , i'm hopeless at keeping up with washin etc. It takes every bit of effort just to get through the day .
I work part time . i'm always stuggling with money , i started DMP last year to help pay off my debts.
I went xmas shoppin today , it deppressed me seein everyone so happy. people say how can you feel alone when you have kids ...believe me you do , its horrible to say but sometimes it feels like a burden .
My daughter ( shes 22 ) said thanks just now , i said what for ? she said...for commin shoppin with me today !...i wanted to cry !

Hiya, SSM4. Thanks for posting.
How long had you been on the meds for when you had the bad reactions?
The first time I ever had antidepressants (years ago), I was given Seroxat but not told that you can have initial bad reactions so I stopped taking them after a few days.
I've had anti-d's quite a few times since then and I've found that there can be a week or so at the start when you feel totally zombified (shows how strong the drugs are really) and then you 'normalise' gradually.
Maybe you knew this, and also that it can be maybe 6 weeks before you feel any real positive difference after starting to take antidepressants.
I've had 4 different sorts now. The ones that always used to work for me don't seem to now but I know that for years they were really brilliant for getting my depression and severe anxiety problems under control.

willa

Unity wrote: »

Sandy I am so glad to see you back here and please don't stop posting. We may not be near each other physically, but we are all close to each other on here and we care - simple as that. If you can't be honest with the docs then please, if you feel at the end of your tether, call the Samaritans and let it all out to them.

I've wondered about you each day since your last post and you posting on here today was the best birthday present I could have had :T.

:bdaycake: Here's a slice of cake for everyone and :beer: virtual drinks all round since they don't react with the meds

Happy birthday Unity!! Cake mmmm, here's a cup of tea to go with it - :coffee: (we need more icons!) xx

LadyMorticia

I'm glad you're around, Sandy.

We all love you on this thread and even though we're just faces behind a screen, we do genuinely care about you.

LadyMorticia

Happy Birthday, Unity.

My turn tomorrow. :rotfl:

black_paw

:bdaycake::bdaycake::bdaycake::bdaycake::bdaycake::bdaycake::bdaycake::bdaycake:Happy birthday Unity!! Cake mmmm :T:T:T