Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

LameWolf

Hi Willa, I don't think we've "met.

I put everything, and I mean everything I need to remember in my PDA, regardless of whether I'll get a reminder in another way. LOL I even have a weekly reminder to change the bedlinen!:D

I used to be on ssri tablets (Seroxat, if memory serves) for about 7 years, then they stopped working, and I got put on Moclobemide so it'd be worth a word with the GP. I wonder why they didn't text you this time? Seems a bit daft, they must know that people get used to having a text reminder, and will come to rely on it.

willa

Hi Lamewolf, thanks for that.
I know, I am the biggest writer of notes, lists, obsessive about getting everything right, reminders etc.
But bit of a new one for me just don't even seem to keep on top of noting things any more.
Sertraline was always brilliant for me but recently just does not seem to work (I wonder about decreasing quality of the drugs as well to be honest).
So also had citalopram - no joy.
And amitryptiline. :eek:.
And citalopram again. Still under obs with that. I seem to be becoming more of a basket case, maybe my brain is just fried after a lifetime of neurosis.
Meant to be referred to psychs re possible bipolar. Still waiting. Seeing some of these people is an ordeal in itself.
Yeah I thought it was the practice that sent the texts but they said today it's the PCT.
Funny I said to doc last time oh they send a text don't they now and he smiled and said yes.
Wonder if loads of people have missed appts because they've stopped sending to everyone. :eek: Maybe just a glitch with mine this time.
Nice to meet you Lamewolf I'm still learning to open up to other people about all this stuff.

crazy_girl

seeya23 wrote: »

i aint got any hope with her she said im puting it all on her isnt that what she get paid for

thats pretty bad imo could you not ask for a new one?

crazy_girl

LadyMorticia wrote: »

*hugs* to everyone that needs them.

Things with OH's sister seem to be a lot better. She's talking to me and I even got a hug yesterday.lol.
It was her Baptism and I cried. I'm such a softie.lol.

OH's aunt and uncle were here all weekend and they are two of the nicest people I've met. So nurturing and calm.

We've been struggling a lot for money lately , even more so with saving up for a car, but today OH got a letter from Carers Allowance saying he is due a backpayment and a cheque from Direct Line with the value of his written off car. It really is a blessing. We need the money a lot at the moment.

im dead chuffed for you, lots of good news youve deserved for a long while x

crazy_girl

darknesshayz wrote: »

Another bad night last night again, I just hope I can sleep tonight, I need some sleep, I need energy for when I go away for abit in 2 weeks time... Also today, I upset my dad, without meaning too... Also I dont think my bank cards been cancelled, as I brought something from iTunes Friday or Saturday forgetting I lost my card, and the transaction went through, so I have a feeling that I didnt cancel my card..... :S. Also when I called them they kept asking me for my bank card number..... :S, so now I am more worried then anything else....

This year has just been mean to me, and the sooner its gone, I think the better. I really want my purse back, Im really low that its gone and doesnt help people saying 'oh well' but when/if it happened/s to them they would go crazy if you said that....

Thanks people for the hugs by the way . Lets hope I can sleep much better tonight.

And hugs to forum members here too.

hope you managed to get to sleep tonight/ will manage get to sleep tonight

i would go absolutely off at the deep end if i lost my purse, took me 4 days to sort out all my name changes after getting married and that was with the contents of my purse for reference!

crazy_girl

willa wrote: »

Rung up GPs today to check whether my appt was this aft or tomorrow, they said it was thursday and I missed it! Horrified, would never knowingly miss an appt and waste time and deprive someone else of one. Since last time I must have got all mixed up, looked in my diary and that was right. Had not written it down because PCT have sent out a text to remind about last few times and this time they didn't! Beating myself up about it all morning (in the end told myself to wise up and not do that which is unusual for me and it worked) , really needed that appt. In a daze all time at minute, head full of cotton wool, used to be so on the ball, just not any more. One of my pot plants started dying through non-watering, I am getting worse. ssri's just do not seem to work any more. Maybe it's the M.E./fibro. Still would probably rather have daze than anxious agitated side. As long as it doesn't keep getting worse, I don't want to lose my mind.
Hey everyone, took vitamin D tab the other day when feeling very bad and by night-time felt a bit better. Could be coincidence but I don't get out much so don't get much light on skin and I looked up vit D on net after and apparently is big link between vit D deficiency and depression. Worth a try especially at this time of year? My tabs have calcium in too which I have heard is good for M.E.
Hope the lady who posted something worrying about going to sleep a while back is OK????

nightmare about the docs appt but you didnt do it on purpose so try not to feel too guilty x

crazy_girl

so went back to docs today, told him the whole truth about how im feeling, how i wanted to drive my car off the top road and still do how i feel i need to cut myself up even more

hes made me an appt to come back on friday, he said i wasnt going to the hospital...tonight...im scared im going to get sectioned for telling the truth i never want to go back to that ward its horrendous

willa

crazy_girl wrote: »

nightmare about the docs appt but you didnt do it on purpose so try not to feel too guilty x

Ta love x. Think my mind so fuzzy today that wasn't able to feel guilty too long for a change!

LameWolf

crazy_girl wrote: »

so went back to docs today, told him the whole truth about how im feeling, how i wanted to drive my car off the top road and still do how i feel i need to cut myself up even more

hes made me an appt to come back on friday, he said i wasnt going to the hospital...tonight...im scared im going to get sectioned for telling the truth i never want to go back to that ward its horrendous

I know it's not a vast amount of help, but here's a (((HUG))) for you, and well done on telling the doc the whole thing. I'll be thinking of you on Friday.

UnluckyT

hello everyone, big hugs to everyone.
Im not too bad but could be better,im feelin quite lonely and down, still not heard about bieng assesed but will get onto the doctors.
Trouble is like many this time of year isnt the best and for me brings back lots of bad times.
Must admit it hard to live on your own and when you dont have many friends that then seem to back off or dissopear on you, it gets harder.