Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

absolutebounder

crazy_girl wrote: »

why dont you just jump on every single thing i say when im already feeling uttery !!!!! eh?

If you PM me when you are feeling better I wont make the same mistake again

System

*bigs hugs to everyone*

So managed to miss my CBT and nearly missed my psych appointment due to getting dates mixed up, luckily psych's last patient hadn't turned up so she saw me anyway. Told her everything and she told i've haing a hypomanic reaction to my AD. So she wants mt to come off that (have to cut it down over the next 2 weeks), and she's put me on an AP/Mood Stabiliser and gave me sleeping tablets. I think she thinks what i saw the other week was more to being sleep deprived. . But now i'm just confused as to what the hell is wrong with me. I asked her if these "hypomanic" things were common with BPD and depression but she didn't give me a straight answer, she said we'd talk about what to do next, when i see her again next week

crazy_girl

hubbys got me to make another docs appt for monday this time ive got to tell him everything

LadyMorticia

OH just asked me if I'm better. =/
It breaks my heart to say no. He said that he just wants to make me better and it breaks my heart trying to explain that I need his support but I also need professional help.=/

I'll reply to everyone else's posts when I'm feeling a bit better.

x

darknesshayz

had a bad night last night, I think I get my meds mixed up, as the ones I take in the night help me sleep, but last night I couldnt get to sleep at the normal time .... I am so annoyed and angry with myself.... Then to top it off, I find out a few people have blocked me on Twitter, and I dunno what I have done, and guess what the voices started in my head ''maybe its a hint trying to tell you, your worthless, and no one really wants to know you, just wait everyone will block you, your just worthless'' makes me want to curl up and cry the voices do.

I have an appointment on Tuesday and I am nervous, its a genes appointment, to be honest I dont really want to find out what type of Neurofibromatosis I got, cause I am down enough about it as it is.

I dont want Xmas to come to be honest to many bad memories , and having to be cheery on that day, the thought makes me ill..... So instead I'll skip my meds, and drink, get abit drunk, then I can deal with it, I know thats not the way to do it, and I am not a really big drinker, I just find I can deal with it better that way.

Also I have skipped my meds a few times, in fear the doctor will take me off them, I dont want to be off them, I need them, but not taking them is making me feel worse... I just dunno....

seeya23

i all so hear voices and there not nice but you need keep going and keep takeing your meds as you say not takeing your meds makes you worse i ve been in bed for 7 days now and i cant see the end of it

crazy_girl

LadyMorticia wrote: »

OH just asked me if I'm better. =/
It breaks my heart to say no. He said that he just wants to make me better and it breaks my heart trying to explain that I need his support but I also need professional help.=/

I'll reply to everyone else's posts when I'm feeling a bit better.

x

ditto

hubby helps a lot lookign after me but hes a civil engineer not a doctor

jennihen

Hi guys - sorry to hear your struggles at the mo. I don't think this time of year helps. I hate the cold and the dark and the rain. I'm determined to make christmas this year better though.
I'm going to put in another application for DLA. My physical health depresses me so I'm really going to try to balance my life a bit more - have the help I need in place rather than lurching from crisis to to crisis and then seeing all my hard work go to waste all the time.
I'm moving house next year which is stressful for anyone!!

Anyway I'm making positive changes to be in control. I do not want to live this forever.
JH x

crazy_girl

jennihen- what happened with your last DLa application? i dont envy you moving house- phew!

jennihen

Keep getting turned down - Lupus is so variable. Rheumy thinks I've got more chance if the emphasis is on the depression! Social services have offered me 3 hours a week Direct payments to help with the care of the kids.
How are you feeling?