The Giving Up Smoking Thread!! Part 2

larmy16

Big hug Copperjar. Just be kind to yourself and accept you are only human. Having said that.........you need to put on your strongest armour, because that old fox nicotine don't wanna let you go.

Prove to him that you are bigger and stronger and before you know it you will be back on the wagon.

Sleep well and don't worry.

copperjar

Thanks larmy16. I'm really trying not to think too much about it, otherwise I'll convince myself that I can have "just one" again - I'm trying to pretend it never happened, as stupid as that sounds. I'm upset that I didn't come on here when I felt bad and ask for some advice/support, but my head was just all over the place this evening. Sometimes I think I've got too much going on and have picked a really silly time to quit. But then this is something I can control, while it feels like everything else is out of my hands.

larmy16

It is really tough CJ because there is a part of us always looking for that excuse to light up.

The only thing I can advise is to keep in mind that you have two alternatives and one is to stop and the other is to continue. As you probably know, there is no in between. Having one now and again always leads to smoking again and we then get thoroughly demoralised and nicotine has triumphed again.

It always helped me to see it as an enemy (which I believe it is) and that it is out to rob me of my life (which I think it is). Cry, scream, beat the pillow, even eat an entire pizza but don't let that foul dirty chemical convince you that you are better of with it. It is a liar!!!:mad:

dundeedoll_2

copperjar wrote: »

Hi everyone. I'm sorry and ashamed to report that today I smoked Everything just got on top of me and I went and bought a pack of 10. I'm trying not to dwell because otherwise I'll just get upset with myself again and want to smoke more. There's no excuses, I just felt everything getting on top of me more and more throughout the day and in the end just went out and bought some.

Sorry for messing up.

Oh copperjar..........I know you said everything was getting on top of you and you went and bought some BUT you also said:
'Not smoking any more now. That's it. I can't let myself get back on the smoking train. I can't afford it, don't like it and won't do it.'

If this giving up lark was as easy as 'just' stopping do you really think as many people would still be smoking?

It isn't easy............you know that............and you ARE determined..........if you weren't you would never have signed in tonight to share your struggle.

Now, get rid of any you have left ( this in itself puts YOU in control rather than the fags if you think you may as well smoke them all IYSWIM) go to sleep and wake up to a new fag free day tomorrow.


You may think that's easy for me to say...................I have had a really bad day today. I went and bought a jumper for DS1 for xmas on Friday and picked up the wrong size, so drove to the shopping park 20 miles away at 9.30am. Got there and went into shop to change jumper. As I queued at the till I burst into tears and by the time I'd driven all the way home I still hadn't stopped and that has lasted most of the day. I needed to buy some milk for DS2 but daren't just in case I bought some cigs............that's how close I was today.
I feel so lonely and daft/pathetic etc as it sounds cigs were like company for me.

I was not going to sign in today but your post made me feel I had to...........that's why this thread is so fab...........replying to you has made me confront my struggles.

I've said before that I find it difficult to put things in writing (talking I have NO problem :rotfl:) and that Sue is so eloquent in her posts - I'm sure she'll be along later dispensing her wisdom and support as well as all the other fabulously supportive people on this thread.

dundeedoll_2

See.....................larmy has already dispensed her wisdom

copperjar

Thank you larmy and dundeedoll. Sat here in tears now, its pathetic, but your words and support mean a lot. Thanks x

dundeedoll_2

Oh don't you start..............14 hours of me grizzling is quite enough!!!

Seriously, I know what you mean.................when I first posted on here 17 1/2 weeks ago Sue & Larmy were the first to reply to me in such a warm, supportive way that it made me burst into tears..............because somebody cared.

I'm off to bed now...........nighty night.

dundeedoll_2

https://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/discussion/1226069

Read post 8 in particular

larmy16

DD bless your heart, hope you are feeling better today. It is amazing is it not how the thought which leads to a craving can just hit out of the blue?

You too Copperjar - today is a new day and you may have lost the battle but you can still go on to win the war! Just make sure you do.

dundeedoll_2

Yes it is larmy!

I wasn't actually craving at all yesterday, but I knew I was feeling vulnerable and if I was in the shop I may just get a 'oh stuff it, just 10' moment and I was NOT prepared to take that risk.

Off to work I go.............just had a text to say 'Forget the cleaning, there's 30 shirts to iron' from my first client of the day.
:eek: :j:rotfl: