The Giving Up Smoking Thread!! Part 2

Puzzledbubbles

Hi Everyone,

Sorry i havent been around much, real life has happily been filling my time

I have stayed quit, was a month on the 24th and my first wobbly was last night, but i got through it, despite me saying to smoking friend, "i could murder a fag" and her saying "have one then" lol

I have found that something that really works for me is having something to do with my hands that occupies me for 10 mins or so - its meaning that im getting very good at my mobile phone games and i have been doing a bit more knitting, sometimes that little bit of diversion that holds off the attack.

HTH someone and keep up the good work guys - remember its about the little things, each fag you resisit IS an achievement!

Puzzled xx

kezzae

Hi Guys,

Thanks for all your support, hints, tips, etc............

Merrywidow - I will definately be asking for the inhalator when I go to the clinic tomorrow, and you are right when you say that the patches take away the withdrawal and craving feelings but dont fill the void of having something to do with your hands. Do you think I should ditch the patches or ask for a different type, Im using Nicquitin CQ 21mg peach coloured with the silver back to them at the moment but they are really starting to irrate me and wont stick properly, hubby thinks I could be having a reaction to them, what do you think????



I can't stop beating myself up mainly because lastnight when my 'wobble' happened I was at the bottom of the garden and thought my youngest was asleep and he obviously wasn't as he came down to ask for a drink and caught me, the look on his little face was heartbreaking and even more so when he looked like he was going to cry and said " aw mum but you promised, you promised...." It's like a film replaying in my mind over and over, I just keep seeing his little face and the look of disapointment, god i'm nearly in tears.
So now I am more determind than ever to beat this, and maybe my 'wobble' was a good thing???.

Lastnight was the most stupidiest thing I could have done, but as larmy16 says ' I fell off my horse' but I am now superglued back in my saddle!!



Hope you've all had a good weekend and I will see you tomorrow. xx

larmy16

Kezzae good for you. Take care.

Merrywidow

Kezzea - I had the same reaction to the patches and made sure I never put them on the same spot too often. They really do help with the initial cravings. Go for the the inhalators and you will see what I mean. My doctor gave me them for at least 3 months. The reaction from your child should really spur you on. I simply did not realise what a stink I created and how my clothes stank till I stood close to a smoker recently. I recently opened a box of books that I had stored in the garage while decorating was going on and the stink of nicotine came out and hit me between the eyes. Keep at it - the pain will ease.

kezzae

Merrywidow - Thanks for your reply, Im going to ask for the inhalator today at the clinic and see if she can change the patches. I know what you mean about the smell, a car can drive past me with the windows open and I can smell the stink a mile off! We were coming out of Tesco one day last week and my hubby said " ergh did you smell the fags on them" as 2 people walked past us.

Well, Im feeling pretty damn good today, Ive had no cravings (touches wood) and the sparkle I had at the start of my Journey is slowly coming back, I just hope that I dont ever have a week like I had last week.............. I just need to stop the munchies now!!

Hope you all have a good day, and Il let you know how I get on at the clinic later. xx

larmy16

Kezzae I have been thinking about what you said about your little boy and his disappointment finding you smoking at the bottom of the garden. To me, that says it all really.

I remember how I would not smoke in my house and yet when it was raining I broke that and smoked in my kitchen while burning incense, having a bowl of vinegar out, etc.

I hated to smoke in the garden. A. because I did not want to be seen by neighbours, taking my fix and B. It is so unrelaxing! The whole business seems so furtive and well desperate. Years ago everyone smoked but nowadays it seems to be the nearest you can get to being a leper or an untouchable. :mad: I personally do not like this atall, as there are some very very nice people who just happened to be hooked on this miserable chemical.

Sadly though society sees us as weak and pathetic and are baffled by our refusal to to just stop. As we all know, it takes a huge shift in our minds to build up the courage to let go of the fear of quitting.

Well, here we are - it's a brand new shiny week - weather's a bit iffy - so all the more reason to stop if you are a smoker who has been relegated to the outdoors.;)

The patches used to bring me out in a red rash too by the way. This time I only used them for a couple of days and then forgot them. I really think it was belonging to this thread which helped me so much.

Have a good week everyone!:)

kezzae

Hi Larmy16

Everything you have said is soooo true!!

I was what you could call a secret smoker, not a smoker who hid it from family etc, everyone knew I was a smoker but I only smoked at home in the garden or at my mother in laws when having a cuppa in her garden. My mother in law can quite happily smoke anywhere, we will go into town and she will light up outside a shop or on the walk into town etc and not care what anyone thinks, I on the otherhand wouldn't, the shame of people seeing me smoke and the looks she got wouldn't let me, I was too embarrassed.
I worked for M&S and no one there knew I smoked, I thought I would be looked down on as they have an image they have to uphold. So, I would smoke in the morning, shower go and do my shift and not smoke or even crave one, then come home and smoke.I could go a full 8hr shift and it never bothered me. This was day in day out. I never smoked publicly full stop.

When I smoked I used to feel really uncomfortable if people got to close to me, wether it be in a queue or say a teacher talking to me about one of my children, and it wasn't because of them, it was me because I knew I stunk of ciggies and didn't want them to smell that and know I was a smoker. Now Ive quit, Ive realised that they could probably smell them on me anyway.

larmy16

Kezzae that all sounds so familiar. The cig in the morning, the shower, the newly washed clothes, the 8 hour shift and then the cig on getting home. What a relief not to have to do it all anymore!!!

Hope you have a really good week and stay strong!

kezzae

I went to the clinic and the lady said I was having a reaction to the patches so she has changed them and also perscribed an inhalator............ only problem is she has dropped my patches to 15mg as she said the 25mg would be too strong, and other problem is the chemist had no inhalator in stock, so has given me an IOU note but can't tell me when they will get any more in oh and the patches are 16hr and not 24hr like I was on.............. and I blew a 3 on the monitor:j!!!

larmy16

That's amazing Kezzae. Great news eh? Ooh I had the most horrible dreams on the 24 hour patches - I expect it was because I was smoking so little near the end, they were way too strong for me.