The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 2

mollypolly

jo1972 wrote: »

This is another one of my self-sabotage moments, I used to be addicted to ebay AND I had a cheque book :rolleyes: I'd buy everything willy nilly knowing that I wouldn't have ANY money in my account for a few days but sent a cheque for when I did.

Worst thing is EBay when you have had a drink:eek:

ESELT...I am feeling a bit down...no particulr reason...just the time of year I think.We are going away for a few days soon and I cant wait.....just need to get away......I think I worry about my grown up girls much more now than when they were small.(Its very wearing)...

I think I am also worrying about my one year anniversary coming up.It seems such a milestone and I keep thinking ,....I have done that now, and it would be so easy to have a drink to celebrate:D

I wont though...mustn't be complacent.One is too many etc.....
MPxxxx

stroppy

Ooh thats me Jo!Im exactly the same my OH says I always make things difficult for myself, i get myself so worked up about things and then when he tells me off I sulk like a baby!
Doing absolutely dreadfully on my AFD and even had a glass on Sunday when I never have a drink on a sunday......
Think I may be compensating for not smoking.....which I am still finding hellish btw!
Stroppy xx

jo1972

mollypolly wrote: »

I think I am also worrying about my one year anniversary coming up.It seems such a milestone and I keep thinking ,....I have done that now, and it would be so easy to have a drink to celebrate:D

This is normal MP, I regularly get congratulation drink thoughts after 24 hours not drinking!!

By the way, I popped into Waterstones at lunchtime and bought AC's Easyway to quit alcohol, thought I might try and train my thoughts a bit better

Must remember to take some Kudzu in an hour or so....

Pippilongstocking

jo1972 wrote: »

Ok, me and self-sabotage

I then started thinking about how I always make everything so difficult for myself...my OH often says that I always like to take the most difficult approach to everything in life. This is very true, if there's an easy way I won't do it. I procrastinate until I'm running around like a blue bummed fly trying to cram everything in at the last minute and I happily sit there procrastinating knowing full well that I will regret it.

There are other occasions, for example, when I know that I need to drive somewhere I don't know...I have no problem driving, in fact quite enjoy it, that is until I have to venture down a road that I've not travelled before :eek: even if I prepare by printing maps, getting AA routefinder directions and even looking on google maps at the actual birds eye view of my route, I panic. From the moment I know I am going somewhere, even if it's 2 months away I will start to panic to the point of hysteria. Why??? I don't mind driving, I'm not a nervous driver, I'm only going to be going on roads not cross country and I've got the map!!!

So, I have come to the conclusion that I do everything possible to make my life more difficult, I enjoy being in a panic and I enjoy worrying about things.

I'm sure there are lots more examples but got to do some work so might think about this further and 'list' them later :rotfl:

Can anyone 'see' themselves in the above??

xx

Like looking in a mirror babe!!

(Apart from the smoking).

MP - hope you OK

E - seemingly I can't write and it seems to be something here akin to leprosy. Ho hum. Not given you any plant advice jus told you what they are called!!

graemecarter

jo1972 wrote: »

Ok, me and self-sabotage

I already said this morning about me going into the shop whilst screaming wildly (to myself ) that I don’t want anything in the shop, anything, least of all alcohol. But then make an immediate beeline to the stella fridge and skip joyfully to the counter with armfuls of beer whilst telling myself I don’t want it but I’m going to buy it anyway. I sometimes feel like the Jim Carey character out of Liar Liar when he’s trying to write ‘blue’ with a black pen but he can’t physically do it and throws himself all over the room wrestling with himself trying to do something different, whilst I’m handing the money over for my purchase and still screaming inside ‘I DON’T WANT IT!!!!!’

I then got to thinking about other things in my life that I do even though I don’t want to. I used to smoke until a couple of years ago, smoked since the age of 13. At the worst was on 40 a day for some time. I always wanted the first one of the day as obviously that relieved the 'wanting a fag' tension, but then 5 or 10 minutes later I would light another but I obviously didn't have the same craving like the first one, but I'd have it anyway...cos I could...and cos I usually do.

I then started thinking about how I always make everything so difficult for myself...my OH often says that I always like to take the most difficult approach to everything in life. This is very true, if there's an easy way I won't do it. I procrastinate until I'm running around like a blue bummed fly trying to cram everything in at the last minute and I happily sit there procrastinating knowing full well that I will regret it.

There are other occasions, for example, when I know that I need to drive somewhere I don't know...I have no problem driving, in fact quite enjoy it, that is until I have to venture down a road that I've not travelled before :eek: even if I prepare by printing maps, getting AA routefinder directions and even looking on google maps at the actual birds eye view of my route, I panic. From the moment I know I am going somewhere, even if it's 2 months away I will start to panic to the point of hysteria. Why??? I don't mind driving, I'm not a nervous driver, I'm only going to be going on roads not cross country and I've got the map!!!

So, I have come to the conclusion that I do everything possible to make my life more difficult, I enjoy being in a panic and I enjoy worrying about things.

I'm sure there are lots more examples but got to do some work so might think about this further and 'list' them later :rotfl:

Can anyone 'see' themselves in the above??

xx

Me all over Jo - same traits and thinking

And change the smoking to 2 months, not 2 years

Bismarck

wow...."self-sabotage"...how many times have I made things more difficult than they need to be? scary....bit like a while ago when the penny dropped that I drank to give myself the guts to do stuff that was scary.....and take away the edge of failure...even though drinking in itself made failure more likely......

molly....the year hurdle is a funny one. on odd days I think about my 2 year one coming up months away...and I had thought that your year was up around about now....really, each day is worthy of celebration in its own right.

I know that now.

boysma

Hi NTC and everyone

Can you mark me up for 6 please? Monday was AF but not Sunday alas as i feared and tonight i am having a few glasses of vino as it is our anniversary (not wedding - 25 years from we got engaged - aw). Any excuse eh.

fluffyb

Ok, managed another night AF - danger period is over now :rolleyes:

That now makes me 5 days AF for this month :j :j :j :j :j


Hope everyone else is getting through tonight ok xx

fedupandskint

AFD 7 for me today - no temptation at all for a change.

I think I'm a bit like what you said Jo, mind you I'm trying to change my thinking patterns too and MSE is helping me change my thoughts. No one else could do this. Funny how cyber space has!

Hope everyone else is ok tonight, if AF well done, if tempted hang in there and do something to take your mind off it and if not AF, never mind tomorrow is another day

ad1jnl

Put me down for another AFD - so thats 8. Got to say was really tempted to go to the footie and have a couple but it'd have blown the rest of the money for the month. So ended up dropping asleep on the settee between 7.30 and 9.30 lol!! Thats two nights on the trot

Jo1972 - I'm currently reading Allen Carrs Easyway to control alcohol -its pretty good and convincing. Might have to try it with the cigs after these packets have ran out