Not Quite Rock bottom

PinkTwirl

I went to the doctor and told her once I was down. She said "everyone feels down now and then".

Great doctor!

In_Search_Of_Me

Think theres a difference between feeling low and depressed though PT...all of us get a bit down sometimes but its when you feel like youre in a bottomless pit/hopeless/walking through treacle and dont feel you can get out of it that menas some lovely tablets can help.
How you doing mupateer?

Buffythedebtslayer

hey mupteer just wanted to check in and see how you are doing

(((((((hugs))))))))))) if you need them xxxxx

QueenBeruthiel

Mupeteer, I'm sorry for your troubles.

Is there any way you can raise income from your only real asset - your flat? This is no time to try to sell, but could you rent it out and bunk down with relatives even if only for a few months?

PinkTwirl

In_Search_Of_Me wrote: »

Think theres a difference between feeling low and depressed though PT...all of us get a bit down sometimes but its when you feel like youre in a bottomless pit/hopeless/walking through treacle and dont feel you can get out of it that menas some lovely tablets can help.
How you doing mupateer?

That's true. She was the "other" doctor, not my main doctor. I went to see him a week later and he wrote me off work for a month and put me on anti-depressants though. Back then I felt as if something in the front of my head was about to snap, like a ruler. I never want to go through that again.

Anyway, my post was trying to say, if the doctor is being a bit rubbishy and you feel you need something to help, perseve, I think I might have expressed it better though.

PinkTwirl

How are you Mupeteer today? How did your food shop go?

Mupeteer

Thanks for all the comments guys.

I'm feeling really low today - just so tired of fighting for everything. I've spent the morning on the phone trying to get stuff sorted and getting nowhere. I called my car insurance company yesterday and thought it was too good to be true when they said they would get in touch with their approved repaired and have the car collected in the morning between 8.30 and 12 and have my courtesy car delivered. So I got out of bed early this morning and emptied the car only to receive a call from the repairer at about 9.30 to ask when I could bring my car in so they could do an estimate. I explained that was not what I was told was happening and they replied, "we don't come out to collect cars, and there's no chance of getting naything done today as we close at 2." Bloody wonderful.

Phoned my insurance company back and they told me there was nothing they could do about it and that I'd just have to take it along. As it's a 40 odd mile round trip I said no and that I'd get local quotes. Have done that and am happy with the garage my car is going to but now my insurer are refusing to give me a courtesy car. My garage will try their best but can't promise.

My bloody internet connection is still not working (I'm writing this at my step-dad's house) Made the mistake of switching to vodafone and it isn't working at all. Since the start of my contract it has been almost impossible to get connected. I regularly get error messages and their customer services and technical department have been no use. I've spent over £25 on phone call trying to get it sorted but to no avail. This morning I called them and waited for 40 minutes and didn't evene get to speak to a human being. I've tried emailing them when I do get internet access and they email me back approx 2 weeks later each time. Useless. And its an 18 month contract. I'm now thinking that I will write to their complaints department telling them that I don't think they are fulfilling the contract and threatening to go to the ombudsman. I just want out of the contract all together now as its no use at all and I need to have reliable access for uni.

I'm supposed to be going to my sister's house tonight but don't want to go. I'm feeling really anti-social anyway and to cap it off, when I was round using her computer earlier, her husband made some comment about my dog, basically saying she's not welcome. Just feels like everyone's takinging pot shots at me at the moment.
Sorry for the rant but I had to let this all out. Can't stop crying. Just want to take Nytol and see inthe New Year in my bed.

In_Search_Of_Me

aww hugs for you...when it all feels a but much I try to cut it down into bitesize chunks and that sometimes helps. Please go to the gp when theyre open again. I know anti-d's dont solve everything but I do think they would help you at least feel like you could cope with it all. Can you have a chat with your sister about the dog and clarify whether he was saying that or whether it was a misunderstanding...As for nitol and sleep its not a bad idea! I'll be having cava and and early night as loathe new years eve plus like you am pleased to be shot of 2008! onwards and upwards...big hugs coming your way...

Mupeteer

I've at leaast done something positive today - tax return completed and sent. Phew.

Sent my sister a text saying that I wont be going round tonight as I have a headache (it is aching but not in the normal sense of a headache, more a mental pain IYKWIM) and got a reply saying "I know you are struggling but the girls are looking forward to seeing you." I'm sure they are and as much as I would like spending time with them I can't face anyone else just now.

Just hoping that my internet connection stays with me for a little while so I can hang about here instead.

Buffythedebtslayer

I hope your internet connection works too cos it would be lovely to have you (((((Hugs))))

I would recommand walk the dog (am so jealous you have a dog!!!) take a bath sit in dressing gown and chat on here with dodgey new year eve tv on!

thinking of you sweetie

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