Not Quite Rock bottom

Mupeteer

ARGH! I'm in my own house for a few days and I'm feeling bloody miserable. Just me an my dog and I know I'm no good without human company but I can't face going anywhere.

If I go to my sister's it'll just serve to remind me how my life has turned out nothing like I had hoped for. I've been really conscious for the whole Christmas period that I would despereatley love to have kids and thought I would by now, that time is rapidly running out for me and that I'd be in no position financially or emotionally to support them anyway.

And to top it all off I'm starving. I've no food in the house (see earlier posts about my bloody fridge freezer) and have already eaten the very last of the cereal.

On the plus side, I haven't spent any money today again. 3 in a row!

littleangels3

Aaah poor you, you sound like youre having a bad time of it, lets hope 2009 is a better year for all of us ay

Mupeteer

Right, scrap today's NSD. Just ordered a pizza delivery. Given that there is no food in the house I think its ok. at least that's what I'm telling myself. It had better be good though.

pania

good for you and why on earth not!! big hugs hon

PinkTwirl

Mupeteer wrote: »

Unfortunately, due to my friends being a**holes over the last couple of months I've decided I'd be better off without them. Pants but true! But I really don't think I need people in my life who let me down and are insensitive in the ways they have been. So, in short, not taxi service. Ah well, at least I wont be spending on petrol!

Hi Mupeteer,

I can tell you've been having a crap time of it. I've been feeling the same and have been thinking that my friends are a**holes also. At one point yesterday, my cousin asked me because I was so down "why do you hate yourself?" I was so angry! Why is it assumed that I hate myself because I'm annoyed with being let down? If anything I think more of myself than before because I won't put up with that rubbish anymore!

I hope the pizza is good!

Mupeteer

Hi PinkTwirl,

Isn't it great the way other people assume they know exactly what is going on with you. I'm not usually one for New Year's Resolutions but this year I am making one promise to myself: not to let other people like my so-called friends take advantage of me anymore. I'm tired of being walked over so it has to stop. Lets just hope my resolve stays strong. I don't have many friends in the real world but at least I know there are some fantastic people on here. I'd rather have virtual friends than be used.

And the pizza was good - lukewarm but tasty!

Hope things are better for you in 2009.

PinkTwirl

Mupeteer wrote: »

Hi PinkTwirl,

Isn't it great the way other people assume they know exactly what is going on with you. I'm not usually one for New Year's Resolutions but this year I am making one promise to myself: not to let other people like my so-called friends take advantage of me anymore. I'm tired of being walked over so it has to stop. Lets just hope my resolve stays strong. I don't have many friends in the real world but at least I know there are some fantastic people on here. I'd rather have virtual friends than be used.

And the pizza was good - lukewarm but tasty!

Hope things are better for you in 2009.

Hi,

I hope things are better for you next year too! If you read any of my old posts, you will see that I have been doing some reasoning with myself trying to work out why people have sponged off me and been rubbish friends. I got some good advice there so it might help.

DreamerHelen

Hi Mupeteer....can't really help in any practical way at all, but just wanted to say that I hope 2009 is a MUCH better year for you!!

Also, we're ALWAYS here if you just need a shoulder....!!

And I hope the Pizza was good...even if it was lukewarm

Mupeteer

Well I've hauled my butt out of bed so I really should get on with stuff. Got to go to the supermarket (hell on earth today I'll bet) so that I can avoid a repeat of last night's food crisis. Wish me luck!

In_Search_Of_Me

aww sorry that things still carp. I do think it would be worth going back to the GP to discuss how low you are feeling. There is no need to feel depressed in thsi day and age when theres lovely meds to avoid it...its just about finding the right one for you and you cant carry on like this can you me lovely?
As for online friends theyre great but no substiture for real life friends me thinks...as with all things its all about balance! Sift your friends and ditch the nasty user ones and nurture the lovely genuine friendly ones! Works for me - I have few real life friends but they are good ones!
Re comparing yourself to others its not a good idea cos you are you! I know its hard (esp the bit re children as would also have loved to have some) but you are trying to make your life better by going to uni - problem is that its left you ultra skint! Do they have an emergency hardship fund you can access?
What a lovely nan you have emptying out her piggy bank...did you add it up? Hope the supermarket goes ok! Big hugs for you...