hanging my head in shame

Keeping_Positive

worried_jim wrote: »

In post 701 I mentioned that I was about to embark on (another) lifestyle change. I have been yo-yo dieting all year and I have done quite well but I have a problem with food , I cant stop bingeing. I have been a glutton since July and have put back on all the weight I lost and more, I started eating properly again on Saturday this lasted 3 days. I am going to kill myself if I go on like this, but I just can't help myself. I often feel low and I reach for the food and can eat to the point where I feel sick, and often will still not stop. I feel horrible when I do this but I still go back for more.
Its is very hard to stay on a diet when there is no one around to tell you off for being a pig, and as long as I am a pig there will be no one around either- this is the crux of my problem, I am bearing my sole- I am single because I am fat and I am fat because I am single.
I have tried group support thru weight watchers and found it too desperate and female and as I said before I couldn't keep a straight face after seeing Little Britain.
I have tried desperately to do it on my own and I can loose weight so my trousers are loose I just can't get to a stage were I can drop a size so get depressed and start eating again and end up putting back on all the weight I may have lost plus more, which is where I am now.
So today I have signed up with Bodytrim-
http://www.bodytrim.eu/default.aspx?nav=5
I know very little about it but I have to do something. It has cost me £55. This is £55 that I could have put to better use, but it's £55 that I now cant spend on the wrong food and because it is a lot of money to me I will have to do it. When it arrives I am going to follow it to the letter and I will not pick and choose the bits that I think will or wont work. If it says I must eat breakfast than I will eat breakfast whether I am hungry or not.
I really have to sort myself out before it gets to a stage were I can't or I have damaged my health.

My docs can refer people t the local gym at a discount rate. Ive got the forms but not actedon them yet . Eating as a comfort is so easy to do. With all the other stresses to deal with its so easy to grab a treat or two, three............. Hope the new plan helps

Izzie_Wizzie

worried_jim wrote: »

In post 701 I mentioned that I was about to embark on (another) lifestyle change. I have been yo-yo dieting all year and I have done quite well but I have a problem with food , I cant stop bingeing. I have been a glutton since July and have put back on all the weight I lost and more, I started eating properly again on Saturday this lasted 3 days. I am going to kill myself if I go on like this, but I just can't help myself. I often feel low and I reach for the food and can eat to the point where I feel sick, and often will still not stop. I feel horrible when I do this but I still go back for more.
Its is very hard to stay on a diet when there is no one around to tell you off for being a pig, and as long as I am a pig there will be no one around either- this is the crux of my problem, I am bearing my sole- I am single because I am fat and I am fat because I am single.
I have tried group support thru weight watchers and found it too desperate and female and as I said before I couldn't keep a straight face after seeing Little Britain.
I have tried desperately to do it on my own and I can loose weight so my trousers are loose I just can't get to a stage were I can drop a size so get depressed and start eating again and end up putting back on all the weight I may have lost plus more, which is where I am now.

Hi Worried Jim

I spent ages typing a reply then got logged off before I could send it!! :mad:

I too am dealing with both debt problems and being overweight and honestly feel that (certainly for me) the two are interlinked. I spent years yo-yo dieting, failing miserably after an initial period of success, then stuffing more food down my neck in an attempt to make me feel better. The resulting lack of self esteem sent me into a spending frenzy where I would spend far too much money on needless stuff to make me feel better about myself.

And what did I end up with?

• being 2 stone heavier than I was when I first started dieting at 15;
• a wardrobe full of clothes that I cannot wear because they don’t fit me anymore;
• other clothes, shoes, handbags and jewellery that I don’t wear because I don’t feel worthy enough to look good;
• an embarrassingly large (and expensive! :eek:) collection of rarely used designer cosmetics that have been resigned to the bin; and worst of all
• outstanding debt which, at its worst, exceeded £19k with no real assets to show for it.

I think that for me, what has helped me tremendously is acknowledging the real reason for the overweight/overspend issues and to start listening to what my body and bank balance need – i.e. do I really need to buy that? Am I really hungry or am I eating because I’m bored/angry/depressed/stressed/lonely? It’s definitely easier to apply this to spending than eating but these are the real issues that I need to address and I know that the weight issue is a long haul thing for me. For me, dieting and spending seems to be not so much about what I put in my mouth or onto my credit card but about what goes on in my head.

I seem to have rambled on a bit but I just wanted to say that you’re not alone in any of this and if you need any help, support or just want to get it off your chest, you’re more than welcome to PM me.

Izzie

worried_jim

Izzie_Wizzie wrote: »

Hi Worried Jim

I spent ages typing a reply then got logged off before I could send it!! :mad:

I too am dealing with both debt problems and being overweight and honestly feel that (certainly for me) the two are interlinked. I spent years yo-yo dieting, failing miserably after an initial period of success, then stuffing more food down my neck in an attempt to make me feel better. The resulting lack of self esteem sent me into a spending frenzy where I would spend far too much money on needless stuff to make me feel better about myself.

And what did I end up with?

• being 2 stone heavier than I was when I first started dieting at 15;
• a wardrobe full of clothes that I cannot wear because they don’t fit me anymore;
• other clothes, shoes, handbags and jewellery that I don’t wear because I don’t feel worthy enough to look good;
• an embarrassingly large (and expensive! :eek:) collection of rarely used designer cosmetics that have been resigned to the bin; and worst of all
• outstanding debt which, at its worst, exceeded £19k with no real assets to show for it.

I think that for me, what has helped me tremendously is acknowledging the real reason for the overweight/overspend issues and to start listening to what my body and bank balance need – i.e. do I really need to buy that? Am I really hungry or am I eating because I’m bored/angry/depressed/stressed/lonely? It’s definitely easier to apply this to spending than eating but these are the real issues that I need to address and I know that the weight issue is a long haul thing for me. For me, dieting and spending seems to be not so much about what I put in my mouth or onto my credit card but about what goes on in my head.

I seem to have rambled on a bit but I just wanted to say that you’re not alone in any of this and if you need any help, support or just want to get it off your chest, you’re more than welcome to PM me.

Izzie

You have hit the nail right on the head Izzie. I feel exactly the same as you and I share the same feelings, even the clothes in my wardrobe- but not the makeup ! (yet)
Thank you for everyone kind words and support, I can't begin to describe how much it means to me. I am so determined to get this right, I have done it in the past and I know that I can do it again. Being honest I just couldn't face going to see a Doctor and it would make me feel so pathetic, I would happily talk to one on a phone in but never in person- its a man thing. Thank you everyone once again.
Izzie- I may well pm you for advice once I start in the next day or two.

clara177

Hi Jim

I have read most of your thread and its an amazing journey you have been on.

I must admit I don't post much on here but you last post about bingeing really struck a chord with me, as this is what I am like and have been for years. I really want to finally nail this eating thing as well, so your not alone with this.

Good Luck

k2tog

worried_jim wrote: »

You have hit the nail right on the head Izzie. I feel exactly the same as you and I share the same feelings, even the clothes in my wardrobe- but not the makeup ! (yet)
Thank you for everyone kind words and support, I can't begin to describe how much it means to me. I am so determined to get this right, I have done it in the past and I know that I can do it again. Being honest I just couldn't face going to see a Doctor and it would make me feel so pathetic, I would happily talk to one on a phone in but never in person- its a man thing. Thank you everyone once again.
Izzie- I may well pm you for advice once I start in the next day or two.

Try mascara - always helps

worried_jim

I think you mean guyliner !

Izzie_Wizzie

worried_jim wrote: »

I think you mean guyliner !

Maybe with a touch of manscara and male varnish?? nice!! :rotfl:

Btw WJ, been reading through this post, just noticed you're a Thunder fan :j what a cracking band!!

Izzie

worried_jim

I've not had a good year for musical heroes. Had Michael Jackson tickets- dead. Saw Thunder-split up, Grew up with Oasis- imploded. I have a Lilly Allen ticket for December so she'll have been run over in a freak accident by then.

worried_jim

Have just received my 2 default notices from MBNA for my 2 accounts. By the end of the month they accounts will be sold and the debt moved on to a dca- I think. This was inevitable but still a bit of a bummer. The letters make reference to me breaking my payment arrangement with them although I have beeing making regular payments via payplan. The letter goes on to mention possible court action. I wonder what will happen next.

Shoe_Gal

worried_jim wrote: »

Have just received my 2 default notices from MBNA for my 2 accounts. By the end of the month they accounts will be sold and the debt moved on to a dca- I think. This was inevitable but still a bit of a bummer. The letters make reference to me breaking my payment arrangement with them although I have beeing making regular payments via payplan. The letter goes on to mention possible court action. I wonder what will happen next.

Think this is fairly standard procedure. Happened with my Next account, 18 months of regular reduced payments, then default and sold on DCA accpeted same payment with no query