Trying For a Baby II

becs

Hi Scottishchick,

I'm using the clearblue monitor as well. It's my understanding that you will only get a high if the machine has detected increased hormone. You can however have several high days so it could mean that you will ov a bit earlier this month or you may have more high days than usual.

Does anyone have any experience of progesterone blood tests? I had some last month. One the day before I was due to ov and 1 that was supposed to be 5 days later due to usual short lp. However my cycle did not agree with this so I ov'd 2 days later so my 2nd test was only 3dpo. It has come back at 7.8 but I can't seem to see anything for results only 3 dpo as says peaks around day 7! From what I have seen 7.8 would indicate that I did ov but impossible to see if this is a progesterone defieciency.

Nikabella

I know this isn't exactly TTC related but can I please have a quick rant/virtual cry? I really don't know where else I can let this out.

I really am not coping at work at the moment, I've been at a new company for the past 8 months & only back at work in total for 12 months since my year off on maternity leave. Some things have gone on in the past few years which has totally wrecked my confidence & I feel completely incapable of doing a lot of things. In my new job I now have my own projects to manage & no-one guiding me like at my old job. I feel like I'm drowning & have spent the past 12 months dreading going to work every morning, I try to ask for help (it takes me ages to talk myself up t being able to do this) but I still feel like I'm completely lost. If anyone realises how rubbish I am I'll probably end up getting sacked or they will all think bad of me. I really just want to burst into tears everyday, my OH tries to be supportive as we are both qualified in the same field but he has been working in a different area of the field so doesn't know the answers to my questions. To top it off I work in a male dominated field, which will make me look even worse if I burst into tears in the office. I am dreading going to work tomorrow, I really think I'm going to have a nervous breakdown soon.

I'm sorry this really isn't related to TTC is it. I'm going to be quiet now.

scottishchick27

((((HUG))) Nikabella, don't really have much advice for you except to maybe try to talk to your boss and explain how you are feeling. May be better to do this sooner rather than later as things like that may lead to depression.Good luck hun. X

scottishchick27

helen81 wrote: »

Scottish chick, Im in same boat as you, CD12, didn't ov till cd20 last month, but at just cd9 I got 2 lines on an opk..not a positive though as they were not the same darkness BUT last month I wasn't getting a 2nd line atall..even at cd17!! So..abit different this month, but like you I have suffered the misery of a loss in the family and I guess it can do funny things to your cycle.

Good luck helen, I'm so sorry that you lost your mum I can't even imagine what you've been through. Hopefully you'll have some good news soon.
Still have EWCM today and the monitor still says high so hoping to BD tonight. OH doesn't know yet though.:o He has a big presentation at work on Thurs and as he isn't working tomorrow to go with me to gran's funeral he is working on the laptop at the moment. Hopefully he won't come to bed too late and I'm asleep. :rolleyes:

Nikabella

Thank you for your hugs Scottishchick, I really need them.

I don't think I dare tell my boss type of person, he has just quadrupled my work load & I don't think he will be very happy.

I have depression at the moment already, I know I do (though I hate to admit it) as I have had it before. It came back again after I had my DD & it took me 20 months to summons the courage to go to my doctor, he said he would make me an emergency appointment with the practices counsellor for the next week, 5 months on & I have heard nothing. I can't face going back again. I was going to start taking St John's Wort a while ago to see if that helped but you musn't take it whilst TTC/pregnant so I gave up on that idea.

A.x

scottishchick27

Demand to see another doctor Nikabella, things won't get any better if you bury your head in the sand. Don't be ashamed of having depression it is an illness. If you had a chest infection you would go to the doctors and this isn't really any different. It'll only get worse if you have another baby without seeking medical advice now, you might end up with severe post natal depression and that it very scary. Don't mean to preach to you but my mum had depression when I was younger and it was miserable for us too.

vicstar_2

Nikabella, sorry you are feeling so down at the moment. I don't really have any advice on the work front but I think Scottishchick is right - you really should go back to your doctor and insist on some help.

Sometimes it's really hard to do anything when you get too low but you might find that once you manage to do something about the depression you will have more confidence to speak up about your concerns at work?

How are you feeling today?

Vic

Leopardlady

Well good morning everyone, AF turned up last night with avengance, i am very uncomfortable today, which is a shame, but i am hoping the rest of the week whizz by and i can get on with things later this month. OH is positive we can make a difference this month, so lets keep our fingers crossed.

Nikabella, i am so sorry life is so difficult at the moment, i have pm'd you.

Lovely sticky baby dust to all, esp those who are ov'ing about now. My fingers and toes are crossed for you.

jennynoo

Leopardlady- sorry you weren't successful this month.

Nikabella do you network much? We frequently network in my job and I meet people who are doing a similar job to me who I can ask questions. I feel like a fraud most of the time I have to talk about legal and biological stuff which I hardly have any training in but somehow I manage to bungle my way through. Even worse is when I have to do physics stuff which I have a degree in but still don't understand!

I find setting myself goals and breaking things down into small chunks helps, also keeping a list so I don't forget what I have to do! At some point you may also have to tell your boss that he has given you too much work. I've had to do this eg. 'I'm too busy to do this right now, if you need it straight away perhaps it would be better to get someone else to do it.' or just ask what the priority is on the work you have been given.

I hope you get though this. Best wishes.

helen81_2

Nikabella, sorry to hear how low you are feeling, sorry I don't have any advice to give apart from whats already been said- please seek help,sooner rather than later, DO NOT feel ashamed or embarrassed.We are all here for you to chat to if you need us sweetheart xx