Slaying my debts, the second year

OliveOyl_2

And do you have a "high" equivalent to the one you'd get for buying those impractical shoes/handbags?

No? Me neither :rotfl: :rotfl:

Buffythedebtslayer

the shoes were so pretty.

but it would have amounted to 1/2 my CC monthly payment. I am aiming for the big high of being able to tell my boss were to stick his job.

really I am.

( thats a long winded way of saying I know exactly what you mean)
xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Ok, so I sat here this afternoon and watched two films. the descent which was good but had the most rubbish ending ever.

and "Bobby" which was BRILLIANT. I will put it on my C******** list.

I also cleaned out one fish tank.

but didn't do any actually work.I am hoping tomorrow without MSE I will get some work done!

the way I figure it today was the last day of my holiday. my holiday that I had waited so long for. tomorrow normal life resumes.

I start my second job on Tuesday, and will ask her if I can do the Saturday hours as well. It will mean my debt free date is realistic.

Its been a while since I have thought about changing my life and it needs to be done.

crikey I am tired.

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OliveOyl_2

I'm tired too.

and cheesed off

and not getting my debt down/my gaden sorted/my work done or anything really. so I lounge around at home, and don't go out even when invited and am just pathetic really

So tomorrow? A new day??

Buffythedebtslayer

Yep Olive Tomorrow, we start again.

xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Well Tonight I am the most depressed I have been in a long time.

I start work again tomorrow.

And I know I shouldn't complain cos teachers get so mch time off but I am beyond not looking forward work, I hate the idea of setting foot in the place, loathe it in fact.

it will be back to working all night, never being good enough, always being criticised and all the !!!!!ing and scheming that goes on.

It is going to be bloody awful.

So I doubt anyone will see me here for a while, especially not if I do work that second job, I am not sre now looking at when all the bloody meetings are.

I am going to get ready for bed and sort out my bag for tomorrow.

I know it doesn't matter its just a job but I used to love teaching and now thought of going to work sends me in to panic. there is just no time.

xxxx

mum2one

Hope it goes better tomorrow than you think, guess the first term back is strange for all. I know your struggling with the job, but your a great person and a great teacher, you remember that. Any more news on the tutoring job, at least that will put a bigger dent in the debts. Just remember u are number 1 and your boss is not worthy of haveing such a careing person as you.
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OliveOyl_2

I'd like to say chin up, it won't be as bad as you expected/1st days back are always horrid, but I've been in a job that felt so bad because of "office politics" and I recognise how energy-draining that can be.

So I'll say "chin up, as soon as you're debt free you can choose to be somewhere else. The sooner you're debt free the sooner you're free"

Look after yourself, are your pencils all sharpened, and in a nice new pencil case? And remember just because people around you are nasty - it isn't catching, you can remain a nice person.

beanielou

Hopefully it wont be as bad as you think.
Try to think positive thoughts~You can do this.

Buffythedebtslayer

thank you all for being so kind.

feel a bit more sorted now. just got loads to do. permanently.

oh well. it brings me nearer being debt free - must focus on that.

thank you againxxxxx