Slaying my debts, the second year

Buffythedebtslayer

Truthfully, my plan involved training as a legal secretary. the local college ran a course on the basics a while ago but they have never run it since. I have looked for other courses but never found any.

The OU run a law degree, obviously to be a solictor (something I wanted to be when I was at school) you need to do all sorts of things, but I figured if I could get a law qualification then it would be a good start - not neccessarily the degree, they do a diploma.

Any how I thought if I could get second degree in law and some thing else maybe history then I would be ok to move in to legal research or something.

sorry I know there are a lot of somethings! and i have screwsed it all up now any how!

I will appeal, but I have never found the ou that helpful.

thank you tho, it was lovely to come here and have your support.

I haven't told anyone else.

I was meant to do all sorts of amazing things today but my sister and her BF came round, it just puts me in such a bad F***ing mood. I hate them.

I don't mean to. honestly i don't exactly think I do hate them but I am fed up with it all.

Mum has decided no Christmas, no decs, no tree, we are going to theirs on Xmas day and its awful, no drink, you have to ask to do everything/eat(there is hardly any food - my sister is like a sparrow to my hen), you can't get comfortable and oh yes no sense of humour allowed.

Plus which everyone around me will be celebrating and I will be willing it all to be over.
I used to love Christmas it was my favourite time of year. Now I dread it.


That on top of OU I have been so sad these last few days.

Trouble is I cannot stay sad. it is a largely pointless exercise. I have to try and be positive.

1. I am learning to drive. which is brilliant. gives me loads more options.
2. I can spend my Xmas holidays finishing off the dolls house. I bought it when my Dad first got ill as a thing to do with him, he got bored you see. but we never got to do it. so I shall finish now. I haven't felt much like it lately but it looks so sad unfinished.
3. Maybe the appeal will work.
4. Next year we might get a puppy, (as a completely shallow aside that would mean Christmas at home!) which would help Mum.


Its very hard. am so grateful for this place.

xxxxx

sarahb123_3

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

Truthfully, my plan involved training as a legal secretary. the local college ran a course on the basics a while ago but they have never run it since. I have looked for other courses but never found any.

The OU run a law degree, obviously to be a solictor (something I wanted to be when I was at school) you need to do all sorts of things, but I figured if I could get a law qualification then it would be a good start - not neccessarily the degree, they do a diploma.

Any how I thought if I could get second degree in law and some thing else maybe history then I would be ok to move in to legal research or something.

sorry I know there are a lot of somethings! and i have screwsed it all up now any how!

I will appeal, but I have never found the ou that helpful.

I am sure there are other ways into a legal career other than this, I was looking at doing it a few years ago and I was thinking of being a paralegal where they give you training on the job, the only problem was it was quite a pay cut and I wasn't absolutely certain I wanted to do that particular job.

You haven't screwed anything up! You just have a lot to do at the moment with 2 jobs and debtbusting. You are expecting far too much from yourself. If you had a pupil putting that much pressure on themselves you would tell them to stop immediately and calm down.

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

Mum has decided no Christmas, no decs, no tree, we are going to theirs on Xmas day and its awful, no drink, you have to ask to do everything/eat(there is hardly any food - my sister is like a sparrow to my hen), you can't get comfortable and oh yes no sense of humour allowed.

Plus which everyone around me will be celebrating and I will be willing it all to be over.
I used to love Christmas it was my favourite time of year. Now I dread it.

Do you know why she has decided this? When I lived in a house where no one made much effort over Christmas and I was worried anything I put out might get damaged, I just decorated my room instead with a tiny plasic tree, some fairy lights and my cards, and had a Chrismas CD on in the background. Could you just do your own room instead?

Don't worry too much about going to your sister's, it's only one day, and just think, in a couple of years or so you will have your own house and you can decorate it how you want and celebrate any way you damn well please.

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

1. I am learning to drive. which is brilliant. gives me loads more options.
2. I can spend my Xmas holidays finishing off the dolls house. I bought it when my Dad first got ill as a thing to do with him, he got bored you see. but we never got to do it. so I shall finish now. I haven't felt much like it lately but it looks so sad unfinished.
3. Maybe the appeal will work.
4. Next year we might get a puppy, (as a completely shallow aside that would mean Christmas at home!) which would help Mum.

The doll's house sounds like a lovely idea and the puppy might give your mum something else to focus on instead of you! Learning to drive is a brilliant thing to do, it will give you more options and more freedom. The appeal is worth doing as well, so you can have the option of more studying if you want it, but please stop pressurising yourself in that area! It's just not worth the stress!

Hope you're feeling better xxx

*crosses fingers that triple quote works*

Buffythedebtslayer

thanks Sarahxxxxx must carry on regardless, I will have the house and the car and the no debt one day!!

xxx

P.s - triple quote! show off! xx

sarahb123_3

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

P.s - triple quote! show off! xx

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Wol2

Hello Buffy HUn :hello: :hello: :hello: :hello:

Tis I, Wol, recently (Less than 5 hours) emerged from duvet..:rotfl: :rotfl: :cool: :cool:

BUT...I have lurked..and you is doing OK Hun...stay strong...big hugs...and just watch them hammies.....oh...... the nasty sharpie teethie thingies........

Grommie guinea is watching......and will sort them out if they get out of order...you only have to give us the wink Hun.....:D

xxxx

RosaBernicia

Hi Buffy

Mainly just to give you lots of these :grouphug: .

:mad: :mad: @ OU - I really don't understand why failing a course should mean you can't study with them for 3 years. Anywhere else, it means you have to resit and you obviously can't register for any other modules that require that course til you pass it. I don't see why they would have any right to stop you signing up for other courses, you are paying them after all. I hope you get your appeal.

Re. Christmas, I've done the same as Sarah and decorated my own room when nobody else in the house was bothered. And re. family ... don't think anybody's yet found a solution for that one! The only thing that did occur to me was whether you might like to volunteer somewhere on Christmas Day instead. It might spare you the family do if they feel they can't object because you're being virtuous, and you'd meet new people and perhaps be in a more positive atmosphere.

Hope you're feeling a bit brighter, you know we are here to listen.

Rosa xx

Buffythedebtslayer

You are all so lovely. I feel so lucky to have this place. It is my favourite place on the internet.

I have done lots of life stuff today but no work stuff. I should go do it now.

I really do not want to. I am going to the doctors tomorrow. skin and feeling miserable. will see what she says.

I am hungry. Mum and I have watched SEVEN hours of heroes this weekend. I love that programme!!

off to eat tea xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

I didn't do any work stuff. I am such a fool. I am working two 12 hour days this week and have so much marking - I have touched a book for about two weeks. I could cry.

I just hate and resent my job so much that I can't bring myself to work at home and there isnt any where to work at work. someone always comes along for a chat or more likely to ask you to do something. you get no peace during the day.

I must work at home this week I MUST. but it feels so impossible. I am always exhausted and close to tears when I come home. permament anxious feeling. I love the weekend cos there are no alarms no real have toos. but I have a six hour driving lesson next weekend so no time then either. I am already worrying and its only Sunday night.

I just feel as though I can't breathe.

I am going to go to bed. but I am going to plan first. when to mark what.


night all xx

SamanthaA

First, BREATHE!
Yes it seems too much & you HATE work, but as horrible as the environment is, you became a teacher for the kids.

Focus on them.
They deserve a great teacher - which I am sure you are, who knows and tries to do the best they can for them.
You need to do the marking & class prep for them.

Make a decision as to which is the most important making and do it, then do the class prep for them. Then the next, an off it goes!
Pretend its a debt list & your snowballing it down.

And deff see the doctor, you sound soooo down!
See if you can get some ASSERTIVENESS training - learning to say NO in a positive way, so you can say & mean, `NO sorry cant do that, I am marking my class books`

lunar

A 6 hour driving lesson, no wonder you are stressed. have you got your test coming up?

you need to find some time for yourself, can you take your work to a cafe where nobody knows you, that way you cant be disturbed and you can realx when you actually are at home.

you sound like you have too much on and need to give your self a break.