Depression Support Thread

shazrobo

hi beachbeth, (((HUGS))) and welcome to the thread, i know how you feel, our little guinea pig died few months ago, and i got really upset too.

think reasopn i dreading counselling so much is i'm still trying to get over the abuse i had from my ex, he's the one in my nightmares, he's the one thats just emailed me to tell me how nasty i am, how nobody will ever love me as he did, i hate him, he twists everything i say, he sometimes reads what i put on here, and makes fun, telling me i the one thats not write in the head, and he's perfectly normal.

crying again, why is it so hard someddays?

absolutebounder

shazrobo wrote: »

hi beachbeth, (((HUGS))) and welcome to the thread, i know how you feel, our little guinea pig died few months ago, and i got really upset too.

think reasopn i dreading counselling so much is i'm still trying to get over the abuse i had from my ex, he's the one in my nightmares, he's the one thats just emailed me to tell me how nasty i am, how nobody will ever love me as he did, i hate him, he twists everything i say, he sometimes reads what i put on here, and makes fun, telling me i the one thats not write in the head, and he's perfectly normal.

crying again, why is it so hard someddays?

Shaz there is no reason to worry about counselling because of your ex well not unless he is the counsellor.
I realise he probably has access to the kids but just keep it at that. He is jealous and probably feeling inadequate so he picks on someone he sees as weaker than him. Show him strength. What does it matter how nasty he thinks you are. He is nothing to you. Email him back and say that if you are that nasty he should be glad to be away from you so he neednt email again.
When people resort to these tactics they show their weaknesses. Learn to exploit them. I have somewhere some more files (audio) on power and how to create it. Would you like them if I can find them (big files again though)

shazrobo

absolutebounder wrote: »

Shaz there is no reason to worry about counselling because of your ex well not unless he is the counsellor.
I realise he probably has access to the kids but just keep it at that. He is jealous and probably feeling inadequate so he picks on someone he sees as weaker than him. Show him strength. What does it matter how nasty he thinks you are. He is nothing to you. Email him back and say that if you are that nasty he should be glad to be away from you so he neednt email again.
When people resort to these tactics they show their weaknesses. Learn to exploit them. I have somewhere some more files (audio) on power and how to create it. Would you like them if I can find them (big files again though)

he dosen't see the kids, he is not there father, just ex bf. My ex husband, who is the kids biological dad, dosent have contact with them either, he was physically abusive, that was easier somehow to get over. been told how crap you are etc, well thats easy to believe especially if you feeling bad about yourself anyway.
yes i would like the audio files, willing to try anything that helps
thanks
shaz x

absolutebounder

shazrobo wrote: »

he dosen't see the kids, he is not there father, just ex bf. My ex husband, who is the kids biological dad, dosent have contact with them either, he was physically abusive, that was easier somehow to get over. been told how crap you are etc, well thats easy to believe especially if you feeling bad about yourself anyway.
yes i would like the audio files, willing to try anything that helps
thanks
shaz x

Sorry thought he was the dad. in that case he has no need to email you. Block his emails as he is the one with the problem. His ego is obviously insulted so let him stew. Any weakness with these sort of people is attacked so you are better off ignoring him. It doesnt matter if he reads this thread either his intereset in you shows how immature he is
I will try and find the files If I can I will send them via Messenger if not I can give you plenty of tips anyway.

shazza40

hi all

things seem a bit better this week. im back in my old department in work anotha new job. doc referring me to counsellor, he wanted to change medicatation to one that has even more bad side effects.

i think im on an up just need to adjust my spending habit am badly overdrawn in bank and will be hard to replace funds.

hugs to all

shazza

budget_budd

I REALLY DO HATE MYSELF and Im damn sure that everyone else feels the same. I noticed that someone (sorry can't find now to quote) said I was wrong to try (apologies if I've read it wrong) but I don't understand.

WHY am I the only one to feel like this. Worst of all the anxiety which was going is creeping back

I AM SO STUPID

shazrobo

budget_budd wrote: »

I REALLY DO HATE MYSELF and Im damn sure that everyone else feels the same. I noticed that someone (sorry can't find now to quote) said I was wrong to try (apologies if I've read it wrong) but I don't understand.

WHY am I the only one to feel like this. Worst of all the anxiety which was going is creeping back

I AM SO STUPID

hi budget, (((hugs))) nobody here hates you, and your not stupid, its this illness that makes us feel this way. your not the only one to feel like this, i know most of us here have felt the same at some point or another,
you said the anxiety which was going is now starting to creep back, what did you do to make the anxiety go away in the first place?
remember with anxiety and depression, its two steps forwards and one step back, thats how it is feeling to me right now.
hugs
shaz x

Horasio

I posted a month ago updating my situation but got no response, no hi or welcome back. I feel out in the cold on this thread and I'm not sure why I am even posting here again tbh:(

We have moved now and feeling very stressed by it. The owner is a young boy who has no idea, he has no manners or regard for his olders. The previous tenants were the tenants from hell and we are obviously not. I feel we are not being treated like the professionals we are. He is very penny pinching and never come across the attitudes I am getting just now. I have only moved from Hampshire to Dorset but it is worse than moving from Scotland (it was to be expected going from there after 15 years).

I have a cold which is making me feel strange. I feel so tense just now and feel every idiot is out to give us a hard time. I haven't felt this tense since I lived in Oxford and come across the arrogent people there. I feel I have emigrated to an Antipodean country, rather than being in the UK. I went to Australia a few years back and hated it and getting the same feeling here as I got there:(

What is it about late September and Mid March that makes people a/holes?

shazrobo

hi ccstar, and welcome back, sorry nobody replied to you last time, can't remember what i was doing but i do try and post eplies especially if i see that nobody else has, but sometimes things get on top of us and we miss people out so my apologies.
firstly well done on finding somewhere to live, secondly sorry the landlord is treating you with the respect you deserve.
hope the cold gets better soon
hugs
shaz xxx

shazza40

hi cc star

you will feel strange in a new place. hey it took me 30 years to be excepted here in Wales. Even now i get comments about going back to england.

take time to adjust and the cold wont help

hugs

shaza