I don't like my mother!

muckybutt wrote: »

Wow sommer ! I havent read the whole thread but I know exactly where you are coming from and I feel for you.

Two years or so ago I also cut all contact with my unpleasant mum, she too has mental health problems being a diagnosed manic depressive schizophrenic with multiple personality disorder as well just for good measure.

I have basically looked after her for most of my childhood and adult life, my father left when I was about 6 (i am now 41) and I stayed with her my brother going with my dad. Anyhow she was up n down all over the place back then being admitted back to hospital then and me being shoved off to live with my aunt.

She got really bad about 17 yearsago when my aunt passed away, she attempted to kill my sister who I have to say is also an evil !!!!! and screw the balls off the doctor, this happened the day after the funeral, I kinda saw it coming so spent the night at my fiance's house only to come home to what can only be described as a complete mess as she had also partially trashed the house as well.

Any how she was sectioned then and spent the best part of 6 months in a secure mental unit, it was there she was eventually diagnosed with everything.

Since then our relationship has also gone up and down mainly because I think she is gealous about my life - my marriage etc, she has been poisonous towards me - my wife and my new family.

She blew her top again last when my father was taken badly, so much so that it was touch and go if he was going to live, he did thank goodness, we shot down there to help out the best we could sorting out his pensions and council tax and a load more other stuff. She didnt like that one bit!

That was the straw that broke the camels back, she rang my mother in law up who at the time was looking aftermy then very poorly father in law, she basically then started to bad mouth me and my wife, the way we were irrisponsible parents and we were not fit to have a child !!!!!! that was about we have no idea, how we ignored her etc etc etc I could go on but it would make me angry if I did to be honest and well today is christmas day .

Anyhow suffice to say after that outburst I basically said up yours, this was the second time I had done this, the first time she nearly drove me to suicide - I wasnt going there again ! so said to her not to contact me in any way shape or form. She ignored that and carried on phoning etc so I barred her number, we kept getting cards letters etc all of which went on the fire.

This is actually the first time she hasnt sent a card so hopefully she's got the message she is no longer part of my life....either that or shes dead ! either way I dont give a f**k and i'm glad shes f***ed off.

Most folks look at you gone out when you say stuff like this but unless you have been through the s!!t we have no one understands.

I sometimes think about her but that just stirrs up hatred and disgust in me, I honestly wish she was dead that would be the end of it for me, a chapter of my life that thanks to her has been ruined and I shall never get back. Happy memories not one really.

I hope my little lad never has to go through anything like what ive been through.

muckybutt wrote: »

Unfortunately theres never a good time for anything like a breakup, you most certainly are not alone - never think like that, there will always be someone worse off trust me.

Having only ever had one break up from my first girlfriend I can kind of see where you are and what you are feeling, and feel for you especially today when so much emphasis is placed on family.

You have your dogs, they need you just as much and their love is endless and always will be. As one chapter ends though another will start - new year new beginnings and all that, it will take time for the mental scars to heal but you'll get there that i'm sure of.

Chin up petal