Milann's life keeps getting in the way.......

Hospital visit was lovely - I was discharged as scan showed bleed has dissipated and there are no new mini bleeds:j:j The slight tremor I still get sometIimes and my leg getting tired will just take time to recover. He recommended keeping active by swimming and supple doing yoga and Pilates.

I then met a lovely lady from on here and had a cuppa and chat - 1st time we'd met but I feel I've known her ages:D - before heading to see my brother to make use of my tram ticket. Oh I stopped off in big town for a quick nosey I didn't buy anything except a bite bite of lunch. I found the big M&S have a rotisserie chicken stand where you can buy a 1/4 chicken and various sides - I had Mediterranean roast veg pulled chicken breast - it was absolutely gorgeous. A fiver but on plan and tasty so a bonus - I expected having to get a sandwich and blowing my SW plan.

Put the world to rights with my sister in law...I had tea there - she is doing SW and just lost 2 stone so tea was on plan too :j:j so I've only just got home.

I probably should have headed back to work but by the time I'd have got there there wouldn't have been much of the school day left and they told me not to worry about going back in - I didn't need telling twice.

I did a lot of thinking on the tram - I needed the headspace I think. I just feel as if my dreams have been grabbed from under my feet with the events of the last week. In a funny sort of way it's made me all the more determined to stick with SW - no one can take my dream of getting back to where I want to be - that's in my hands....

ONWARDS AND UPWARDS

You are so right SA - I need to focus on what I can control and channel my anger and frustration into something positives :cool: because I'm fluctuating from anger to upset and a variety of emotions in between"...

Hope the babysitting went well SA - she is a real cutie...

Been thinking today - I'm undecided whether or not to put my cc balance on a 0% - I admit to going a little mad with expensive present for dh which was ready earlier than I'd been told, plus I've generally spent without much thought as I had been expecting the inheritance and I'd have just paid it off. But since said inheritance doesn't look to be happening anytime soon....my balance is now 1,800 I could pay it in about 3 months...last month I had 25 interest. I know I'd incurr a fee but it would be cheaper than the interest BUT I swore I wouldn't go down that road again......decisions decision......ooohhhh I hope I never meet the financial advisor that has turned our lives upside down:mad::mad::mad::mad: if the cash ever shows up I can pay it straight off.

A bit of a rubbish mopey day here with 2 much time on my hands.....I've just typed a long post but it was very glum so I've deleted it and will write some positives instead

Today I'm greatful for
- a family and friends that care for me even after I've been a grumpy and snappy Milann
- Technology to allow me to see my gks as I chat to them
- still having a roof over my head and food in my cupboards -even though it's looking as if we've been cheated out of a fair bit of cash.
- beginning to tell myself what I've never had I'll never miss..........


Just need to keep reminding myself of the above :D

After a bit of family discussion yesterday - we've decided to go to dds for my birthday weekend. It'll mean travelling my birthday evening but will be worth it to get next day birthday cuddles