Redsquirrel's 'Striving For Better Days' Diary

redsquirrel80

Everything found down the couch helps

:rotfl: Bob! There's never any money down my couch! :rolleyes:

Just plodding away here - have abandoned the pound a day thing as I realised I had a bit more than I thought, although still need to be careful - get paid next Friday too, yay!

Today I have been debating what to do about NYE - supposed to be staying with friends and going out with them but they want to go to a club which costs £30 to get in.. then there's taxis and drinks on top :eek: I really don't think I can afford to do it but don't know how to tell them, thinking about saying I will spend the day before with them instead but I don't know whether to tell them it's because of the cost as I don't want them to either offer to lend me the money, or to say they won't do it because I can't afford to - don't want them to miss out. Hmmmm.

On the OH situation, I've been avoiding him a bit, but when we do speak he keeps saying how much he wants to see me (and I'm thinking "no, you really don't...").. some other things have happened that have complicated it all somewhat, but also made me realise that my attitude to him has changed so much and that what we have really isn't what I want.. don't want to say too much at the moment though as I have a lot of thinking to do!

boredofbeingathome

redsquirrel80 wrote: »

:rotfl: Bob! There's never any money down my couch! :rolleyes:
6p in total..it all builds p, our other couch was better as it sloped more, visitors would lose punds when they came here:rotfl:
Just plodding away here - have abandoned the pound a day thing as I realised I had a bit more than I thought, although still need to be careful - get paid next Friday too, yay!
I am being cery careful at the moment as i won't get any extra now until Jan:eek: It is surprising how an odd afternoon or mornings work builds up
Today I have been debating what to do about NYE - supposed to be staying with friends and going out with them but they want to go to a club which costs £30 to get in.. then there's taxis and drinks on top :eek: I really don't think I can afford to do it but don't know how to tell them, thinking about saying I will spend the day before with them instead but I don't know whether to tell them it's because of the cost as I don't want them to either offer to lend me the money, or to say they won't do it because I can't afford to - don't want them to miss out. Hmmmm.Is there any way they wold consider going elsewhere?Or having a party at one of theirs

On the OH situation, I've been avoiding him a bit, but when we do speak he keeps saying how much he wants to see me (and I'm thinking "no, you really don't...").. some other things have happened that have complicated it all somewhat, but also made me realise that my attitude to him has changed so much and that what we have really isn't what I want.. don't want to say too much at the moment though as I have a lot of thinking to do!

Well think, but i reckon in a way you have made your mind up...if he is giving you so much grief and so on, then why not have a break over Christmas? If you can get through without bothering about him and his complicated life, then you may well have sorted out things in your head.

pepe2008

Hi Squizz, thought about you the other day when a neice played me her ring tone of a chipmunk being tickled......it was hilarious and you just could not help laughing especially when the poor thing is going 'no, no not there!!!'

Dont get stuck in a relationship where you are always trying to please the other, and not really knowing what they want.
I spend most of my life doing that, and waiting for the wheels to fall off anyway............I need courage or a good excuse to stop it

redsquirrel80

boredofbeingathome wrote: »

Well think, but i reckon in a way you have made your mind up...if he is giving you so much grief and so on, then why not have a break over Christmas? If you can get through without bothering about him and his complicated life, then you may well have sorted out things in your head.

I keep thinking I've made my mind up - but then I get these doubts thinking about how good it can be, at times... I suppose though if there were no good times I'd have finished it ages ago!

Is there any way they wold consider going elsewhere?Or having a party at one of theirs

Maybe - I kind of agreed to doing what they want to, and then I found out how much it was! :eek: They can afford to do it no problem so I feel a bit bad about saying I can't and spoiling their evening Damn debt and cr*ppy wages...

redsquirrel80

pepe2008 wrote: »

Hi Squizz, thought about you the other day when a neice played me her ring tone of a chipmunk being tickled......it was hilarious and you just could not help laughing especially when the poor thing is going 'no, no not there!!!'

Dont get stuck in a relationship where you are always trying to please the other, and not really knowing what they want.
I spend most of my life doing that, and waiting for the wheels to fall off anyway............I need courage or a good excuse to stop it

Are you saying I sound like a chipmunk?! :rotfl:

I know you're right - it's just so bloody hard! :rolleyes:

boredofbeingathome

redsquirrel80 wrote: »

I keep thinking I've made my mind up - but then I get these doubts thinking about how good it can be, at times... I suppose though if there were no good times I'd have finished it ages ago!



Maybe - I kind of agreed to doing what they want to, and then I found out how much it was! :eek: They can afford to do it no problem so I feel a bit bad about saying I can't and spoiling their evening Damn debt and cr*ppy wages...

I know what you mean about good times, then the rubbish inbetween..it is an akward situation, but then again if you had to give this advice to a friend and she wanted your honest opinion what would you say?
I was like this with an ex of mine but i knew it wouldn't work out..in the end it was hard and funnily enough it was this time of year:o but i jnew it was the right thing.With Mr.B we had so much in common it was scarey, we used to enjoy just spending time together..until the snoring and the debts got in the way:rotfl: ..but the essentials are there..he would never not support me, and vice versa..we have been through so much with our youngest daughter and those kind of pressures make a little debt look like pants..so i keep going on and having a vent on here..it really does help me keep things in perspective:cool:
You will get there hun, and find the relationship which will give you the love and respect you deserve..Life is a long time and not to live it to the full would be cheating yourself:cool:

boredofbeingathome

pepe2008 wrote: »

Hi Squizz, thought about you the other day when a neice played me her ring tone of a chipmunk being tickled......it was hilarious and you just could not help laughing especially when the poor thing is going 'no, no not there!!!'

Dont get stuck in a relationship where you are always trying to please the other, and not really knowing what they want.
I spend most of my life doing that, and waiting for the wheels to fall off anyway............I need courage or a good excuse to stop it

Courage mon brave:D You remind me of Chorlton and the Wheelies, trying to please the little old lady:rotfl:

pepe2008

redsquirrel80 wrote: »

Are you saying I sound like a chipmunk?! :rotfl:
Never tickled you, so how would I know:D ?
Can a !!!!!! film be put on fast play with the sound?:rotfl: :rotfl: Sorry, wanderig mind!

I know you're right - it's just so bloody hard! :rolleyes:

and when you begin to get your head sorted to do something about it....they become the ideal partner again......but you KNOW its not going to last...!!!!!!!

boredofbeingathome

redsquirrel80 wrote: »

Are you saying I sound like a chipmunk?! :rotfl:

I know you're right - it's just so bloody hard! :rolleyes:

You changed your post..what was that about !!!!!!?:rotfl: Makes you wonder what young squizz gets upto:rotfl: :cool:

pepe2008

boredofbeingathome wrote: »

Courage mon brave:D You remind me of Chorlton and the Wheelies, trying to please the little old lady:rotfl:

Having lunch on Sunday with 'someone else'........sod it, why not! We've been talking evryday for months at the Cafe in London where she works, but she is going to move to Greece next week..!!!!!! X2:mad: