Depression Support Thread

alba37

Awww, take care Anni, have a good rest (((hugs)))

x x x

top_drawer_2

Afternoon all,

Well its been one of those days ... Friday 13th eh.

I just feel all mixed up so hoping getting it on to paper so to speak might help...

There was a bit of a breakthrough with my flatmate last night and he suggested we get a cleaner as he isnt willing to keep to a rota. He suggested we ring companies this morning but I had counselling this morning so left before he got up ... when I got back he'd left me a note saying he'd sorted someone to come on monday night, fortnightly for around £25. I felt a bit peeved with him cos I would have liked to have been in on organising it too and would have liked something weekly as thats how often the bathroom needs doing I think (men have different standards I think and he is very stuck on his opinions.)

This counselling session was the last and I am pretty gutted as she is the only counsellor I have seen via the uni which I clicked with ... she is on a fixed term contract which finishes today and they havent asked her to do more so its seems im unlikely to get to see her again. I asked for my letter for my EC's evidence and they said they would do it sometime this afternoon - come back at 3ish. My ankle is still hurting so went round to the Dr's and they put a tubey grip thing on (how embarrassing!! - today I noticed that the receptionists dont bother asking my name or DOB as they know it by heart, thats how often I am there).

Then I had a job interview which seemed to go ok. I'm not sure I want the t the job though as its long shifts, some 6am starts and she seems to want as many hours as she could get as well as it being very basic miniuum wage. I have no idea how it will affect my HB because the claim hasnt been processed yet as they havent got all my docs (LL still hasnt given me a contract) and I dont know whether I can cope with all the hours. I dont know whether I can afford it long term as my rents £75 a week so thats a min of 15 hours work a week before I have anything for food etc.

Then I went into town and found that i have somehow reached the max again on my Overdraft and wont get my next JSA until god knows when ...

The I came home and realised that I had locked myself out of the house ... rang the LL who wanted me to walk over to his house (miles away) to collect the keys but by then it was 3ish and so had to rush over to the uni to collect my letter as the psychology dept want it pronto, so I gave him some garbled excuse about why I couldnt go over now. My phone battery then went dead and so I could only collect/receive texts as it uses less battery. He eventually got one saying something along the lines of he's going in town but will take my keys with him and to ring him when im near the town again.
He didnt reply for ages when I texted him so I thought maybe he's at the house (he lets himself in as and when) and walked down to the house and waited on the door step and he eventually turned up with the key .... and just after he left the guy from the job interview rang to offer me the job ....

I just feel so tired.

Jen

top_drawer_2

why's no-one posting?


Jen

septemberblues

top_drawer wrote: »

why's no-one posting?


Jen

probably watching BB! Peeps might come on here now its finished

top_drawer_2

I'm watching a touch of frost.

U?

alba37

Hi Jen & SB, I'm here!

What a nightmare of a day you had Jen, but congratulations in getting offered the job! Well done!

Have either of you been watching BB? I saw bits of it, but I am really tired so wasn't really concentrating. Just waiting on the washing machine to finish then I'm off to bed. How are you both tonight?

septemberblues

alba37 wrote: »

Hi Jen & SB, I'm here!

What a nightmare of a day you had Jen, but congratulations in getting offered the job! Well done!

Have either of you been watching BB? I saw bits of it, but I am really tired so wasn't really concentrating. Just waiting on the washing machine to finish then I'm off to bed. How are you both tonight?

I was watching BB, but my telly has got the most annoying whistle, and tonight it was really loud so I've had to turn it off. I can't afford a new telly, the washing machine is knackered! :mad:

top_drawer_2

I dont think I want it tbh. The women seemed to be pushing me to do more hours than I would really want to do - not sure I can cope with F/T work. I also dont know how I will cope for money as I am applying for HB, I dont know whether I will still get some help for my rent.

I just feel anxious at the moment - I dont know whehter to just not ring them and say nothing and let it go by.

Jen

top_drawer_2

oh no...

Have you tried freecycle in your area?

Ive got some really good stuff off there.

Jen

septemberblues

alba37 wrote: »

Hay SB, how are you doing today? Thankfully I've never had voices as such, my head is more full of muffles, hazy, it feels like constant fighting in my head. I do have someone close who has voices and I know how awful it is for her. She's tried different meds, but none have helped enough to make a big difference. It really must be terrible.
!

Can you explain a bit more what you mean about the noises in your head, do you mean like tinnitus? Does it get worse when you get stressed? It doesnt sound pleasant anyway.