Depression Support Thread

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Sorry to hear that you've had a hard morning Lady Morticia. Hope your stomach feels better soon. Its good that your doctor was very nice and was helpful after you gave her your letter. Well done you

Horace

Hello people

I still cant see so please excuse any typos that may appear in this posting (I can touch type which helps but sometimes I do make mistrakes LOL). I am totally fed up of having blurred vision because I cannot see to read, watch telly, send emails, look for work, drive or do anything useful. I had my op last week as you know but I had an appointment at the eye hospital today and have found out why I am sufferintg from the Berr Goggle effect when I havent had any beer - it would appear that the compression sututes are pulling on my cornea thus making my vision blurred:mad: I was told today that I have to have further surgery on 3 April so that they can remove said dutures and do something else - I think they said they would put some stitches in my tragulectomy flap to close it a bit.

I was feeling a bit up oday and now I feel as flat as a pancake. I hate not being able to see and the thought of a life with blurred vision doesnt bear thinking about, it has to get better than this if not then I shall buy myself a coffin and screw the lid down fromt he inside (much nicer than leaving my remains for somene else to find). I should jest but if I dont make a joke of it then I'll cry and I dont want to do that because it hurts:eek:

Sorry for wallwoing in self pity because there are plenty more out there who are in a worse position than I.

Thanks for listening
Horace x

Horasio

I feel so tired today, couldn't sleep properly - everything is magnified, OH forgot to put the bin out:(

I feel everyone is fighting against me and I can't cope with it. I feel invisible, like a nobody and I feel really angry about it. My life is dominated by males being halfwits and feel I have to wipe everyone's @ss's and have no energy left for me. Why can't anyone do their job properly these days? I have moved house several times and never had this level of !!!! from incompetents.

I am worried about how we are all going to live here for 2 weeks getting under each other's feet - when our son lived at home, my OH didn't support me and had a go at me instead of him. He has stopped doing that now and is sick of our son's stupidity as well.

We are fine till the world annoys us - sometimes I want to run away to get my identity back and not be dominated by idiots. We are moving to a bigger place, and son has his own living quarters. Hopefully, he will grow up and get back on track, and get his own place when we have to leave the place.

Feel so overwhelmed by boxes. I am having to whittle down boxes to fit on the lorry, otherwise I have to pay more for storage and part load delivery later. It is still cheaper than the other quotes even if I do that.

One good thing - I won some tickets to the Ideal Home exhibition on this site:)

ilovegreatdanes

just wrote a long post and aol disconnected.......since they changed to dialbb they have been a complete PITA and feel like bfm:mad: ...i hate it when things dont do what you pay them good money to do.
completed ruined my mood now.....so im going to regroup and catch you later.
take care all.
AOL....YOURE **** AND YOU KNOW YOU ARE.....i feel better for that:D
love ilgd xx

ilovegreatdanes

tulip....they have a free sample of infaderm bath stuff on the freebies section.https://www.infaderm.co.uk/csp/qsh/infaderm/index.csp and clink on where to buy and it brings the form up.im not good on links so if it doesnt come up, search the freebies board.
have you tried baby oil in the bath and put some on damp skin??bath gets slippey though!!!

Horasio

earth wrote: »

it makes me wonder how many of us mums are in the same boat. i find it difficult to make friends at the best of times (self esteem problems too- what a joy!) and feel that I cant approach other mums and start a conversation especially when there is a group of people together. My biggest worry is that my depression will have an effect on my children. Hugs xx

I found it very difficult when my son was young.

I made 'friends' when I was pregnant and whilst they were at home, then all the people I liked went back to work and hardly saw them. I also went back to work to get some interesting company and the money was nice too.

My hormones kicked in after one year and it really screwed me up. I found it more and more difficult to combine working and being a parent, so gave up work.

I tried to seek help from the health visitor and doctor but worried in case they thought I was an unfit parent. I did have help from my parents but that can be a good and a bad thing.

I tried to join in with the parents but felt isolated, they were cliquey and judgmental - it reminded me of school again. I eventually learned to enjoy my own company at home and went to the shops when my son was at playgroup. He used to play up when I went shopping, so kept it for my time. It was the same when my son started school and my OH was working in Edinburgh, so felt pretty lonely.

We relocated to Edinburgh and grew to like my own company again, rather than look for mates. My son is an adult now and I don't have to face cliquey parents anymore.

I have made and lost mates over the years, they are hard work when I feel tired and depressed. It feels like I have to do all the work, and when working on half capacity, I wondered why I kept putting myself thro it.

juno

Ugh, I'm having a day off work sick. Tis my first ever! I work up at about 4am with the worst sore throat ever, and nothing made it any better. Since then, it's slowly developed into a bad cold. I can't afford to be ill though, as I'm losing all my lovely overtime

ilovegreatdanes

ladym....i think the letter is a really good idea.my gp has so many patients ,if you get 5 mins you are lucky.hes usually writing the prescription before you walk in and most of time i tell him what meds i want and its like self diagnosis.the wind is really bad here as well,blew our front fence down last nite, into car so dh was really pleased:( not!!rather have wind than rain but i suppose both are as bad for damage.
katie.....hope you are abit better and the creams kicked in.i have very greasy skin so im opposite to you.my friend used to reccommend putting baby oil in bath then putting some on damp skin when you get out.be careful though cos makes bath slippey!!!
hi to bmf......its awful when net or comp is playing up.like you have lost loads of mates and feel really out of it.......and tell me about the weight:eek: ..been there,tried all the whacky diets,got the slimming pants:eek: ....ppl dont realise that you have to eat to live.you just cant give up eating and not comsume food full stop.when you stop smoking, you just chuck the cigs away.you cant just throw all your food away.makes it worse when you see all the size zeros in mags and tv.....they have money and time and chefs and rehab clinics.and:mad: when i get fed up i eat, when im happy i eat,my whole world is food connected.when i was small, we were rewarded with food treats .WILLPOWER,they all shout:eek: but the more i deprive myself ,the more i try to justify that i need all the junk....and how come junk food tastes loads better than healthy stuff.
ttfn
ilgd xx

rose07

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Oh my gosh, yes. The memories.lol. They don't make kids TV like they used to.

that they dont...and bring back POB !!!!:p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu0n6oDTxi0

how r u tonight ?

xx

rose07

katie1 wrote: »

Hello all ,
I'm new to this thread so please bear with me just wanted to ask if in your areas do you have the "crisis team " My husband (who im split from , but still friends) has been suffering with depression a number of years. Over the past 12 months he has took over doses and cut himself. These "crisis team" are rubbish does anyone else this so ?

He went into hospital last thursday eve to avoid taking o/d then seen crisis team at our local hospital who told him to go home and they would visit him with dr to change medication cos they think he is on wrong one they have visited him to chat but he is STILL waiting to see dr how mad is that ?

Hi katie and welcome to te thread, hope ya can know that here is a place of support for you

i have seen the crisis team when i lived in newcastle, they were kinda helpful but not really, they couldnt do alot for me, coz of time, tho i got 3 of them visit me every night, to check up on me, and to try and relax me.

has that doctor been by now? i hope he has!!, is your husband, receiving any other support atm? as it sounds like he could really do with support in place

hope your ok today
xx