Depression Support Thread

rose07

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

quik hi and hugs,
wvw.....you made me cry. am so proud of you.xx

rose....sounds a lovely place where you take your dogs.char is fine, has been trying to pinch all the stuff i threw for the birds 2day,is such a glutton!!!doesnt want it really, just for spite.b/birds get their own back, nicking his food cos i feed him outside so as soon as he tootles up the garden, they dive in!!!!

must go, ttfn
love ilgd xx

heylo how r u?

yeah its a lovely place i bring holly, she sure has fun soakin me with all the water its my place of tranquility, to stop, no cars, no people, no noise, just peace

lol @ charlie, he sounds like a right cheeky thing, holly does that too, tey are very mischievious things

what does ttfn mean?

xxx

rose07

dawnylou wrote: »

Just sending my love to you all.

I am sorry that I have not been able to be supportive at all at the moment and I am also sorry to have burdened you all the way I have lately.
I probably won't be around too much at the moment either as I am feeling pretty low right now and I have less than a week to sort myself out before I return to work!
My Fiance's, sister's boyfriend (phew) has kindly bought me a self help book and I will be spending most of my time reading that and doing the exercises in it in the hope that it will be of some use to me. Seeing as the Counsellor failed and the medication almost appears to be a placebo this could be my last hope.

Just because I will not be around very much doesn't mean I don't care for you all, I sincerely do., but as things are worsening again I feel it is time for me to concentrate as much as possible on my recovery right now.

All my love
Dawnylou
x

hi dawny

hun, you have nothin to be sorry about, we are all here for each other, so do not worry
also well done for realising what you need to try and help in your recovery, can take alot, to just know what we need.
we all care about you an awful lot, and we will just be here when you need us

xxx

LadyMorticia

rose07 wrote: »

that they dont...and bring back POB !!!!:p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu0n6oDTxi0

how r u tonight ?

xx

So many memories.

I'm not too good but I'm surviving. I have a very long email from my old project worker to reply to. Very long email. I might try and reply to it in stages. It might be easier that way.lol.

How are you today?

xx

rose07

shazrobo wrote: »

morning all, hope everyone is ok this morn. feeling sooo tired lately even after getting a good few hours sleep.
went to cinema last night to see a film called, the game plan, was a family film, and we all enjoyed it.
been to woodwork at my day centre this morn, no more for two weeks, as its half term, same goes for my guitar lesson which i had yesterday.
big hugs all
shaz xxx

hello hun

how r u tonight?

hope you are getting some rest atm hun

glad the cinema was good, we have decided to go see the bucket list i think , meant to be good i think, storyline is a bit depressin lol. but we will see. so me and H going to see that, then drinks friday night.

glad guitair lesson went well hun
hope your ok tonight
xxx

rose07

LadyMorticia wrote: »

So many memories.

I'm not too good but I'm surviving. I have a very long email from my old project worker to reply to. Very long email. I might try and reply to it in stages. It might be easier that way.lol.

How are you today?

xx

guess im not too great myself atm, had an awful day with my boss constantly at my back, and havin a go. but i guess if she is havin a go at me, it means she isnt havin a go at anyone else.

was nearly in tears as she shouted and teared into me, i stood my ground but god she is just soo horrible. brings new meaning to the word b*tch

we have also as a team been doing cyclin on an exercise bike to raise money for charity, i did 4 miles, soo whahey, thats my good deed for today

and the great news is from saturday i ave 2 weeks off, paid , bad news is, !!!!!! to do with them, i know i gotta get away from here before i crack

hope you are ok
and yes take that long email in stages, bit by bit hun, or it will all seem like too much at once
xx

rose07

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I want it to rain so I can go and just sit out in it and get soaking wet. I'm not sure why. I just want to feel free and exhilarated.

lol you woulda loved it here before it was raining and hailing and blowing soo hard

i used to love dancing in the rain, when i was at college one day, it was absolutely pouring outside, so me and my friend went outside and danced in the rain, as all the people from the art block looked at us , classic lol

Diamond78

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I had a doctors appointment today and started crying in the waiting room. I'm not sure why. My doctor called me and could see something was wrong so we just chatted. I wrote her a letter with everything about how I feel in it but I was apprehensive about giving it to her because my old foster carer said I shouldn't write letters to people. My doctor seemed shocked and was like "Why not?". Anywho, she was really nice and is going to phone up the ED clinic with me next week to book an appointment. She's going to try and get me an appointment with a consultant at the hospital too as she thinks I'm getting really bad.

And to top it all off I almost got blown into the road earlier and I had this horrible stomachache. Every time I breathed in it radiated to my back and I was terrified I was going to throw up. Throwing up is a massive phobia of mine.
Then I almost fainted so I had to eat. Now I feel really really guilty.

I'm going to go and cry *and hope my friend replies to my email soon*

xx

hello hun, how are you feeling?Hope a little bit better. In some cases its natural to feel nervous and sad when having to see the doctor and tell them how you feel. I have many times written to my doc but then thrown the letter away.I am under enormous stress and pressure and feel so zombiefied by everything.Ive been missing my doses of my antidepressant so feel even worse. But be proud of yourself that you have taken the step and been brave. Hopefully your appoinment will come through quick with the ED.Your pain and being sic is down to not eating well and probaly combined with a panic attack, I know this as has happened to me before.I cant sleep im up late tonight, had such a long and stresful day.Hugs x

Diamond78

CCStar wrote: »

I feel so tired today, couldn't sleep properly - everything is magnified, OH forgot to put the bin out:(

I feel everyone is fighting against me and I can't cope with it. I feel invisible, like a nobody and I feel really angry about it. My life is dominated by males being halfwits and feel I have to wipe everyone's @ss's and have no energy left for me. Why can't anyone do their job properly these days? I have moved house several times and never had this level of !!!! from incompetents.

I am worried about how we are all going to live here for 2 weeks getting under each other's feet - when our son lived at home, my OH didn't support me and had a go at me instead of him. He has stopped doing that now and is sick of our son's stupidity as well.

We are fine till the world annoys us - sometimes I want to run away to get my identity back and not be dominated by idiots. We are moving to a bigger place, and son has his own living quarters. Hopefully, he will grow up and get back on track, and get his own place when we have to leave the place.

Feel so overwhelmed by boxes. I am having to whittle down boxes to fit on the lorry, otherwise I have to pay more for storage and part load delivery later. It is still cheaper than the other quotes even if I do that.

One good thing - I won some tickets to the Ideal Home exhibition on this site:)

hey hun, im sorry to hear that stuff your going through.I so understand as lately Im feeling pretty rubbish. My housing is still going downhill. Its so complicated.My life should be getting better as the years pass but everyday seems to get tougher.I feel everyone is against me. Im trying so hard to make life is as simple as possible but Im faced with so many dificulties.The council have told me I will not be helped as the property I live in is fine.They state that one room cannot be used as it has no natural light so it makes the flat I am in a one bedroom.I was going to be homeless as no council was helping me so I had no choice but to move to the flat i am in as that was the only thing I found that accepted housing benefit.

My son shares my room as he feels scared from things that happened to us previously so is unsettled at home although he is well behaved, his scared not being by my side.I reassure him constantly but him not having his own room doesnt help although the room with no natural light is a playroom for him, he still wont go in there and play unless Im with him.The council are saying i can sleep in the living room but i need my bed and cant sleep in the living room as i suffer with back pain,imsonia so really need to try and get comfy as possible to get some sleep as i dont sleep well. I have had to get environmental health over as the landlord who is a private landlord would not do my repairs.The officer said the front door had to be changed as it was a category 1 hazard, the garden had to be cleared due to broken glass,car batteries, a massive glass aquirium ect ect. The landlord is not happy with me and Im not happy with him basically.It took him 3 months to get some one over to sort out a draniage problem which was causing awful pooey smell.

The council will not help me, Im not asking for a miracle or a mansion, i will have that when i work hard an earn my money and won the lottery but i would of thought they would of helped me find more suitable accomadation.

I dont have money for a deposit and a months rent in advance which is what a lot of landlords ask for. Agencies take that plus an admin fee. If i had the money I would not suffer living here. I hate it here, i dont feel safe and i feel scared.Had a panic attack again today coming back from my brothers as his not been well due to suffering from epilepsy.He is another worry to me. I worry so much i feel all this worrying is making me feel worse.

I watched this programme on bbc1 and its scared the life out of me. I do not know why I watched it,i always watch cromewatch and then get terrified but this was a crimewatch special and i pysically felt sick.I feel so scared now, I dont feel safe at all.I want to feel safe and secure, i hate all this worrying about the future, my sons future, its become such an evil world.

Ive gone on and on again sorry for the rant.Hugs xxxx

Diamond78

rose07,hope yor feeling better.And well done for standing up for yourself.You do not deserve to be treated or spoken to like that.Sending you hugs xxx

ilovegreatdanes

hi,
rose.....good news about the hols.ttfn meand ta ta for now:)
am here early 2day as i must get stuff done.the ironing is beckoning and the beds needs changing, and the council tax needs paying........and aint life grand:).....and i didnt win the lottery:( so i suppose the housework still has my name on:(........
im coming back as charlie cos it dont seem like a bad life from what ive seen:)......oh, well...never satisfied, am i?
ttfn.
love ilgd xx