The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread!

polaroid

hey guys, enjoyed reading the new posts. had horrible two days. my ex is been more of an idiot than his usual idiot self and involving my parents, and upsetting them. hes a complete +@*&&$:mad:

all this has just made me want to come home and drink as much wine as possible to numb the pain. in a really bad place right now. thank god i dont have any thing in the house. threw the bottle of beer away. but i do have a swarkoski crystal covered bottle of moet champagne....no i couldnt..its too pretty to waste on drowning my sorrows over that $%&&

i dont even know why i want to drink right now, all i will end up doing is getting really angry and then really sad and then falling asleep and wake up at 3am with a massive headache and a guilt trip.
off to make some food and then eat an orange or three....i ll check in later if i am still feeling weak...thanks guys xx

eselt

Sounds like some of us are being severely tested this week- well done everyone for trying to stay sane when insane things are happening all around.

Winebox-scary story about the water throwing but I know how quickly things can get out of hand when drinks involved. Hope you are not still feeling too shocked and things have calmed down-good that you seem more determined to tackle the booze too.

Jo- you are doing so well, well done.

Best of luck to everyone...can I join the lose 20Ibs before xmas club please?...I have yoghurts in the fridge and no booze in the house so theres no better time to diet methinks.....

winebox

(posted by YM: At least you did not throw the glass at him as well

Good luck for tomorrow) - thanx ym, not sure i'd've got out of there if I'd gone that far....

eselt wrote: »

Winebox
Best of luck to everyone...can I join the lose 20Ibs before xmas club please?...I have yoghurts in the fridge and no booze in the house so theres no better time to diet methinks.....

Eslet please do, the more the better to encourage each other tho I know this isn't diet club on this thread; am going to try & do a "pounds £ saved" (ie thro not buying alch) (Jo will soon be a millionaire!) vs a "pounds lbs lost" record in my footnote or wotever it's called; only fair tho in this thread to just say what lbs we've lost (hopefully!!) not turn this into diet diary - tho maybe we shd start a new thread? :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: eek I have added to one or two others but this is the only one I usually come to, can i cope?????????

Shoppy don't put it off; beachbeth / Jo / anyone else;
d'you know I have never before been in a "forum/thread/online chat thing" before this one, ie don't do msn all that stuff & i am amazed at how fantastically supportive it is - i really appreciate all you guys & what you contribute & I am surprised at how supported i feel by the whole thing. Gosh am getting all sloppy, am going now!! Quick tranche of toast & FULL FAT BUTTER as a last fling. Last glass of wine in the house too...........................................................

Must dust off halo ready for...................:A

eselt

Thanks winebox- enjoy your 'last supper'!!! Totally agree with you about this thread, I think this is the nicest most supportive thread on MSE.

Got my own little stressor at the end of this week as since I was signed off as sober and (reasonably) sane by the psychiatrist in Feb I have been on campral and my very last prescription runs out on friday- this will be the first time in three years when I have not been on either librium,antabuse or campral and sober-eekk!!!! I've done over 8 months completely sober now but this will be the real test I think. I can't believe this nightmare could really be nearly over, and I can stand on my own two feet sober and not taking any meds- looking back to a couple of years ago, I don't even recognise the person I used to be at all, its like it all happened to someone else!!!!

Anyway, hope everyone is doing well tonight- eselt

Bismarck

eselt wrote: »

I don't even recognise the person I used to be at all, its like it all happened to someone else!!!!

know that feeling! a different kind of denial...

you've got us this time so you don't need meds!

eselt

Thank you so much Bis- you are a star you know, I don't know what we'd all do without you!!!! I must admit over the years I've grabbed at all the support and help I've been offered just desperate to try and crawl out of the hole I was in, but this thread has made all the difference and kept me on the straight and narrow- I think its because people on here don't judge or disapprove, they just offer support and encouragement and don't give up on people, which makes me more motivated to stay sober.

Hope everyone is OK- thanks eselt

winebox

Morning all!
Shaky start - the house is now alch free but at what cost.....why I drank it all rather than pouring it / giving it away....but that's why I'm in this thread I spose. 30+ alch units in one day yest. but I am in work. Fell asleep before I had any water last night so somewhat dehydrated - fancied bacon eggs & black pudding for breakfast but stuck to Special K (I couldn't get out of bed so no time!)
I'm so tired I keep forgetting to blink.
Simply because I feel so rough I was ALREADY working out excuses not to start today whilst I was out with the dog this morning....why not Monday 1st Sept? Why not next Thurs 1st day back at school? But I am really really going to try TODAY cos that is what I've been doing all year - postponing.

Eselt tomorrow is indeed a BIG DAY for you! You'll be fine, I'm sure, you've come so far.

Hope all OK with everyone today. Must get on with some work, will be back later.

beachbeth

Sorry about your family, Polaroid! I know how family members can drive you to drink - I have some that do that to me too!

Glad you are finding all this helpful, Winebox. I have now been 4 days AF. Can't remember the last time I went that long without booze and I know this thread is helping me!

Im so glad I didn't have that glass of red last night because DD1 (who had half-heartedly started packing yesterday morning:rolleyes: for her Lanzarote holiday) came home at 10.30pm to finish packing. An early flight, so she had to get it done last night. She was getting wound up trying to do her last minute things, which wound hubby and I up just as we were wanting to go to bed! If I had had a drink I would have blown up at her big time for leaving everything to the last minute. Nothing is ever her fault and she was driving us nuts!!!! :mad:

I got up at 5.00 this morning to wish her and boyfriend a nice holiday before going back to bed (didn't want her to leave after an argument!) If I had been drinking I would have just slept through and not managed to do this.

This morning she has left me a note that her boyfriend's car keys are on the windowsill because he has left his car at the front of our house. There are no keys on any windowsill! So his car may be stuck there for the next week! Her lack of organisation drives me mental! At least he isn't blocking anyone in!

Have a good morning. I must get on a do my jobs!

In_a_Mess_3

I have realised that in the last week I had 3 alcohol free days, which for me is really good, although they weren't in a row But at least I didn't drink every night.

Am sitting here this morning with horrendous ear ache so off to the docs later, will probably get antibiotics so that should keep me off the booze for a week and help get me out of the habit.

beachbeth, 4 days is fabulous, I am looking forward to being on day 4 myself.

Winebox, hope you feel better later, onwards and upwards!!

To everyone else, well done, this thread is just great

jo1972

Wow such a lot to catch up on!

WB, I have been in the situation where I've had a row with OH then literally minutes later whilst he's still ranting about something really bad I've just said, I have absolutely no idea what it was....I stood there searching in my brain for some glimmer of what it might have been, then he susses out that I can't remember, then has a go at me for being drunk. God I don't know how many times that's happened! Don't worry yourself about not doing anything this summer, draw a line under it and promise yourself that next summer will be better. Don't put off today because if you say Monday 1st or next Thursday then you'll only find another 'significant' date to use after that....I managed to procrastinate for 2 years and I thought I was doing it justifiably so!! Good luck, keep posting, on the way home from work stop off and get yourself some treats and find of ways you can pre-occupy yourself this evening.

YM, glad to hear you're doing well

In a Mess, baby steps is what it's all about, as long as you're going in the right direction

Polaroid, how you feeling today? Drink is responsible for making us feeling so s***, it's a depressant and with us feeling down with ourselves anyway, we've got no chance! Good luck for a better day today x

Beth, sounds like that was a good call not drinking last night! I too would've blown up if I was drinking, I am a very impatient drunk! You are doing great, keep it up!

eselt, congratulations, you've reached a real milestone. Don't ever go back to the old eselt!

Shoppy & Bis :wave:

Hope I've not missed anyone.

I know it's only been just over a month for me, but it's still not much easier....days are great, don't get me wrong but it's the 4-8pm time that's quite uncomfortable. It's gotta get better eventually huh??