Depression and Obesity. Thats me!

belfastgirl23

Our car gets even worse when it rains - there's so much building work in Belfast that the rain is filthy and leaves big muddy drop marks. My excuse for not washing it.

A goodish day today apart from the large glass of wine I'm working my way through

Personally for Xmas I like the buying stuff route but tend to watch out for bargains - eg there's a load of kids stuff cheap (I think on amazon) right now. Thebookpeople are also good for kids books....

lisa_martin_2

No rain today yet!!!

We have been out for a drive today - I am feeling very low and can't be bolloxed with life today. Didn't go to school this morning either and its something I always push myself to do. Hoping I will snap out of it and tomorrow will be a better day.

Hope you are all doing well.

Lisa xx

BigMummaF

Sorry to hear you're suffering Lisa.....must be summat in the water cuz I'm struggling a bit too if I'm honest:o

There's plenty I know I should be doing, but my get & n go has not only got up & gone, but didn't leave any forwarding address either;)

belfastgirl23

Hope you're feeling back to yourself today

BigMummaF

I think that is a big stumbling block for me BelfastGirl, cuz I' don't know what my old self is anymore:o

I've always been a puddun & my parents will verify my lack of house-keeping skills even before I had a home of my own to look after. My dad used to say I should've been a boy cuz I just don't do girlie, which doesn't say a lot about my choice of clothes, furnishing etc. Perhaps once the offspring move out, I can have a true batchelor pad but without having to worry about leaving the toilet seat up:D

I've never understood why that is such a problem If a fella goes in for a widdle, he has to lift the seat so why is it soooo difficult for us to have to put it back down! d'ya think I've spent too long thinking about this:rotfl:

lexa34

Hello,

How's it going?

I have lost a whole 4 pounds in 2weeks! Not amazing but it is better than putting some on. I have been ill for last 3 days so may have undone that! I am going to try and make myself go for a walk tomorrow. I will probably like once I am going!

Hope you are ok; hope CBT is going well. It interests me; how you finding it if you don't mind me asking?

Lexa
x

belfastgirl23

Yeah I'd really like to hear how it's going too, always sounded very interesting to me.

And hope you're feeling better Lexa...

lisa_martin_2

Well its day one of diet.

I have eaten all the nastys (nice things) i like and i'm not buying anymore. I have given myself a challenge and that is to lose a stone/14lb in 7 weeks. (this is during the school summer holidays) I will try my hardest but if I don't manage it then thats ok too as long as I lose something. I am going to try hard!

The CBT. Well I see a CPN every fortnight for one hour, I can go more often if I wanted too but I am still going thro hard times of not going out/being too scared to go out. Lots of emotional problems. Mainly due to my childhood and my mother dying suddenly. The CBT is ment to help change how you think or how to control your emotions. For me this is difficult because I don't know my emotions even tho I can say I am scared I don't know which emotion of the hunderds I feel at a time i am scared, so I am finding this out. My CPN tells me that I will be under the CBT programme for quite awhile yet. I have been seeing her since October and havea strange feeling I might be seeing her or another year yet. However I have done a different Kind of CBT that just didn't work. If your not the type to listen to a tape of dolphins in a dark room and get in touch with yourself then a short version of CBT isn't for you. I tried this 6 week course and I just couldn't lay there in a dark room and listen to birds tweet. My mind was all over the place. But with this version of CBT its the counselling type I am making progress. Unfortuantly there is a lot worse for me to go thro and think and talk about in the weeks to come but I know when I have finished I will be a better Lisa.

Just gotto shift the weight with it aswell :-)

If anyone wants to know about the type of Counselling CBT I am doing then ask, I'm better at answering questions then having to think generally about it, if you know what I mean.

Lisa xxx

absolutebounder

lisa_martin wrote: »

I have eaten all the nastys (nice things) i like and i'm not buying anymore. I have given myself a challenge and that is to lose a stone/14lb in 7 weeks. (this is during the school summer holidays) I will try my hardest but if I don't manage it then thats ok too as long as I lose something. I am going to try hard!

I dont know if you have done this but write down your goals it helps

The CBT. Well I see a CPN every fortnight for one hour, I can go more often if I wanted too but I am still going thro hard times of not going out/being too scared to go out.

It is a great shame when someone is too scared to go out but try and remember you are not alone in fear going out. There are scary situations for all people at some time or other but millions of people wouldnt go out if they didnt feel it was safe.

Lots of emotional problems. Mainly due to my childhood and my mother dying suddenly.

The loss of a loved one is always sad but sorry to say one cannot turn back time and living in the past will do no good at all. Plus Im sure your mother would want you to carry on without her and enjoy yourself.

The CBT is ment to help change how you think or how to control your emotions. For me this is difficult because I don't know my emotions even tho I can say I am scared I don't know which emotion of the hunderds I feel at a time i am scared, so I am finding this out.

This I find interesting because despite being a therapist I have the same problem. Emotions to me are automatic so I dont analyse my own. I think however a good therapist can work round this

My CPN tells me that I will be under the CBT programme for quite awhile yet. I have been seeing her since October and havea strange feeling I might be seeing her or another year yet.

This does seem to be one hell of a long time for therapy when you think phobias can be cured in a couple of sessions.


However I have done a different Kind of CBT that just didn't work. If your not the type to listen to a tape of dolphins in a dark room and get in touch with yourself then a short version of CBT isn't for you. I tried this 6 week course and I just couldn't lay there in a dark room and listen to birds tweet. My mind was all over the place.

Im not surprised it didnt work. Even worse if you suffered from Dolphin phobia

But with this version of CBT its the counselling type I am making progress. Unfortuantly there is a lot worse for me to go thro and think and talk about in the weeks to come but I know when I have finished I will be a better Lisa.

Just gotto shift the weight with it aswell :-)

If anyone wants to know about the type of Counselling CBT I am doing then ask, I'm better at answering questions then having to think generally about it, if you know what I mean.

Lisa xxx

I dont know why you have to go through a lot worse things to think about and talk about with CBT. Depression is a sort of perverse protection mechanism. One of the laws of the unconcious is that it acts towards your protection so when it is doing something that contravines that rule such as smoking you will find part of the brain is getting something out of the behavious. The depression gives something to a part of your mind that is better than what that part sees as the alternative. Therapy should really be able to find this fairly quickly and once thet is rationalised you should feel quickly better.
Rgegarding your weight do yoiu want to lose a stone only or is that part of a long term weight loss goal.

lisa_martin_2

Hi there,

Thanks for youe input, Its hard for me to talk about me and what I am going through but I know I will get there in the end. I suppose its not just CBT im doing, I am having all forms of counselling with. My goal Is to be Lisa. I don't really remember who Lisa is, but I will find out.

The weight loss is long term I suppose as I have 3 stones to lose. Its a common thing with depression to shove the weight on quickly innit. I have been overweight for 2 years now but I think one of the reasons I don't go out often now is because of the weight. I know I have to do something about it. In 18months 2 years time I'd like to be the Lisa I once was.

xx Lisa