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debtfreewannabe321

Afternoon all, thanks all for the support.

@itsthelittlethings she's not declared anything. I work with students with anxiety and I know they can present in different ways but her behaviour is manipulative, bully-ish and aggressive...I don't personally see signs of anxiety but I do think she is suffering with her mental health and in a serious way. I think this is causing what looks like on the outside nervous behaviour. I can't help but keep comparing her to my old neighbour, who had bi polar and was also a bully. And she drove me mad with gaslighting me as this one is too. I showed untold amounts of empathy in the first week or so and she just rebuffed any offers of help, space to decompress etc etc we've tried everything between us that we've tried with our students and then some. And we've all tried to make allowances but she quite literally tries to bully everyone round to her way of thinking. She should not be with vulnerable students - which all of ours are.

Anyway, I don't want to think about her anymore 🙈 this morning I started early and have been running around nonstop, even managed to fit another visit in on top of the one I had earlier so will have done four by the afternoon which is great means I don't have to carry it over till next week. I'm pretty tired and have taken myself away from everyone and sat in the canteen on my own- didn't spend anything though (yet) I've sat eating my packed lunch and apple juice instead of fizzy ..I'm being good 🙈 let's hope it lasts 😉🤣.

This afternoon is busy too. But manageable I think. I'm hoping to leave a bit earlier today as I'm really struggling with energy today. And legs are hurting and so is my head 🙈. DP came home last night quite early so we sat and caught up and I got a cuddle...I wish DD still offered them out like she used to when small 🤣 sometimes all I need is a cuddle to make me feel better.

I've held off on buying any books and found two at home that I started and abandoned a while back...I'll give them another go and if no joys with them I'll stick them in the charity shop bag to leave the house.

I've had a LSD again. I forgot my water bottle so had to buy one whilst out and about. Only a pound or so but annoying as I could have avoided that.

On another issue - I've got a twitch in my eye and it's driving me insane. I've had it since the new person started...I mean I started the job a week before so I think this is also to play but all combined it's not easing off it's gotten worse. How do you get rid of them!! Ugh it's annoying I feel like everyone can see it 🙈🤣. Right on that note I'm off to finish my lunch and go catch up with everyone (I'm quite proud of the fact I left the office and classroom and just went off on my own today rather than feeling obliged to be anywhere in particular.

debtfreewannabe321

@MFWannabe Yes. And I've got it on my phone the kindle app but I try to have no screen time before sleep as I am around tech all day and just want an old fashioned book in my hand 🤣.

debtfreewannabe321

Evening all, so my LSD turned into a high spend day as I just paid for the wedding ceremony 🤣🤣💝. I have emptied my bank account out after giving DD 1/5 of my pocket money and the registry office half. 😩🙈

Work was alright this afternoon but I've managed to get far too many steps in and I'm hoping for a slower day tomorrow.

I barely saw anyone at work for more than half hour today. However in that time we had another incident where newbie was sat in my office chair, I knew she'd get agitated when I walked in and saw her there so I said, it's okay you don't need to move (she was talking to the lovely lady who helps us) I'm just grabbing some forms. Opened the drawer next to her to find them (and disappear as quickly as possible) she got up, huffing, sighing, stormed out for 'fresh air'. Sigh...... Seriously how does a two minute exchange turn into this. Apparently before I'd arrived she was being rude to the nice lady....and several witnesses saw and were gobsmacked (again!) ...also another exchange later in the day that upset me and made me feel like I needed to justify leaving early. I left my house at 7:30 for work and drove there, parked up, started at 8 so I'd done my hours by 4:30 but she was most annoyed and said to me, well I also left at 7:30 but I'm not allowed to leave. Yes but I don't count my travel time to work? I counted travel time from work to somewhere with a student..? I was over explaining something really simple and she was just twirling around in her chair saying we'll it's not fair when can I go. I have to be here till five that's not fair. It's not fair and kept repeating it. I left my house at 7:30 too. (She lives much further away than I do so I know she got there later than me). I got up. Three minutes early much to her annoyance 🤣 and said bye all I'm off. I couldn't take any more ... seriously. I'm being driven insane. Work is hard enough mentally without needing to explain all my actions to her. I'm sorry to keep ranting about this. But I've had enough.

Anyway work is done, one more day to go. So struggling this week it's crazy. As I was driving home. Stuck in traffic I was yawning and rubbing my eyes, a woman walked past and said, through my open window, I think you need an early night 🙈🤣. Yep. Several I think and all back to back ...like, can I sleep for a hundred years please?

Came home to a new meter, apparently they just turned up and changed it. Our meters weren't sending readings TBF. So that's done and hopefully these work now. DP is cooking dinner 🤗. And I really do need that early night. 🙂

daisy_1571

"Work is hard enough mentally without needing to explain all my actions to her."

Thing is though, you don't. 😀

You also don't need to tell her when she can leave so any questions like that just say oh I don't know, oh I'm not sure, best ask your boss/line manager I only keep track of my hours etc etc.

Difficult I know when you are a polite person but your hours are between you and your line manager and nothing to do with any other member of staff. If they have a problem or think you are not doing your hours then they should complain to your boss who will either look into it or be aware you are doing everything you need to and tell her so immediately.

Don't get dragged in to conversations outside of anything you need to discuss regarding work.

Meantime, enjoy your Friday tomorrow 😀

Dxx

beanielou

I’m absolutely amazed by the fact she is still there!

debtfreewannabe321

@daisy_1571 you're right I don't. I don't know why I did. I think it was panic of 'omg she'll go straight to the manager and twist everything I've said AGAIN ' 🙈 I do need to not engage. You're right thank you for the reminder 🙈🤗

@beanielou at this point the majority of us are surprised and amazed at this too… in my opinion she's too volatile to be around these kids. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I'm showered and about to go to bed for chill time for an hour before crashing. I'm knackered. I will start at 8:00 again tomorrow so I can be out by 4:30. I'm struggling so much with my energy right now I don't know how I'll make it to Easter 🙈☹️.

debtfreewannabe321

Morning all,

I'm at work already, sat in the car though. I figured if I got in early I would get a staff parking space which is right next to where I'm working otherwise if I wait an extra 15 minutes at home I have missed them all and have to walk from a different car park which means I end up getting to work at the same time as if I just get in early and sit here. If that makes sense 🤣🤔 also means my poor legs get to rest. They were aching so badly last night I had to take painkillers. I did get an early night though and even put off a friend from calling past nine which I wouldn't usually do, I'd wait up, and then be overtired 🙈. So well done me making adult decisions 🤪. I've hopefully got enough energy now to get through today.

Hoping for a NSD today I have packed lots of food and drinks in the hope that I don't have a mid afternoon crash and head for the corner shop 🫣.

Cashed out some cashback but it hasn't hit my account yet. I think that and the survey money will head over to my savings when it arrives to try and top up the EF. I need to log on and check the balance of that as I took some out a couple of months ago and never updated the signature so I'm unsure where it's at at all.

I didn't order the food shop it kept slipping my mind. 🙈 DP has offered to go get It for me. I need a rest weekend really so I'm trying to not make any plans at all. Right I will head into work I suppose... Roll on 4:30.

Baldybear

De lurking to say sorry about the whole lack of energy. I really feel that now, dont know if menopause signs but need something here too to help out as severly lacking and seem to get every cold going. I am very bored of it, am asleep by 9 latest most nights and still tired. Didnt know if anything at all works for you?

beanielou

Hope your day goes well.

debtfreewannabe321

Hi @Baldybear so I've been religiously taking vitamin C and D since just after Christmas and *touches wood* I've not got a cold since last year which is usually unheard of for me. I like to get everything going around. Especially in the winter.

The exhaustion though I'm still battling it, I don't know what the answer is but I try to have an early night when I really need it. Try to reduce stress, bad foods that I know are triggering inflammation in me but it's really hard.

Mine is definitely worse since meno. But it also comes in flares and will sometimes last months then I'll be alright again so I'm not sure how to fix this issue (or make it even just slightly better would be a good start 🤣)