Teetering on the brink

EatingBeans

oh I 100% agree with not judging people for giving up a dog. I myself have rehomed a dog when the kids were little because it became apparent that my cocker spaniel hated being around my children. She wasn’t reactive and the kids were very good with all our pets (we had two other labradors, Big cat, chickens, guinea pigs, thousands of fish, a whole flock of chickens and a duck at the time), but the little cocker just wasn’t happy in such a busy household. So for her sake (purely because I loved her so much I wanted her to be happy), I found her a lovely child free older couple to take her on instead. Every dog and owner has their own story and sometimes it really is in a dogs best interest to find another home. Little dog, as reactive as she is, really doesn’t fall into that category. She absolutely adores being with us and I think it would be very traumatising for her to be given to someone else. I just never realised until now how difficult life can be with a reactive dog. I always kind of assumed reactive dogs must have had something really bad happen to them but that Little dog proved that to be untrue. Yes, she missed the early socialisation period but apart from having a uti when she was little and an ear infection since then, nothing really has happened to her. She has never been attacked by another dog nor roughly handled by a person, just lots of patience, reward based training and cuddles. Yet still she loses her mind when she see another dog or a stranger looks at her. I am sure if I can stay well for long enough I will be able to get her more comfortable but for now we just have to find a way through the challenges.

Today all I can do for her is let her lay beside me and sleep. The pain is really bad and I am back to eating painkillers like they are smarties but still my pain is an 8 out of 10. I need to see the GP tomorrow and get not only more painkillers but also a fit note. As much as I want to be well enough to start the new job I am really doubting my ability to drive all the way to the south coast at the moment. I might be able to manage wfh if dosed up on lots of painkillers but how I can go in and work from an office is beyond me. Frankly I am borderline A&E level of pain atm. I am just desperate not to lose the job. 😞

ellenvan

You might be better to just go to A and E now. It's not giving in, just a precaution.

If you are on painkillers but they are not touching the pain, then something is wrong.

Too many painkillers obviously not too good for you anyway.

Sorry this is happening to you, just when a new start was beckoning. But long drives when unwell not really a good idea. But only you know if you can do it.