Teetering on the brink

ellenvan

It won't be they don't like you .

Just that the team need to be compatible.

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EatingBeans

See, I find the whole compatibility thing a bit odd tbh. Surely we should be aiming to be inclusive, in which case everyone should pass the compatibility test, no?

Personally, I am not shy but I do take a bit of time getting used to people, so the idea that a team can tell if I will be a good fit from a 45minute conversation irks me somewhat. To me that just sounds like they only want people who are like them and would fit their clique (I hate cliques).

I honestly don’t see how turning someone down based on compatibility is anything other than saying someone on the team doesn’t like you. Surely if it is based on if you can do the job then so long as you can do it that should be enough? Compatibility is about learning to work with different people who might just have a different perspective which to me is a good thing? Like I said, I just don’t get it. 🤷‍♀️

That said, I just have to think back to some of my former colleagues to realise that if given the chance I too might have dismissed a few based on compatibility given half a chance! 🤣

EatingBeans

It might all be a mute point however because I have just realised that I cannot find neither my passport nor birth certificate! Tomorrow was planned to be a ban building day but now it is going to be a day of turning the house upside down to find them otherwise I wont be able to pass a right to work check. I’ve already looked everywhere obvious so a full on house flip may be in order. 😞

EatingBeans

Passport found! For the life of me I could not find it but when I had reached the point of checking behind the fridge freezer, dd2 offered to help look. Over an hour later she went to check through my paperwork filing cabinet (which I had been through FOUR times, and lo and behold, she finds it! 🤦‍♀️ I had literally been turning whole draws of my house out and putting things back in one by one and she finds it in the second most likely place in the house. Doh!

The important thing is, it has been found, a new renewal applied for and I even got to get the old one to the Post Office and posted before closing time. 😁 Not much I can do now to speed it up, I just have to hope it gets turned around quickly (and I get the job offered of course)!. 🤞

bubblycrazy

Fab news on the interview.

I'm like you and can be shy and nervous at first so hate the whole first impressions count way of thinking. I hate interviews for the same reason. I'm stressed and nervous and can't think straight, and people who are cool under pressure but may be rubbish at the job always get it above me.

The fact you are through the first interview is brilliant and a sign that you did well 👏

EatingBeans

Still no news back from the lower paid job interview I went for (and honestly I am not too bothered about that). The final interview for the job I want is on Thursday. 🤞I’ve found another job I can go for (and think I have a decent chance of getting), but it’s 3hours away. Obviously, my first thought was hell no, but then I read more into it and thought it doesn’t hurt to at least sleep on it. In a year’s time I want to move anyway so maybe I could stay over on the odd night I’d need to be in the office and then, if I really like it, I could relocate. 🤷‍♀️ I’m clearly happy to consider more random options at this point so long as I think it will improve my life.

After lots of progress on the van at the weekend, today has been a rest day. Sadly, one thing I have done is roughly tot up all the direct debits I have left to come out of the bank this month vs cash in it, and I don’t have enough to make it to payday. 😞 Lots of scrabbling for cash now required over the next couple of weeks - there is no way I am getting 🤏 close to the payout and falling at the final hurdle! I know nothing major will happen either way (the mortgage and council tax are already paid) but to end up with a late payment mark on my credit file when I am within a whisker of clearing down so much debt is just unthinkable. Lots of listing of things is in order right now. Time to also dust off my prolific account and see if I can earn a bit that way too! 🤞

ellenvan

You can do it. I agree pity to fall at the last fence.

Throw everything in to it for one month.

Olio, too good to go, check if any loyalty vouchers or points to spend. Look down the back of the sofa, pockets, cash in any change jars?

Surveys and listings.

I know you will be able to do it!!

If it's just until you get your payout I am sure you will make it.

Sending very positive thoughts your way.

Check in here daily if you have time and think it may help.

EatingBeans

Thank you! I really do need all the chivvying along I can get right now. I am not sure why but I just feel exhausted at the moment. I only made so much progress on the van thanks to my brother being right beside me (it’s a bit lame to take up someone’s whole weekend only to sit and do nothing so it forced me to keep going. Now though, I am absolutely flattened.

Yesterday I achieved… eating. 🤦‍♀️

Today I’ve hoovered, mopped, and changed all the throws on the sofas as Little Dog had left a bit of a… ahem… ‘trail’ from being in season. 🤢 Usually she wears pants but she’s been in and out of the garden so much it was proving difficult to keep track. She just misses her brother bless her.

I did also get a call from the first place I interviewed to say I didn’t quite make it to final interview as they only wanted to take two forward but asked if I would like to stay in the process in case neither of the first two work out. I said yes but honestly, I don’t think I even want the job anymore. I mean, I would probably take it if offered but I’d probably keep looking for something else either way so provably done me a favour. I still have my fingers crossed for the final interview on Thursday. 🤞

Listing has sadly not happened yet today. I know I desperately need to but I just need to lay down. I am not sleepy tired (I’ve been sleeping fine), I am just back in the waves of fatigue. So frustrating and really inconvenient right now! I did at least have a shower, do some washing and change my bed. I figure no matter what, first step has to be doing all I can to make me feel better otherwise I am no good to anyone.

ellenvan

I like the use of the word YET in regard to listings.

Rest and then try and manage a few items if possible.

EatingBeans

Oh I am going to try, believe me!

In the meantime I have been laying here trying to work out what I can do. So i’ve been reinstalling the Tesco app on my phone (not sure where it miraculously disappeared to tbh), and checking my vouchers. That’s £25 to help keep dd2 fed. Bless her I had to let her know that earning her pennies has had to go on hold for a few weeks and she didn’t complain one bit. And rather than down tools she could see I am struggling so offered to bath the dogs (especially Little Dog 😬), and even as I type she is busy cooking us all a roast to help get some good food in me. 🙂 She is so sweet.

Next on my hit list (from my bed), is surveys. I’ll be honest, I haven’t done many for a while but I am hoping that means they will be more generous in the number I can do. I can but hope!