CrazyBee wants to be Mortgage Free!

beanielou

CrazyBee787 said:

catclaires said:

Really pleased for you about the job! Hope it went well today (in my experience, first days in new jobs are always a bit tiring when you're getting used to absolutely everything being new, so don't let it worry you if this is the case for you)

Hi Catclaires, Thanks for popping by and thank you for the lovely comment I have to say I am very tired & Hungry, I have a roast in the mic and thats is all I can think about right now!

It was a good day, however I worry there was a bit of friction between me and the team leader which is not good, I kept feeling pressure like she was mad at me, I held back and it went, we did seem to get on otherwise, so hopefully all good, lets seeXX

Don’t let it get to you. Think about how much you wanted the job x 

Egoberry

Well done on getting through day one which is usually a total overwhelm of everything!

I found it helpful to the remember the following statement when I start worrying about something without clear reason - "Thoughts are not facts". It's from CBT therapy and you can read more about it but basically it means that the narratives we create in our heads are not objective truths and can be influenced by mood, insecurities, previous experiences etc.

Unless you get specific feedback then there is nothing to suggest that they are feeling negatively about you. I know this very well cause a few people told me when they first met me they thought I didn't like them when it was absolutely not the case - just my stern looking face and straight way of talking I guess ha!

CrazyBee787

Egoberry said:

Well done on getting through day one which is usually a total overwhelm of everything!

I found it helpful to the remember the following statement when I start worrying about something without clear reason - "Thoughts are not facts". It's from CBT therapy and you can read more about it but basically it means that the narratives we create in our heads are not objective truths and can be influenced by mood, insecurities, previous experiences etc.

Unless you get specific feedback then there is nothing to suggest that they are feeling negatively about you. I know this very well cause a few people told me when they first met me they thought I didn't like them when it was absolutely not the case - just my stern looking face and straight way of talking I guess ha!

Thank you Ego I had been thinking the same things, that potetially it was other things affecting my thoughts and feelings, as actual coversation was pretty good, the lady was very encouraging and helpful.

CrazyBee787

I have to say what is motivating me mostly is money and doing a good job, I still feel absolutely tired this morning, I have an appointment with Health practitioner this morning so a late start to work, so I have a bit of time, and I can say I don't feel like a refreshed bunny this morning, ahh well and the thought that I could pay off my credit card at the end of the month feels good also MD said because I haven't paid tax for most of the year that I should get a tax break, so I should get something like £2K instead of £1770 which is what I would normally get. And that thought alone is keeping me going! And I really want to do a good job so I am motivated to perform well.

I think they say money as motivator is not a good thing, but I can honestly say I feel like a wreck going to work and there is not much else that will motivate me, MD said not to worry and that once I am homeworking it won't be so bad. I think she is right. She also said I would like the change when I go to the office normally.

CrazyBee787

beanielou said:

CrazyBee787 said:

catclaires said:

Really pleased for you about the job! Hope it went well today (in my experience, first days in new jobs are always a bit tiring when you're getting used to absolutely everything being new, so don't let it worry you if this is the case for you)

Hi Catclaires, Thanks for popping by and thank you for the lovely comment I have to say I am very tired & Hungry, I have a roast in the mic and thats is all I can think about right now!

It was a good day, however I worry there was a bit of friction between me and the team leader which is not good, I kept feeling pressure like she was mad at me, I held back and it went, we did seem to get on otherwise, so hopefully all good, lets seeXX

Don’t let it get to you. Think about how much you wanted the job x 

Thank you Beanie, I will try, I am trying to perform well and give it my best. However I do feel absolutely done in a lot of the time! Thanks.

CrazyBee787

I only did half a day today because I had an appointment this morning at the gp, however I feel better this evening, tomorrow will be a full day I hope to feel okay again but lets see, I expect I will feel knackered!

2/19 no spend days so far, which I am pleased with. I have luckily managed to get free parking 2 days in a row, Yippee!!

20/22 Working Days left until pay day/ eom or 2/22 Done!

GP appointment was actually with a pharmacist, he did a three fer - three for one appointment really helpful and I was very thankful, so that is two other appointments I don't have to attend. Yay!

Have a good evening allXX

Newstartforme

One day at a time CB then you will get a break at the weekend , you will very much appreciate when the time comes you can partly work from home , added bonus if you are working you are not spending . Tomorrow you will be halfway through your first week xx

CrazyBee787

Newstartforme said:

One day at a time CB then you will get a break at the weekend , you will very much appreciate when the time comes you can partly work from home , added bonus if you are working you are not spending . Tomorrow you will be halfway through your first week xx

Thanks Newstart, you are quite right, and yes tomorrow I will be halfway through my first week, that will be something. I have been very careful not to spend, it is easy to go to nearest shops and buy chocolate or coca cola etc. I am doing pack ups, I plan on making a flap jack again at the weekend as I find this very filling when I have my lunch and I last with it. However I did spend considerably on groceries at the weekend - Oh and the lamb curry I had one portion tonight - it was very enjoyable so mini win! Thank you and have a lovely evening NewstartXX

Jessy103

Nice, positive news, bee! Well done and keep going! x

P.S. I often stamp my feet in a morning like a toddler because I don't want to go to work, helps get it out of my system and then I put my big girl pants on and get to it 🤣

CrazyBee787

Jessy103 said:

Nice, positive news, bee! Well done and keep going! x

P.S. I often stamp my feet in a morning like a toddler because I don't want to go to work, helps get it out of my system and then I put my big girl pants on and get to it 🤣

Hilarious, Thank you, just the tonic. I'll try and keep going thank you, all I have is motivation right now. ThanksXX.