Watty's Awakening

Brewerspride

KajiKita said:

......I see the confident, on top of it, ready to enjoy delivering the course, Watty1 and salute her! 👏❤️

KK

Me too; loving seeing the journey

Watty1

Thank you @KajiKita and @Brewerspride   I really did feel more on top and confident than I have for a long time.  Still feel like i am pushing against a tide a lot of the time but I actually think I am succeeding.

Reading on another diary I was reminded of the Watty who I used to be confidently driving once a month to France to shop (I had free cross channel travel) with my mum and step dad and was a little sad to see how another part of me was lost whilst with the ex.  Teaching the course has been therapeutic in some ways as I am growing back into someone with belief in self.   Sorry if that sounds a bit self indulgent but I feel I am changing, and, for the good.

Collected the jumps and poles last night with the VNM.  I asked him to come because the horsebox was needed to collect them and the place was down a very steep hill that is mostly single track and I didn't feel up to doing that in the horsebox and in the dark.  Whilst out I realised the horsebox does not have a working reversing light - but the VNM has said he will at some point fix that and put additional lights on the back like the ones on his work van so not only will I have really good lights for reversing but lights if I need to work with a horse in the dark.  He did say no idea when but he has it in mind, but at the moment his mum is taking up all his time.  Fair enough.  

The jumps are a bit of leap of faith as Charming Cob may  still need to be retired but I'm still trying to push that thought to one side for now whilst I see what happens this winter. 

TallGirl

Watty reading that about the self confidence I thought of the Upfront Movement as I did their chaity bond last year. It is all about women's confidence and how we should also support other women. The founder is doing one for small business here is the link . The 5 weeks I did last December still has positive impact on me nearly a year later. 

The jumps sounds fun and VNM does too less so his family but you seem to be coping so well I am not sure I could keep quiet. 

badmemory

Becoming again the you you used to be is not by the broadest stretch of the imagination self indulgent.  It only proves the damage the wrong people can do to us.

LadyWithAPlan

daisy_1571 said:

Can I just pop a thought on - just in case the ex has any other financial info it might be time for a quick trawl about and close down accounts/transfer to new banks etc.  Another clean break sort of thing.

Dxx

IThis is a v valid point ! 

Brewerspride said:

KajiKita said:

......I see the confident, on top of it, ready to enjoy delivering the course, Watty1 and salute her! 👏❤️

KK

Me too; loving seeing the journey

Me three! 

badmemory said:

Becoming again the you you used to be is not by the broadest stretch of the imagination self indulgent.  It only proves the damage the wrong people can do to us.

The wisdom and support to be found on mse is amazing This is so true badmemory 

have fun with your poles  ! Did you get some new sign ups after your webinar ? Hopefully loads ! 

Sorry to hear re VnM mum - that inevitable stage of life is so hard, and watching people age dramatically with illness etc is sad. Still every day we live is a precious gift 

savingholmes

All caught up.

Loved the 💐 story.

Sorry things are tough with VNM's family, the car etc. You sound a total star 🌟. 

Glad you have the horse jumping to look forward to. Well done on the webinar

ajmoney

I love reading your posts Watty, the honesty about everything but also seeing where you are going is incredible, as are you

Watty1

Oh my goodness.  All of you!  The wisdom, support, encouragement and friendship here is incredible.  What a wonderful community.  Thank you all.

Watty1

It will take a while I think for the webinar to translate into business but it feels positive to me.  Work is going well.  I can support myself, and genuinely so, I do work hard but it is paying off.

1st of the Month.  I transferred the £200 into my regular savings account and that now is £600 which made me happy. 

The household account got its monthly boost from my current account and that with its linked savings account can cover the bills for this month and between 3 and 4 other months at current expenditure so this gives me the cushion I had been wanting to achieve. (Ultimate goal is to have a year's worth stashed of bills covered in the savings pot)

I checked the value of my pension pot too and did a bit of pottering around the web.  Ok, my retirement income is not on target to be what it would have been if I had not left the ex - but - it is on target to give me a reasonable income and one I genuinely believe I will manage on if I am frugal.  A few more years hard work and all will be well.

During the financial wrangling I had an Indian meal with a girlfriend I do not see often and mentioned I had no money due to the ex but at least I had a house.  Her response was joyful - "well you will just have to earn some more money then won't you"  We laughed and I genuinely think  I am well on the way doing just that. 

LadyWithAPlan

Glad you already at the ‘I will survive if I am frugal’ stage - and have the motivation and skills  to earn more to make life even more fun