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  • AntoMac
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    That’s interesting re the energy bills rebate. I assumed it would just be a credit to our energy accounts rather than payments to our account. I’m with Eon Next so will be interesting to see what happens with them.
    Anyway, you seem to be back in control Keedie after revising your payment plans. The pot names ‘Burden’ ‘Noose’ and ‘Sink’ are possibly not the most uplifting names though, don’t you agree?  ;)
    Technology and the internet really helps with keeping on top of things. I remember having to wait for a paper statement. Mind you, there was no MSE forum then either, but on the upside the access to credit seemed a lot more limited back then as well.
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  • Keedie
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    😂 I guess they're not the most positive names huh @AntoMac? But bills are a definitely an adulting burden and the debts are like a noose around my neck. So the cap does fit, I guess... But the 'sink' is probably a little drab considering that having sinking funds are a good thing lol.

    I think if we had the technological ease of today, but the credit access and mindset of yesteryear, things would be so different. I miss the days of financial simplicity.

    I'm assuming that the energy rebate will be a credit to the bill account, but not sure what Octopus will do or how they'll process it, so I'll set aside the money (which won't be much), so at least I'll have a buffer. I hope they don't do it like British Gas, as I'll confused and my bills will soar in winter even with about the energy increases. As I always keep the heating on throughout winter as the cold/draught aggravates my joints and it's too painful to move at times.
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  • Keedie
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    Yeah, so I really should have tried to suck it up with the direct debit for Octopus even when it was really hard. They've just launched a new bills projection feature based upon 5 years meter readings and projected weather over the coming 25 days. It's in beta test (so a really rough calculation that comes with the caveat of not being wholly reliable or to be taken as gospel), but it's an eye opener nonetheless.

    It looks like they'll be applying the £66.67 government rebate as an actual rebate and not as a credit to my account, as my normal £100 direct debit seems to effectively reduce to £33.33. I don't really know how to feel about that. As I'll have to effectively set aside the money and then make a payment on top of the direct debit once the rebate clears, so that it's £166.67 paid to my energy account. That's going to take monetary discipline that I don't always have.

    But looking at this approximate projection, my energy charges will jump from an estimated £78.72 in September 2022 to £244.75 by October 2022. And with eye watering charges like an estimated £539.29 come January 2023, my energy arrears will rival my credit card debt 😢. My credit will be wiped out by mid-November 2022 based on this projection and by the end of March 2023, I'll be around £1,600 in arrears. Obviously this would be a bit lower if I reapplied the energy rebate and paid it back onto my account.

    I knew it was coming, and I've seen the news headlines about an 80% increase, but I think my anxiety has simply compartmentalised everything, as I've dealt with one emotional, mental or financial battle after the other in recent months. I've been treading water mentally, barely sometimes when I felt like I was just drowning and didn't particularly care if I was taken under. But now that I've got my fighting spirit make and I'm paying more attention to what's around me, this is making me very worried.

    I know the graph below isn't accurate, but to actually see a projection like this really concerns me.


    So I think it's back to the drawing board with my budget once again. If I can shave off some money from my food budget and reduce my sinking funds, I should be able to double the amount that I physically pay to £200 (plus re-crediting the government rebate for a total monthly payment of around £265). That will reduce the projected arrears to £500ish by the end of March when I switch my boiler to hot water only.



    Either way, although this projection tool is in it's infancy, I really needed to see this as it's been a wake-up call and I need to get more focussed on how I'm going to approach things moving forward. Wish me luck 😬.
    Debt Free Diary:- The Mental Debt Struggle
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  • Keedie
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    I feel a bit queasy, as I've finally paid the school fees for my son, at a whopping £4,838 for the 2022/23 academic year and I feel a bit overwhelmed and upset. I feel quite defeated to be honest. I'm probably being silly, but I had an internal weep today.

    It means that my debt has officially risen (as before now, I could have just convinced myself that I could return the money to my mum although I signed the contract renewal and would be liable for the school fees). Also, more importantly, it's confirmation that my son can't go to mainstream school and that's still heartbreaking. He's made so much emotional and mental progress in the last couple of months, that he could actually thrive in a new school, but trying to get him into one for Year 11 was hopeless.

    My son is finally accepting that he will be homeschooled and although he's not looking forward to it, he seems to be excited about things being flexible. I've also been selling him on the idea of us sometimes studying/working in coffee shops or the pub during the day if he uses his headphones as he can attend school anywhere that he has an internet connection. He seemed to like that idea and I told him that sometimes we can study/work in different places to break it up a bit, as we're both at home.

    There's a lot of homeschool networks and one in South London that meets up at the local ice rink on a Friday, so we can dip in and out of that ice skating group every few weeks, and do some other activities that are taking place. It's a bit strange as he's at that awkward teenage phase where he doesn't like to stray out of his comfort zone. But I've been pushing him more and more, to meet new people and try new things.

    He's joined the young carers group (he's registered as a young carer due to my mental and physical disabilities), because I refused to back down about his attendance and he enjoyed it, and now he's going go-karting tomorrow and he's really excited. There's also a hospital youth group for teenagers with chronic conditions, and he's in the reluctant phase with that one, but he seems open to the idea of going so we'll see. Socially I'm not worried about his homeschooling, as he has his clubs, football, and hangs out with his decent school friends from his old school (he realised who his true friends were and that circle turned out to be smaller than he thought 😢). I'll also heavily push him to join the social networking clubs and groups for his online school, but academically, it's a bit up in the air. His anxieties about his academic performance has kicked in and he's convinced himself he can't learn and he'll fail everything, so I've got a lot of work to do to build his confidence and make sure that he studies without alienating him. He's hard work, but it'll be worth it. That's what I keep telling myself, but I'm exhausted by it all.

    But in other news, I've turned my bills parachute pot (where I was saving to get a month ahead on bills) into my Octo Pain pot (to top up my Octopus Energy account). So there's £10 in there as I had my £5 weekly transfer go into that pot. I also paid £6.80 into the PAD pot, £5 into the Christmas pot and £5 to the emergency fund.

    I'm getting the car sorted tomorrow morning (hopefully) and fingers crossed it doesn't cost more than the £350 I have set aside for it. If it's too costly, I'll struggle to be able to repair it before I sell it.
    Debt Free Diary:- The Mental Debt Struggle
    (Original Debt on 15/07/2016 was £33,056.76) 🙈 but Debt Free on 09/02/2025 🎉
    2025 SAVINGS: Emergency Fund (£604.30/£5,000) 12.09% saved
    2025 CHALLENGES: #16 Sealed Pot Challenge ~ 18 || #9 50 Envelope Challenge 22/50
  • The energy stuff is so stressful, and I resent the thought of what I am going to have to pay before it happens, I think you are doing the right thing, refocusing and changing priorities- whether we want to or not! You are doing so well with everything that is going on in your life, so please remember to be kind to yourself! Also, just catching up, it seems your son is settling more which is lovely
  • Keedie
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    Thanks @Aimingforthegoodlife, I think we can often see progress in others that we can’t see in ourselves. He’s definitely settling down more, he’s resigned himself to the fact that this is his fate for now. He’s enjoyed his go karting experience today as he text me to tell me that he “smoked everybody”. I’m not too great on young text speak, but I’m working on the assumption that he means he left them in the dust 🤷🏾‍♀️. The main thing is that he enjoyed it and he took himself there as well, so I didn’t need to take him. 

    The energy bills are making me very anxious. I hate being in energy arrears as you need to use the gas and electricity, so your constantly burning through any payments you make. It’s like an overdraft that you get paid into. They’re easy to use and notoriously difficult to get out of. 

    But in good news, I used my Chase account to pay the school fees and I made £48.38 via the 1% cashback and sent it to my Globetrotter fund as I’m slowly saving for our spending money for our holiday next year. 
    Debt Free Diary:- The Mental Debt Struggle
    (Original Debt on 15/07/2016 was £33,056.76) 🙈 but Debt Free on 09/02/2025 🎉
    2025 SAVINGS: Emergency Fund (£604.30/£5,000) 12.09% saved
    2025 CHALLENGES: #16 Sealed Pot Challenge ~ 18 || #9 50 Envelope Challenge 22/50
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