Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 5 - Trying to recover from the pandemic

jusferbrowsing

Hope you're doing ok. 

crazy_cat_lady

Hi everyone - Buffy just kicked my backside and reminded me that I haven't been on here and updated in a while, so I promised her that I'd come on and say hello. 
You're really not missing much - I'm miserable, struggling and full of self doubt at the moment. My mind is really giving me a hard time and I'm 5 months into the waiting list for talking therapy and still waiting. I get a little text from the nhs once a month letting me know that I haven't been forgotten. Except I have. Everyone has. If you're not a rich Tory then you're pretty much stuffed in the UK these days. I've never wanted to leave before, but I swear if Scotland leaves the UK then I am going with it. I am embarrassed at what the UK has become since Brexit, Boris and Covid, and I just feel a bit more hopeless every day.
I am still grieving for NT1 - current mood doesn't help me at all but I find myself crying at the strangest times and missing her. I wasn't planning on replacing her as quickly as I did but life plays strange tricks sometimes and we have 2 kittens, brother and sister and younger brother and sister of my lockdown baby. They're not posh purebred like him - a mixed breed got in with the posh Queen cats and the lady ended up with a litter of kittens that she didn't want. The girl cat is like NT1 reincarnated and I cry when she gets too close. But they have settled really quickly and my lockdown baby adores them. It's so lovely to see the three of them playing together all of the time.
Then, on top of that, work is quite hard. Year 11 still don't care, and I am done caring for them. One student was arrested on site and carted off handcuffed by the police last week. It's wild, and not in a good way. And I work in a good school that I absolutely adore. Seriously, the summer holidays cannot come soon enough - but I do need to get through exam season first, and if I think I'm busy now then wait until marking kicks off in about 3 weeks. I've found myself struggling to get out of bed in the mornings recently - I do get better as the day goes on but it's hard work. Thankfully I am speaking to a counsellor through work and he is absolutely brilliant (I have spoken to him before). He helps me see things from a bit of a different perspective but I don't have any solutions just yet. Work in progress though.
And now the most embarrassing thing. I am ashamed writing this, but the main cause of why I've been MIA for the past 10 days or so. I got scammed. I completely, totally and utterly fell for a scam and I've lost £2500, which the bank can't guarantee that I will get back. It's a very long story and a very sophisticated scam - but it started with a text message that I thought was a scam, but came from my doctors. I even checked the link out before clicking on it - was told it was a trustworthy site so went on and followed the instructions on there. Couple of days letter I got a phone call from my bank - came from their number - fraud department. Told me that someone was trying to take money out of my account and asked if I'd clicked any links or anything - remembered the thing from the doctors and he said that would be it. Then managed to get me to confirm my details (but no passwords or anything) and sent me a text code to my phone - told me to delete and reinstall the app. When I did my bank account was completely empty. I rang my bank who told me nobody had tried to contact me and I'd been scammed. I was absolutely devastated (and I still am). I don't have that sort of money to lose. The bank are investigating but have told me that there's no guarantee I will get my money back and it could take some time. I've spent a lot of time crying about that too. I can expect an update within 15 working days - so another couple of weeks at least. Needless to say May is turning out to be one of the hardest months on record for me financially. I had a little bit in savings but not that much - so we're being exceptionally frugal. I wish I'd known before I got the kittens, replaced dd's car and bought a new stair carpet. I am really lucky in the fact that I have 2 jobs and one of them is about to pay very well but I still need to get to that payday...
Right Buffy - now do you wish you hadn't asked?

Four_Seasons

Oh my lovely I am so very sorry, sending you gentle hugs x

beanielou

Bloody hell.
That's dire.
I really hope the bank pay up.

How lovely to have some lovely kittens 

janb5

I'm so sorry CCL.  So many peopoe have been scammed and I can imagine how distressing this is.

Sun_Addict

That is just so awful. Shocking how these scammers prey on the unsuspecting 🤬 I really hope you can get your money back. 

dawnybabes

There’s some really nasty people about ((hugs)) x

Buffythedebtslayer

Very glad to see you posting! 

So bloody sorry, people are !!!!!! scum bags. They really really are. 

And my yr11 don't care either. It is really weird - I mean some do, the bright ones who please God will get a good grade but the middle? Hmmm. 

I pray for drunk examiners. 

And that the scammers testicles shrivel up and drop off. 

mothernerd

lots and lots of hugs ccl. 

DawnW

Sorry to hear this CCL. Hope you get your money back, and things improve for you soon xxx