The Best View Comes After the Hardest Climb.

Buffythedebtslayer

Willowtree222 said:

I’d love to spend a day on someone I liked doing too 😂

Hope your back is better soon though. Bad backs are awful. X

   😂😂😂😂 

Buffythedebtslayer

Back is terrible. 

Mum's dentist appointment got cancelled so am sat here, tense debating what to do. Everything I need to do means bending or twisting or lifting. 

I REALLY need to try and clean out the animals. Perhaps sort the fish tanks - not moving them, just filling them up which I do with a pump. 

Ugh. am quite gutted with this back situation. 

Sun_Addict

Hope your back gets better soon. What a nuisance just as you've got time off to get on with jobs.

milann

Hope your back feels better soon.

Buffythedebtslayer

The absolute Miracle that is Ibuprofen helped SO much today. Never touched my migraines EVER but the back thing, awesome. 

Piggies are clean and at least have nice food. Dandelions and coriander if anyone is interested.  The need is for more space tho. 

However, I sat with the buns today whilst cleaning them out and everyone was mean to smallest bun apart from the other lovely boy who is so food oriented it is ridiculous! so tomorrow I am sectioning off part of the run area for her to live in alone. I  started to move furniture in there today and it was good to see them moving around together as four exploring. Long term tho she will have to go in the bit for the piggies. and have their run.. Ugh. 

Have to let the dogs in and tidy up the kitchen xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Kitchen tidy, buns checked - all ok and eating. My girl was a bit quiet but I think that is cos I fed them some where different. She ate once I put food in the same (but now awkward) place. 

Jobs done. Bank checked. I have not much cash! and a 100 CC bill. 

i can borrow out of my non house savings. Not the end of the world 

Buffythedebtslayer

I meant to write about this the other day, but I forgot. I was listening to the radio, it was predictably for me about debt and they had a guy talking about how Step change had helped him. He lost his job because of covid. He found himself 700 pounds a month short, had a heart attack and was really ill. He got so emotional when he spoke about Step Change, he really wanted to express his thanks to the people who helped who hadn't judged him, who basically saved him. The journalist and the guy from step change were clearly moved by his passion. Made me think of this place. How much it helped me all those years when I started here. Lost, skint, terrified. Grieving. Almost 30,000 in debt I think. I never did work it out. I was so afraid. And alone. 

I paid something like 660 pounds a months from 2008 to 2011. I was so focussed on the get out of debt thing it was unreal. Made so many friends. Worked two jobs. Stayed in a truly soul destroying job for about 5 years too long. The people here - like Beanie helped me so much. Gave me a reason to log in, to pay stuff to do surveys, make jokes, share worries, share triumphs. Paid it off, got my Masters.  Passed my driving test, got a car. Cost me a FORTUNE. Much later I got the rabbits, who cost me more. Gave so much up for Mum and then later my sister. My friends tell me that I am good etc but really in the moment you make decisions. Moment to moment without much thought for what it means. Well I do.  

I love reading the diaries, the challenges. Made such good real friends here. People here are so accepting and kind. My problem with now is that in the past I felt there were ways round things. 0% transfers, cheap loans. Now I wonder what people will do. 

I feel like I am some sort of 3rd phase now, Been in and out of debt, been saving and now, now it the financial crisis and a war in Europe. A war. The people of Ukraine are really never far from my thoughts. I can't believe it is happening. Mum refuses to believe anything any different will happen. I am going to aim to keep my savings but the cost of living rises are frightening me. I hope the media are exaggerating and lying. 

I really hope we can stick together through this.  Sending love to you all XXX

Willowtree222

That’s lovely Buffy. 

I’ve had so much help too. Just people full of helpful advice and a genuine willing you on feel. 

X

Sun_Addict

When Mr SA was so poorly 9 years ago, along with my work colleagues, the people posting on my diary kept me going. You were one of those people Buffy 😇 

milann

It sounds as if you have come a long way Buffy. I agree the people on here are so encouraging and non judgemental.