First Steps to Solvency

alt80

@RelievedSheff ha he refused to give one lol still sulking about the Scotland game. 

I reckoned on England winning 1-0. One of my staff who hasn’t worked for me for that long gave me the opportunity of a £100 bet; half wish I’d taken him up on it now lol. Bit of a running joke between my staff who can be the one to tempt me to have a bet on the football or go with them to the races fml. No desire to start the next !!!!!! habit and not so fun when you’ve seen the consequences of it getting bad.


Anyway, things are good right now thanks - going to try for another early one.

@MovingForwards yeah that’s life re time. I don’t know where the years go tbh !!!!!! fly by too quickly for me to be wasting more time wired can tell you that ha. 

I’ve accepted that long ago re Mrs.

alt80

Well fml so much for the early night went to sleep for a bit but woke up, couldn’t get back to sleep thinking over past figures in my head times I’ve been overspending, how many additional units various stupid categories equate to at the times of what figures were at a given point in time etc. Absolute !!!!!! madness. 

Know I need to accept it and move on; draw a line under it. I can’t get money back that’s gone. 

RelievedSheff

Hope you managed to get back to sleep again last night?

alt80

Day 20. 2/3rds way to first goal. 20 days of having no easy access to money too did wonder if I’d fall out with my Mrs over it asking for my cards back. I haven’t. Do think I need to have a plan for that - not really comfortable with the current situation being forever but whilst I’ve no plan I’ll carry on with things as they are - I do not want spending or other temptation in my life tbh.

@RelievedSheff yeah had a bit of sleep. Ridiculous really I know; it’s been and gone. Caught myself doing it again- working out pointless calculations. What’s important now is I keep on track and inevitably I’ll be tired tonight so go to bed rather than fighting it. 

RelievedSheff

That's the trick. If you are tired just go to bed regardless of the time.

alt80

@RelievedSheff definitely and trust the pros nothing wrong with me for being tired. Fed up with living my life in fear worried about illness, not deserving my family and running myself into the ground over past decisions paying money out on the pros to barely listen - in my head I was always right ha fml. Yeah I’d like more money and less debt but not going to get there running myself into the ground.

RelievedSheff

alt80 said:

@RelievedSheff definitely and trust the pros nothing wrong with me for being tired. Fed up with living my life in fear worried about illness, not deserving my family and running myself into the ground over past decisions paying money out on the pros to barely listen - in my head I was always right ha fml. Yeah I’d like more money and less debt but not going to get there running myself into the ground.

I think it is finally sinking in with you

alt80

@RelievedSheff I hope so mate I need to sort my head out once and for all ha. 

alt80

Good day so far on the business side. Keeping myself out of trouble and bringing some decent fees in. 

Maccys lunch which I shouldn’t I know. Probably should keep track of how many times I have a Big Mac ha. 

Wife not had time to spend either this week - fitting 1 week of house etc jobs into 4 days. I’m fitting 5 day work week into 4 too. Dreading going away right now for no reason other than it’s another day off work (Friday). Not that it’s even an issue just something else I need to get my head sorted with. She’s got a family few days out waiting my approval over summer planned !!!!!! panicking about that now haha. 

RelievedSheff

alt80 said:

Good day so far on the business side. Keeping myself out of trouble and bringing some decent fees in. 

Maccys lunch which I shouldn’t I know. Probably should keep track of how many times I have a Big Mac ha. 

Wife not had time to spend either this week - fitting 1 week of house etc jobs into 4 days. I’m fitting 5 day work week into 4 too. Dreading going away right now for no reason other than it’s another day off work (Friday). Not that it’s even an issue just something else I need to get my head sorted with. She’s got a family few days out waiting my approval over summer planned !!!!!! panicking about that now haha. 

You will be fine.

I love York. Not been for ages now. We need to get ourselves into gear and get out there one weekend before too long.