Buffy takes it 6 months at a time

Buffythedebtslayer

I have just got quite upset over the silliest thing. TV programmes, during covid !!!!!! head and I used to message during certain tv programmes - the repair shop! and Black list. Made me think how much I miss him. I am glad he is gone, it is easier not to be constantly disappointed and hurt by him for sure. But I do get sad at times. Such a disappointment and so hurtful in the end. 

And money wise I have to earn more. I really do. Dare I try online tutoring? or real life tutoring? 

I must be due on I am that sad!! 

beanielou

I am glad that you are going out for lunch tomorrow & being kind to yourself  xxx

in_need_of_direction

What beanie said.  While I’m not encouraging debt, I think it’s currently more important that you look after your mental health

beanielou

in_need_of_direction said:

What beanie said.  While I’m not encouraging debt, I think it’s currently more important that you look after your mental health

I agree.
My wee night outs with my friends really help my MH.

Buffythedebtslayer

Lunch was really good, I love my friend, been mates for 20 years nearly and she is so funny. Has brilliant one liners. I was in fits of laughter.

Also period has finally come! so have stopped being cra cra. Well no more than normal. 

I strimmed some of the Jungle and cleaned out the outdoor bunnies. I am getting fond of my friend's rabbits. Mine have had a dirty protest at their arrival and needed a proper clean out, involving boiling water!! They are such sods! I do love them to bits mind, having a decently built enclosure makes all the difference, being out there in the summer rain is actually lovely. 

I have a few ideas on how to sort their space out a bit better too. Not spending any money aside from top soil. Just have to paint stuff again and find more in the shed.... Also need a cover for the pond, 40 quid off Amazon. It is a big metal grid thing. It will look nicer than the rabbit run covering it now!! Need to paint the pond too and put the rabbit bridge across it (not for the rabbits) . Not to mention sort out the new filter I bought a 100 years ago and pump, after the gardener ruined the last one. I just need it to stop bloody raining. 

I am ignoring the football. 

XXX 

Buffythedebtslayer

Am Gutted. 

Completely and utterly. 

[Deleted User]

What you gutted about buffy?  

Def think getting out and about and putting your MH first is important.  I think so many people have felt isolated with covid and you also feel quite isolated cos of your mum situation.  So really glad you had a lovely lunch.

Not long until end of term now and then a whole wonderful summer off stretching out in front of you.  When I used to get bullied at school, I remember coming home on the last day of term and lying on my back in my parents' garden looking at the clouds moving overhead and thinking "yes, a whole 6 weeks without having to go to school".  I imagine you're the same but for different reasons x

Willowtree222

Think she is gutted about the football result based on the time of the post. 
Hope you have a lovely day at school. Not long to go now Buffy x

Buffythedebtslayer

Day at school was rubbish mainly as I am SO freaking tired. And yes it was the football I was gutted over. Just so unfair and horrible. And then the racism. makes me so angry and tired. I feel hopeless, we had quite a serious incidence of racism at work recently which shocked me and in my view wasn't well handled and as a nation we just don't seem to be able stop it. Or even be that ashamed. Some of the kids just accept it. I need to put more of it in my curriculum but having my time cut in half makes it have so little impact. 

It is all so alien to me. Just tired of it. 

Buffythedebtslayer

Things at work are quite bad. Not sure that things are going to work out for me there now. Bad day and very stressed. Wanted to go to bed as feel rotten. Will do test and have a lay down. Too much in my brain.