Dealing with Debt and Depression.

Lucy1982_2

Morning Guys

I've been feeling really weird since yesterday afternoon and I think I've realised what it is. I'm not so tense.

I think coming here and talking about the things I'm worried about has helped. I've just ordered a Blockbuster vouchers for OH's christmas stocking which is good, I'll get him some pop corn to go with it.

I didn't end up making my boxes last night. Mum and I went out and I was then to tired, but I will be putting them together when I get in tonight, so I am going to spend today working out what I want to put in them.

x

SortingIt_2

Good morning Lucy,

I have just been reading through your post and wanted to say well done, you have really come along since your previous e-mails and seem to be taking on your depression with a really positive attitude!! That's got to be a great start hasn't it.

I totally understand everything that you have been saying. It's that old situation where by you know what you have to do to combat it but actually doing it just seems SO hard. In fact just doing the little things in life (day to day things) seem like huge mountain tasks and summon so much of your energy.

I think little steps at a time, achieving little goals means a lot and each time you do something the next thing seems a little easier. It does take time and it's all about changing your thought process to things but you will get there and I will most certainly be here along the way supporting you on your diary.

Have a lovely day xxx

Lucy1982_2

I am going try to. I'm also aiming for a good food day as I know that makes me feel better, I just can't be bothered most of the time!

Thanks x

Lucy1982_2

Right mid morning update.

I've just spoken to Curry's about the non-appearence of my Laptop's credit agreement and they have said it can take a min of 10 working days to arrive so if it's not here by Monday/tuesday I will call them back. That is one stressful situation I could do without.

Thanks to Shineyhappy, I am going to sit down tonight and realistically look at my finances and work out where I can budget/overpay/cut back and then really hit everything hard. The aim will be to have my OD and Laptop paid off by my Birthday in June. This gives me 7 months so should be doable, especially if I still to my budgets.... hmmm need to learn this one!

Feeling a little more positive today, I am trying to not let this depression win and I know I am going to need to learn to deal with it for the rest of my live so I might as well start today (I think I'm having a good day!) Wish me luck and let me have any tips you can think of.

I'll check what's in my purse later and hopefully that will last me until the end of the weekend.... OH will just have to put up with me being a cheap skate... it's get us in training for the New Year! I'm going to cancel the proposed trip to watch Bath play rugby on Friday night, I know I get buy one get one free tickets through work but that is £28 we could do without spending!

falady

hi lucy,

Just a quick note to say well done and keep at it! Someone suggested doing a 'gratitude diary' to me when iw as really down, which i find actually does help when i am having a bad day. Just find a little notebook, and each evening write down 5 things you can be grateful for that day. I put stuff like seeing a beautiful flowerbed in the park, a wonderful blue sky, the sun is shining, I had a nice tea, a kind deed someone has done for you, or a cuddle from OH, stuff like that - it doesn't have to be 'big', its just about noticing the small positive things that happen every day.

Good luck! I'll keep reading,

Ali xxx

Lucy1982_2

Thanks that's a lovely idea!

I have a note book in my bag so might give it a go.

Lucy1982_2

Afternoon.

Just had lunch, was very good and haven't had chocolate. Just got a really funny email from a friend, but I can't work out how to upload video footage.

I've checked my purse and I have £8.98 in there, I'm not going to my dance class tonight, so that is £6 saved. So do we think that this will last until Monday?

Jacks_xxx

Lucy1982 wrote: »

Thanks Jacks!

I'm lucky that the only person who makes work hard has just announced that she is leaving at the end of Dec!!! Which is one less stressful things to worry about.

I'll have that cup of tea!

Excellent! :dance:

With me it was more the "always on call, all things to all men, not enough hours in the day, never ending" nature of the job rather than the peeps I worked with - and the doc was right - I felt loads better as soon as I got the hell out of there.

I recommend the counting your blessings thing. I have a ready made list that I try to add to (and you lot are on it! :grouphug: )

Reading it really does make me feel better - except when it makes me cry cos everyone's so nice to me!

How's it going with you today honey?

Love Jacks xxx

Jacks_xxx

Toto wrote: »

Hey Jacks, if ever you feel low, go and look at my facebook page. You'll see on the left hand side on compare friends what everyone thinks of you! You and Tig are top on everything Cos you're special.

Aww cheers honeybun! :kisses3:

(Special needs maybe!)

I've just been to have a look now and it's truuuuuuue!

It's all Martin Bl**dy Lewis on my page!

(Bet you didn't know he had a middle name huh? )

That blah, demotivated, "cry at the drop of a hat" feeling is the worst isn't it?

It's cos we're intelligent creative peeps innit?

Love Jacks xxx

Lucy1982_2

Hi Jacks

My day is going ok.

I have realised that I have got to be proactive about getting this sorted. So I am trying loads of little tricks.

It's still a bit of a struggle and I really couldn't be bothered to come into work, but I am here. Which can only be a good things.

Problem is I feel so overwhelmed sometimes I don't know what to do. It's those days I really don't like as I feel so pop and low about everything. I guess its those days that I feel useless and a failure. But those days will become less I guess.

I don't suppose you know anything about spreadsheets? I want to get some really good ones and I'm not very good with them

Thanks for asking though x