Dealing with Debt and Depression.

Lucy1982_2

Ooo well done, I need to get up with that again. Maybe something for tomorrow when I can't be bothered to do anything else.

But just think how quickly in 2008 you'll be able to get your first debt paid off. As we said 2008 is our year!

Shineyhappy

Thanks!! 2008 will be a great year! There should be quite a few things to look forward to and hopefully we should all have a productive and fun next year!

Lucy1982_2

Here's hoping!

I just need to get through a really boring day at work, I'm wondering if my cold will get me into a leave early situation.... I might have to think on that one!

Keeping_Positive

I ve just spent nearly an hour reading this thread. Its such a relief to see symptoms I have/had over the years. Its so nice to see most of your posts being positive Lucy I hope it continues.

I have struggled on/off with depression since I was a teen (around half my life I guess). I remember a really nice child therepist (cant spell the proper name!) saying she had lived with depression most of her live and its learming how to deal with it and to expect the odd rebound.

Im not sure where I am at the moment as I feel more numb than anything. I used to cry at the drop of a hat but I cant remember the last time now. I had a really bad spell a year ago last summer and pulled myself out of it or so I thought. Still cant stop the eating bit though!

ont think Im too bad as I am dealing with my debt (18k). Do you mind if I join the group?

Lucy1982_2

Of course you are welcome!

I think the one thing I have really learnt through all this is that you need people around you who understand what you are going through. I try to be positive although sometimes I do have really bad days.

Well done for dealing with your debt, it's really hard to get motivated sometimes, but I know that we can do it.

Keeping_Positive

Thanks

Motivation is soooo hard. Know you need to do stuff but never get around to it then feel bad again. A neverending circle. I think Im in coping mode at the moment. Do bare minimum to get by.

Spend far too much time on here (it does help though) should be tidying the house its a tip after xmas.

Right Im going to get dressed (A good tip for anyone when feeling down is to get dressed ASAP as it makes you more productive - I need to remind myself of that more often) and then wash up from yesterday.

Speak to you later

Lucy1982_2

I find that. Sometimes I need to sit down and say to myself that at 11 am I will going and clean the bathroom (or whatever needs doing) then I am happy to have a sit down and do nothing afterwards.

Baby steps and all that.

Take it easy.

bathgatebuyer

This really isn't the best of times for anyone with depression. Although I've largely managed to escape the big black cloud that used to follow me everywhere, this time of year (more New year than Xmas) is a time I always really feel miserable. Being in Edinburgh, it's also very difficult to escape all the frivolities and celebrations that go on. I'm off to bed at about 9.30 tonight and will have earplugs in to try and drown out the noise on Princes St and all the local celebrations happening in my part of town.

So, for the 8th year in a row, come tonight, I'll be in bed at the Bells, trying ever so hard to shut out the sound of other people celebrating 2008 together.

Lucy1982_2

Aww Bathgate! Why is New Year's so bad for you. Huge hugs x

I am trying to see it as a fresh start, 2008 can bring anything and I am going to try my hardest to make it a good year!

bathgatebuyer

It's never been a good time of year for me - it always seems to make me feel very lonely. The times I've made commitments with someone to do something I've always ended up in tears at home on my own. When I first moved up here I'd made arrangements for a friend to come through to Hogmanay for the street party, and at about 10.30 on Hogmanay I called my mate to say, "When are you actually getting to Edinburgh?" and she said that shes cancelled her plans and was not coming through at all as she was skint. (The same mate also got me to buy a T in the Park ticket for her and then 3 days before the show was due shetold me she was too skint to repay the price of the ticket so suggested I sell it on EBay Grrrrrrrrr!).

The next time I arranged to do anything for Hogmanay was the year I had chemo and radiotherapy. A mate had said that instead of spending new year at home on my own, I should join him and a few others for the street party as I'd had a rotten year through illness and should look forward starting with the turn of the millenium. So, I had to be up at Princes Street before 2 pm (when they close the gates) as I was the only one who out of the group who didn't have a ticket (ironically the only person who actually pays tax in Edinburgh and I was the only one who had to get in the enclosed area before they shut it off). Anyhow, I waited and waited..............5 pm..................6pm................7pm.............tried phoning him and his phone was switched off...............8 pm...........................tried phoning his house and his Mum said he'd left a few hours prior to that............................9pm................10 pm.....................still no show. By the time the Bells came and went, I'd waited 10 hours on my own on Princes Street to celebrate the Millenium with no one. Standing watching couples and friends hug and kiss each other when you're in tears is a rotten way to spend Hogmanay. I walked the 6 miles home crying my eyes out - every single person I passed was laughing at me as they were having a great time. Went home and seriously thought about killing myself at that point. It took about 4 days for me to stop crying. The feeling of loneliness was horrible. I really had to think about whether going through all that intense medical treatment that year had been worth it (and it was a bad year for feeling lonely as I used to go to the hospital as a day patient for treatment on my own watching everyone else arrive as part as a couple).

Anyhoo, when NY comes around, I go to bed, and don't want to be reminded about what a great time everyone else is having. The rest of the year I'm ok with it, but just NY it's a bit too raw.