Dealing with Debt and Depression.

SortingIt_2

Hi Lucy,

Glad that you have been signed off and ordered to take it easy. Viral infections can be very nasty. Enjoy your restful week, I am sure you will be fine for Christmas shopping! xx

Lucy1982_2

I don't intend to do much to be honest. Just going to relax and watch daytime tv!

giggal

Lucy1982 wrote: »

You rant away!

That's terrible, some people really don't understand do they. What have they said?

Hi Lucy
Sorry for the delay in getting back to you - and very sorry to hear you're poorly, hope you get lots of r & r and feel better very soon.
To cut a long story short, I was off work earlier this year with depression and back problems, and I've since found out that my colleague claims to have seen me out and about, clubbing and going to parties, while I was ill. Considering I could barely move due to mental and physical illness, it's total lies - which I think are a result of the fact that she doesn't understand or 'believe in' depression. Luckily she's too cowardly to take her lies any further - if she had I could have lost my job. As it is, the anonymous claims are on my file and my employers seem unsure whether I'm a fake or not. Not very fair really!
oh well enough of my moaning. Take care all xx

katakana69

God it helps knowing that I really am not a completely useless waste of space person who has completely messed up their life!! No, Seriously, I do still have these thoughts every day but after reading these forums I know that I am ok or at least that one day my life will be. I think the first day I made the call to say help I have a problem with my debts it was the closest I can imagine to going to an AA clinic. The debts are at over £30k now & I am so tired of fighting. Been on diazepam for 6 months but only try to take them when haven`t slept for couple of days. Am finding the odd glass of wine helps too. As long as I know I am not on my own I know I will get through. Thank you to you all!!!

Lucy1982_2

Hi Guys.

Giggal - Surely your Dr's opinion should be enough. I've been very lucky with work and the people that matter know that I am obviously not right, and have been very supportive.

Although that isn't stopping me feeling really guilty about being signed off this week. But there isn't much I can do about it, to be honest I think I would be useless at work. I thought I was feeling a bit better yesterday (was considering going back to work early) but thought I would clean the fish out which I was at home. Well within 15mins I was sitting on the floor with the heating off, the window open and I'd taken my jumper off! So still not very well. I've been sleeping so much!

Katakana - You are not a waste of space, although I realise it's really hard to stop thinking like that. You are not on your own and feel free to come and have a chat whenever you like. Take care.

Right I'm off to check my email and loads of daily clicks etc x

Lucy1982_2

Morning Everyone.

I am back at work today, feeling a little better, although still not 100%.

I've just checked my Accounts and I am further into my OD than I wanted to be. I have had to try and finish my Christmas shopping and I have decided I hate christmas, I hate the expense and wish that for once in my life I had some money to enjoy!

To top it all I have had to book into a £90 hotel for my cousins 21st in Feb. I have £30 towards it and still another £60 to find. It's really not a good day and I wish I was at home asleep!

Hope everyone else is ok x

Lucy1982_2

Right what DFW things have I done so far today:

- Piggyclicks
- Quidco clicks
- I have canceled my standing order for Slimming World. I have decided that this can come out of 'spends' money meaning I save myself about £15 a month. Not a massive amount but every little helps. I thought that if losing weight is really that important to me I will learn to budget for it in my weekly spends.
- I have decided to start leaving the card for my OD account at home. It's to dangerous to carry now I can remember the pin number!

Oh I forgot to say I have found my treats box!! I just need to decorate it now, then put in all my treat things in there. It is already housing £25 of boots voucher, which I will spend on myself on Thursday night!

bathgatebuyer

Keep your chin up, Lucy. We all know that depression is like a nasty dog which can come along and bite you from time to time. In my case, it's gone away for a bit, but every now and then it comes along bites me, then pees on me too!!!!

Had a total disaster this weekend with some of my lights not working. Can't cook right now as there isn't any light in the kitchen, didn't get any of the housework done I needed to do this weekend because I couldn't see to do it!!!! Come in to work to a nippy comment from because I wasn't in at the usual crack of dawn and I thought, "Look, I've had a crap weekend, my place is a sty, I'm going home late tonight and I will be having toast AGAIN and I'm getting a snippy comment for coming in at 9.10am while flexi time allows me to come in as late as 10.30".

I really do think most of my depression has come from other people. Maybe if they could see what selfish idiots they are at times, they'd be the depressed ones!

Jacks_xxx

:wave: Hello lovelies!

I'm just checking in to see how we're all doing.

I've been having a madly few days which has eaten into my DFW time considerably, and I keep noticing myself snapping at Hubby which is really rubbish cos he's bl**dy lovely and he just thinks "Oh bless, she's all stressed out." and takes it without a murmur.

So...working on that....

Otherwise - everything's cool. I just barely have time to scratch my bum that's all!

Love Jacks xxx

Lucy1982_2

I'm just going to blame Christmas, I think it is un-necessarily stressful! But on a plus point I only need to get OH's christmas present now.

Bathgate - I think that is a very good point, i think in a lot of cases other people stress us out, which I know in my case tends to make me depressed. I found myself apologising to OH yesterday because I had had a bad day's Christmas shopping... he was even with me!!