Buffy's 30 Month Plan

Buffythedebtslayer

OR excessively knackering when you decide to tackle the

******Sheds of Doom******

I burnt three bags of paperwork and had to throw away 6 bags of stuff. I was clearly mid way through sorting donations out but at some point with the hassle with my neighbour I lost the keys and didn't really go outside. And then I was ill and then BIL got ill. So it is a mess.

BUT

Saying that a lot of the stuff need binning or recycling and I bought new storage for it! so it isn't all bad. I am so tired tho and my eyes are burning from all the smoke!

3 days left of 2019.... What can I get done!

beanielou

Have a blooming rest!!!

Honeysucklelou2

Yes, knackering too! I forgot that bit in my enthusiasm to get into the garden this morning, but after 2 hours solid of bramble hacking, I am tired! Refreshed but tired!

Buffythedebtslayer

Honeysucklelou2 wrote: »

Yes, knackering too! I forgot that bit in my enthusiasm to get into the garden this morning, but after 2 hours solid of bramble hacking, I am tired! Refreshed but tired!

Brambles are EVIL.

What do you use to cut them back, nothing touches mine! They were even growing in the SHED!! (Yes it was that bad people!!)

Honeysucklelou2

Good old shears. I just keep hacking at them, then rake up what has been cut, So that I can see clearly where to chop next . Great exercise;)

in_need_of_direction

Why not use one of the remaining days for a bra fitting?

Buffythedebtslayer

in_need_of_direction wrote: »

Why not use one of the remaining days for a bra fitting?

Nice idea but that means inflicting my body on some poor women who has only just survived Christmas in retail! I don't think it is fair really!

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Buffythedebtslayer

Well, I am three days away from period and just want to cry. Stupid hormones.

I didn't get very far with the shed yesterday. Can't seem to get going, too much scares me! - spiders, mice, cobwebs, the contents in general, surprisingly painful and depresses me, so much to just put in landfill. I am recycling what I can but it is about ten years worth of stuff that I kept, I feel very differently now, at that time I was grieving and didn't know what I was doing. I can see myself back then. Organising it all but for what - apart from at that point my peace of mind.

Weird.

any how I wanted to go to the fish shop today for the last time but Mum is making a late breakfast. So we shall see.

i am mostly feeling frustrated. Heater has gone wrong on the fish tank, light has gone wrong,guinea pigs are being neglected. Room is a tip, conservatory is a tip, shed isn't empty yet. Going to drop the dogs off for grooming later and will take a load to the tip. Anything is better than nothing right?

crazy_cat_lady

I hope that you're managing to have a bit of time to rest and relax in amongst everything else Buffy

Buffythedebtslayer

crazy_cat_lady wrote: »

I hope that you're managing to have a bit of time to rest and relax in amongst everything else Buffy

I am not really. House is a mess, Mum is depressed, I am depressed and I have to do all this running around for the family (Chemist, shopping, shopping, Doctors, hospital Chemist) It doesn't stop. Getting harder to keep my head up must say. Worked so hard the other day. Thought the holiday would be more of a break but it isn't really. Can't really have a day off, got no where to have it. Everything needs to be thrown away and reorganised. I just want to sleep. That is part of the issue - to have some time alone I have been staying up but still have to get up early.

I mean take now - I am watching a film with Mum - nice, ok but I am also trying to do so some work, figure out tomorrow and whether or not to go out, and I can't really move. Dog etc. I sound ungrateful but today was hard work. I tried to do my stuff as well as everyone else's and mine all got half done. I hate myself for this. Really I do. I don't know how carers do it, I am just not that patient or giving.

anyhow this is all a bit self pitying. So early night and a better attitude tomorrow. XX

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