Buffy's 30 Month Plan

Sun_Addict

I agree with Rosa - suggest another catch up. If he lets you down again then maybe it's time to let him go. Has he got issues do you think?

Buffythedebtslayer

I think he might have other issues. I mean a lot of stuff happened at work and at home for him. Plus now starting a new (much better) job am not sure he would want someone from the bad times around?

It has been rough at work without him although without the tension between him and my boss things are better. tho work itself is a hilarious shambles.

I think I shall leave it. It is breaking my heart, until he wasn't there I don't think I fully appreciated how much I looked forward to seeing him but I will never know if I do all the chasing.

So in order to get through this stupidity of my feelings I have done the following - some good some bad.

1. Brought some new non black clothes.
2. signed up for a course on Groupon to help with work.
3. Decided I can wallow this week but next week start up with the swimming and walking plans. And not wallowing
4. Dinner out and cinema this weekend (but still free Saturday night cos I am sadly hopeful)
5. Finish the bedroom blitz and create a work space so I can raise my game at work.


And in money news, one of my PPi's came back. 38 pounds.

was gutted.

Got some more to apply for.

Keep going eh?

Love to you all XXX

Buffythedebtslayer

and of course the bloody programme I am watching has everyone getting together and talking about romance and taking chances.

Buffythedebtslayer

Just looked at my Paypal and I have 56 pounds in it!

56 +38= 94

Which can go off the CC.

get paid tomorrow. That is something.

XXXX

Buffythedebtslayer

Got some PPI responses back, but it turns out I either never had the product or only had it for a short time. so one cheque for 38 pounds....Really disappointed which is silly but so many friends have had life changing amounts....

I still have other accounts to investigate. And in the end I might get a company to check it out just to be sure even if it means I lose money in commission for them.

No news on the Crush and think that says it all. I am going to keep moving forward until the feelings go. I don't want to be alone guys. I really don't. I don't know what it is that I do, so many people seem to think I am a good person and attractive but it doesn't go any where. t And he was so good. Well obviously not that good! but I had made him good in my head. Oh WELL.

Today is going to be tough. first off dog walk, breakfast, shopping, sister visit (normal level of toughness!) then on to my friend's to pick her up to go to the cinema. She was the one from the Easter holidays, who isn't so well. I am driving but am sort of ok with that bit now so hopefully it should be ok. ugh. Still busy is better.

Should get home tonight and be able to get to bed early so tomorrow I can finish my room finally. Not sure if I am repeating myself here but I got rid of 10 bags of donations from my room, felt pretty good. But still have to organise what is left.

Right in danger of wallowing so going to get moving.

Love Buffy XX

Buffythedebtslayer

I forgot to say, in the interests of balance! so it isn't all doom and gloom I went out last night with a couple of good friend, and had a very good time. Just a couple of pubs in London. I do love it there.

XXX

crazy_cat_lady

Sorry to read that things are still so tough for you Buffy. Sending lots of love your way, because I have no practical advice or suggestions to offer

Buffythedebtslayer

crazy_cat_lady wrote: »

Sorry to read that things are still so tough for you Buffy. Sending lots of love your way, because I have no practical advice or suggestions to offer

thanks XX I think I am feeling sorry for myself in a major way really. Work is grim but when isn't it? And then the disappointment of the crush. And PPI.

last night was fun, the film will be good and finally straightening up my room will help settle me. Soon work will suck me in and I will wake up in July feeling better

Honeysucklelou2

Well done on getting 10 bags of donations sorted. Hope you have a good afternoon with your friend,

in_need_of_direction

Make sure your sister knows that you have committed to something after her and that you need to be away. You may want to build in extra travel time
Also, have you had the conversation about changing to Friday shopping or alternating fri and sat?