Back, still in debt, probably depressed (Take 2)

Uniscots97

Hi, sorry not been on. Not read all posts yet in depth but I do appreciate them all. Yes OH has mental health problems, supposedly caused by his older children's mother but I think it was all there before that. He's still spending money like water and has little or no interest in LO. Especially if upset or crying. I'm now viewing things very different and he's still pushing the fact he hates my family. Continually swearing in front of LO when asked not to. No financially it would be extremely difficult without him in the short term but once house is sold it would be easier. I could really kick myself for decisions made when I was younger that resulted in my debt, it probably has taken its toll on my well being too. I feel at the moment I can't concentrate on anything big (work is different as don't want to end up in a mess with that again).

So taking one day at a time. Yesterday's achievements?
Put 20p into my bag savings and paid my week's parking off my credit card.

maddiemay

Try and have a goal in sight, at this stage with no date to be achieved by and just keep chipping away both financially and emotionally. As Beanie says just keep plodding, every tiny step will take you a little nearer to your destination and the fact that you have made decisions will give you strength to keep going.

Take care.
xx

beanielou

Popping up to indeed say keep plodding

Uniscots97

Today's achievements:

Cheap dinner for LO and I , scrambled eggs. About to put LO to bed, glued to a Disney film (we both are).

£1.17 paid to debt.

OH called and moaned about lots of things. I'm wondering about seeking some advice about separation , need to have a serious think

beanielou

I dont think that there is any harm in you seeking some advice about seperation.
I think that is a good idea so you know where you stand.
Remember to take care of you.

Mnd

I do hope everything works out for you. I know from experience that separation is a huge step, but you are strong enough to cope and come out stronger whatever you decide to do

CapricornLass

Hope today has been ok for you. Love and hugs.xx

RhiBi

Sending you lots of love xxxx

Uniscots97

OH is moaning again, not really wanting to go into what about. I caught sight of myself on the video call and I look old, grey and completely worn out. Nothing seems to be good enough for him. I do one thing (in response for berating me) and he moans about something else. He's not asked about LO today. Just feeling extremely fed up.

My cc total has gone up slightly on last month but that's my Hospital excess.

Uniscots97

How is everyone? I need some advice. My parents want a face to face chat. My Mum is reasonable, my Dad could likely say told you so etc, or question me to death. I know they are looking to part me from OH but not sure what I want, I seriously just want to hide. OH asked me for more money and needed it the day he asked. Not told my parents. OH said if you can transfer the money you can use my credit card, tried to explain that dd's can't be paid by credit card. What do I do? I'm so confused, tired, upset and as I said I just want to hide.