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humptydumptybits

Well my arm is better, I still feel awful. In fact I think I'm depressed which is something I have never been before. I'm not sure if it is depression or anxiety, I just feel this flat feeling and a sort of dread about "something" but I don't know what. I know sometimes people feel low after a virus so perhaps it is linked to the flu jab. I'm not sure what to do with myself.


I think the other problem is I have been trying to eat alot to put some weight back on and I suddenly realised it is making me feel awful so I don't care about the weight I am going to start eating normally again.


Sorry to lower the mood, I hope everyone else is fine.

savingfortomorrow

humpty i hope you feel better soon. sometimes we all have dips in mood, hopefully you will return soon to your normal good mood.

I had a relaxing day eating well, i made some jam, it seems a little too moveable and didnt fully set. Next time it will be better, However i should try making bread at the same time. Sometimes it takes a few disasters and interesting dietary outcomes.

lessonlearned

Humpty.......sorry to hear that, hope you feel brighter soon.

I think you could be right - forcing yourself to eat won't help. Your digestive system will have to work too hard and that might deplete your energy levels. Are you getting enough rest and/or sleep.

The other thing I think is that as the days get shorter and darker it can affect our mood and energy levels. I dont suffer from SAD as such but I do get more tired when light levels are low. I definitely lose some of my bounce.

Tbh I too have felt a bit low today. Although in my case it's still grief doing its thing. It's always with me of course. Most of the time I can kick it back into the dark recesses of my mind and ignore it but every so often it will surface.

I could cheerfully have bawled my eyes out today but I managed to get through the day without succumbing. I did have a nap around tea time and that helped lift my spirits. Tiredness is definitely a factor for me.

Anyway I kept busy. I nipped to Asda for a few bits - that was a depressing experience.

The Halloween tat had been cleared and the Christmas tat was on display. Several aisles full of garish plastic rubbish. I know I sound like a right grumpy old woman but honestly I find I am becoming increasingly sickened by the greed and mindless consumption, the continual exhortations to buy, buy, buy.

We don't even get a breathing space. No sooner has one consumption fest finished then the shelves are stripped, restocked and its on to the next. Today's must have is tomorrow's landfill. :mad: I am absolutely not going to be sucked into a spending frenzy this Christmas.

The decluttering continues. Ive had a good sort out with linens and I have loaded the car with unwanted duvets, bedsets and curtains for the YMCA and cardboard packaging for the recycling centre.

I sorted out my tools and diy stuff and have found a place in the house for them, easier in the winter rather than getting them out of the shed every time I need a screwdriver or paintbrush. I cooked the rest of the red cabbage, did some filing and paperwork sorting and ordered a couple of evening dresses off eBay.

So all in all not a bad day. Still not done the ironing. :rotfl:

Manana.

lessonlearned

Good morning ladies.

Well I had a rotten night......often do when in "grief mode". Feel exhausted this Morning. And it looks a bit murky out there. Hey ho.

Just enjoying my coffee in bed, thinking about the day ahead. Will get up and get cracking. Need to visit some bathroom showrooms. Not really in the mood.

What I need is a duvet day and some nice uplifting movies. :rotfl:

Feels like It's going to be a looooong winter.

humptydumptybits

I'm having a spring clean, thought it might make me feel a bit better. The car is loaded with a mixture of junk for the tip (lots of it is recyclable so not too bad on the environment) and another load to go to the charity shop.


I don't buy loads for Christmas, I buy for my kids, their partners and my grandchildren but only small things that are useful e.g. clothes and toiletries that I know they like and then they all get cash. Other than that it is some chocolates or a new nightie for aunt in a care home and a bit of cash to my great niece who is a single mum so she gets a bit of cash to help with her Christmas shopping. I can't stand buying stuff that is just going to get shoved in a cupboard.


I don't understand how low I feel, I have coped with difficult things in life like losing loved ones, worrying about a loved one caught in a war zone, having health issues, finding out my husband was going to be permanently disabled when I had one child at uni, one at senior school, one toddler and I was heavily pregnant. Had to cut maternity leave short as I was suddenly not only mum to 4 but a fulltime carer and the breadwinner. Maybe that is the problem, maybe I need something more challenging to deal with or maybe the last 30 years has finally got to me. My husband is deteriorating and I suddenly feel hopeless.



I'm off to the tip now, then charity shop followed by the library. If that doesn't cheer me up I don't have a plan B. Maybe I need to develop a taste for alcohol although I've heard that can be depressing but at least it would help me to sleep.


Sorry, what a miserable post this is.

lessonlearned

Humpty.....don't apologise. Just roll with it. Come on here and let off steam. Just let it go. We all need to do that sometimes.

It's not much but it helps.

maman

lessonlearned wrote: »

Humpty.....don't apologise. Just roll with it. Come on here and let off steam. Just let it go. We all need to do that sometimes.

It's not much but it helps.

Totally agree with that. So sorry to hear you're feeling down humpty. Sometimes it can hit you for no apparent reason. It might be worth a trip to the GP, not necessarily for medication but sometimes they can refer to 'talking therapies'. My DD1 had a problem a year or so back and one bit of advice was to try to achieve something, however small, every day. Getting out of the house was particularly recommended. So even if it is just the tip and the CS then it's something!:T And when you get back with your library book, indulge yourself.:)


I'm with you both on Christmas tat and the buying for buying's sake. Both our girls have birthdays this side of Christmas so we'll treat them then. Probably money unless they want something in particular. One year DD1 asked for a fireplace!:rotfl: At Christmas, we just buy for the grandchildren and some other children in the family although now that's mostly money too as they're getting older.


I nipped out to Lidl yesterday for some storecupboard stuff and called into TKMaxx while I was in the shopping centre.
I brought home some Diesel silver 'sneakers' to try. Not sure about them but I'll see how I feel over the next few days. I want something other than sandals for when we go to India in February. I bought a River Island top too but that'll be a keeper. It's grey, ribbed wit long sleeves so a basic. I looked in New Look for a grey jumper but they didn't have my size as it's a small branch. I'll check that out when I go into the city centre.


https://www.newlook.com/uk/womens/clothing/knitwear/pale-grey-curved-hem-jumper/p/576312402?comp=Browse


I'll try to fit it in soon as there's an offer on at the moment.


Fortunately, the weather here is still really good at the moment. Today is dry and bright and 15 degrees so it's shortening the winter.:)

humptydumptybits

maman the trip to tip/CS/library did make me feel like I had "done" something. I then went into Aldi and totally blew my Christmas plan as they had some lovely wooden toys so for the 3 little GC I have spent £10 each on little sets, a farm, a fire station and a cafe. The building part is open when they are playing with appropriate people/animals/vehicles and they can be closed with the bits inside and a handle on the top so they can carry them round. I thought they were cute and think they will get alot of fun from them. At the end of the day £30 won't break the bank.


I'm thinking of joining the reading group at the library, I think it might be good to read outside my comfort zone and it is only one book a month so not exactly tough.



I've never felt down about nothing before, obviously things happen and we feel sad but this isn't anything like that. Fingers crossed it won't last.

lessonlearned

Humpty..........well done on your achievements today. I agree that Keeping busy and focusing on doing something constructive does help. Even if it's just a small thing. Getting out of the house helps too if you can.

I saw those little wooden sets advertised, they look lovely for the money. My grandson will only be six months old and too young. Although he already has some wooden toys his Venezuelan grandparents bought him when he was born. I have bought him a peekaboo bear. :rotfl:

I am resolved not to spend silly money on him. I will be setting up an investment fund for him instead - after Brexit when the markets have stabilised.

I have actually cashed in my stocks and shares. I know this goes contrary to all investment advice which recommends you ride out the lows and think long term but at my age I don't know how much "long term" I have left. :rotfl:

Maybe I'm being over cautious but I feel happier with less risk. I just don't need the stress.

Anyway dragged myself round the bathroom And tile place my guy recommended and, after further discussions with him, I have made an executive decision.

He checked out the boiler and said although the heating system isn't very efficient the boiler itself is only 3 years old so it should serve well enough for now. Ripping out the tanks is a huge job and he would be pushed to do both the bathroom And the heating in the timescales we have available.

So I have decided to just concentrate on the bathroom for now, this means I can really go to town on it, ripping out the old airing cupboard which is neither use nor ornament and ending up with a more spacious room and a better layout. I will be having underfloor heating in there. I am aiming for comfort, luxury and glamour. :rotfl:

The central heating will be done next year. I can rip out the tanks when I rejig the loft bedroom. It will be easier and quicker access for him and will save several days labour costs. The more I can keep a handle on costs the better it will be.

One step at a time.

The recycling centre was rammed this morning. I forgot Monday mornings weren't the best time to go. Anyway it's done.

It's nice here too MAman. Going to have a little potter in the garden now. The sun has come out and it's actually quite warm. Then I'll cook a nice healthy dinner and do a bit more curtain sewing. Nearly done. Aiming to give myself a facial later.

Haircut and acupuncture tomorrow.

humptydumptybits

LL 6 months is a bit young, I'm not sure about a 2 year old, bit worried they might use the figures as missiles! I won't be popular with DsIL is that happens. One thing about plastic is it won't do as much damage.


I agree with you about being cautious, who knows what Brexit will bring and whatever it brings in the long term I think there will be some wobbles on the way. I worry about the availability of meds, I need a certain med daily, I'm not ill as such just deficient in something vital. One positive thing today was I found a strip of 14 tablets. I have about 3 weeks spare now, I am due a 2 month prescription at beginning of March so when we actually exit I will have 5 weeks of that left (I get it a week before my old one runs out) and now an extra 3 weeks worth. I've found odd tablets in various handbags, drawers and a suitcase as I will take a strip with me and if I have 2 or 3 tablets left I might just forget it till the next trip. Don't know why this strip of 14 is there, I suspect it must have dropped in my bag when I picked up a prescription. So I can go 8 weeks post brexit before I run out, hope things settle by them. I can also drop slightly, I am on the boundary of 1.5 or 2 tablets a day so I am thinking of doing a day or two each weeks on the lower dose. Don't think it will hurt as at my last review my doctor was thinking of reducing it. It will let me build up my stock. My main worry is my DD is on the same med, half my dose but she still needs it so I might need to share.


Last resort I will be using my Irish passport and sorting it out there. I pity people with cancer needing treatment with radioisotopes as that is likely to be a problem.


Not doing a good job of cheering myself up here so I'm going to go a make a cuppa.