“Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.”

WannabeFree

Morning

Thank you
Im not even sure moving will help. I think I'm just in a whirl of panic and trying to sort stuff out.

I'm going to pawn my phone and things today to resolve the bigger issue and see what follows. Finding out how to prevent it happening again.

Older two are ready for school. Youngest is quite poorly so I have her home.

Thank you again

Have a lovely day

x

teafor2

Hi WB Sorry to hear you're in the position of having to take on debt again. Hope it's only a temporary measure and you're not having to pay ridiculous interest rates.

Easier said than done I know but if you're feeling panicked try not to make any knee jerk decisions. Is there anybody you can talk things through with just to get a different perspective/ideas before you make any decisions? Sometimes we can't always see things clearly or rationally when it's our problem.

Hope DD is feeling better soon. There seems to be a lot of germs around at the moment. xx

WannabeFree

Thanks tea

No not really anyone to discuss it with. I'm worried about the backlash from discussing it with someone and it being taken further.

Just waiting on her nurse phoning before we head to town and to the pawn shop etc.

The weather is really miserable isn't it!

milann

Take care Wannabe - sending some positive vibes your way.

WannabeFree

Thank you x

Just before I go silent for a few weeks I don't want to leave it on the negative side.

Since starting my diary I now have no consumer debt. I have No rent arrears, no council tax arrears, no court order over our home and no court fines. A very very big difference to this time 12 months ago. I have a bed, we have a holiday coming up in less than 4 weeks. I've made some amazing friends I will treasure forever both online and even offline.

It's definitely been a long journey with plenty of ups and very lows. However I will get past this hurdle like the others. I definitely wouldn't be where I am today without the help and friends I've made here though.

Thank you for all my readers. The replies. The messages. The silent readers who leave a thanks and those who take the time to send texts and things in the post. I appreciate it all. Every little bit.

I will be back as soon as I have internet access this is definitely not an end. I just wanted to leave a positive instead of radio silence xx

Cherryfudge

Sending hugs Wannabe. Remember you may be able to get some internet access in a library, and maybe the SA could find you some too? xx

teafor2

You've definitely come a long way in the past few months. I really hope things work out for you. Don't be afraid to get in touch if you need anything. Hope DS enjoys his residential xx

WannabeFree

Thank you

We are all ready for morning. It's a very early start. Well it always is but we have to be at school really early for DS then come home then take DD back. I think youngest will still be off.

We had the lentil curry from the freezer for dinner (well the smalls did!) I'm just making some toast.

Have lifted some mince out for tomorrow will make it in to cottage pie for the girls. It will be strange not having DS here. He spent £3 at the shop on snacks to take. I was surprised he chose some biscuits and sultanas along with the sweets rather than all sweets. I left it all to him afterall it's a treat and definitely not regular. The only thing I forgot was gloves so I'm hoping one of friends have a spare pair.

x

Cherryfudge

My train might go past you again tomorrow - I'll be sending a virtual wave not a real one as I don't actually know what you look like. The thought is definitely there though.
I hope the residential is a big success. You will miss him lots but he'll be back pretty soon, and it's all bringing you closer to the holiday.
I hope youngest is feeling better soon and you get sleep tonight x

Honeysucklelou2

Hope the residential goes well.

Is it worth popping into a CAB? You could get advice there that may help...