Dancing through the rain with a smile and good cheer

please-let-me-be-lucky

Sounds like you’ve done the right thing BM.

Onwards and upwards Xx

Bubblesmum

please-let-me-be-lucky wrote: »

Sounds like you’ve done the right thing BM.

Onwards and upwards Xx

Ta, I think I have and yesterday I applied for my old job back, the one I left a few years ago... here’s hoping

Bubblesmum

Sunday 18th February

My Duracell batteries are empty. The alarm went off at 7.30am in order I could do both morning services. It’s 10.11 I’m in bed having had a shower, so I’ve missed the first service. I have to be at the second as I’m on projector duty.

I am trying to give myself a pep talk... you can do it...

My anxiety levels are reasonably high.

Today I have got to do:

1. Projector for 11.15 family service
2. Wash up get together for Christmas Day at the Greeno
3. Bake a cake to take to 2 so I don’t spend anything

Tomorrow

1. Work
2. Lent Group at church
3. Promised a cake

Tuesday

1. Work
2. Amateur dramatics committee meeting
3. Prepare accounts and paperwork for 2

Wednesday

1. Pilates 1:1
2. I Daniel Blake is the film @ church film club

Thursday

1. Work

Friday

1. London to have back done at osteopath etc

Saturday

1. Prepare for lunch with friends on Sunday.


An hour later .........

So I have made it to church to do projector.

Really struggling with patience this morning and I know it’s because of fatigue and anxiety.

Firstly when I explained all the above to OH this morning. He was silent ( typically he says he has not a clue what to say) 10 minutes later he asked how I was feeling - the same as 10 minutes ago.

Then I pick up two messages - and I think well ok. I felt annoyed it’s two people who could have taken on the sad task of telling a family member that my Aunt has died after a tragic accident. Instead it’s me and I’ve done it despite the person being abroad.

Then my OH driving me to church spots a friend and makes a “funny comment” about what he looks like. Except for me it’s not funny it’s actually taking the Micky and I think it’s horrible.

I have given up moaning for lent. Several pounds need to go in the pot for the diocesan lent appeal for homelessness

2 hours later

Well I neatly toppled over in front of the rector, that’s how unsteady on feet I am today

Come home, washing is on, and I should be thankful but that’s not a priority today.

I have made a banana loaf, using bananas from the freezer and store cupboard goodies.

Went out to composter and heard water feature so7nding poorly. oH has gone and fixed it. Then trampled mud in across th3 newly cleaned cream carpet :mad::mad:.

I am shattered and so cross with OH, and feel so alone.

maddiemay

De-lurking to say it is good to see your diary again, but so sorry that life is so tough for you ATM, not sure if gentle virtual hugs are appropriate, but if not and anyway healing caring thoughts coming your way. You have such a busy week ahead, I hope that you can slot in some rest and relaxation/meditation.

please-let-me-be-lucky

Sorry to hear all that BM. Sending gentle hugs your way Xx

beanielou

Job sounded dire so you are well out of that.
Sorry that you are not having the best of weekend's :sad: :sad:
Take care of you xxx

Sun_Addict

BM didn't realise you had a new diary - wondered where you'd gone.

Sorry to read things are a bit meh at the moment, hoping this is short-lived.

Have re-subscribed.

Bubblesmum

Monday 19th February


Thank you for all your lovely messages .... typed this morning ...

Laying in bed - fatigue levels still high but need to. Be in work in just over an hour.

Yesterday - well I made it. Christmas Day wash up meeting done and I hope more volunteers for this Christmas.

Home and collapsed on sofa, to watch casualty on the drama channel ( old ones) and then the new Endeavour.

Tea was a yellow stickered meal from the garage Mr M & Mr S - not bad and better than a takeaway/roast at pub as both had no spoons left to cook.

Had truce with OH before we went out. Trouble is we are so chalk and cheese we rub each other up the wrong way at times. Plus yesterday my peri menopausal hormones seemed to be raging.

This morning my eyes are itching with tiredness and I have less spoons than yesterday but I cannot duck out of work. Counting down the days now 5 to go.

So I made it to work..... but not the lent study group, I have sofa surfed since I got in binging on casualties old and new

Now in bed with hot chocolate and nearly lights out.

NSD and ate from the freezer / store cupboard today

Will have to wait until Wednesday for a financial review

savingholmes

Hi Bubblesmum - sounds like you are coping well in trying circumstances. Sounds like you are a very giving person too and do a lot for others. Look after yourself too.

jvr

Hi De-lurking as enjoyed your diary and glad to see you back. Sorry things have been really hard at the moment and I hope you find some more spoons!